what should i do?

Question

my grandmothers a psycho ***** from hell and has manipulated my family many a time in the past. She's turned me against my own mother before when i was young (i didn't see my mum much as she was always working as we had a low income and my dad was at college so she babysat) she never agreed with my mum. She convinced me that i'd murdered my best friend when i was 5 yrs old and i was believed her for 6 years.
mum then put me into counselling to help convince myself that i didn't kill him he was an old man with a drinking problem that died of alcohol abuse. she left us alone for a while whilst i was finding my feet during the whole family arguments. she has manipulated my dad again and we had a huge row and i felt like i was absolutely nothing to anyone... my mum has now had a row with me just cause she has major PMT and she is overtired so she took it out on me and i felt like something for her to break.
what's the best that i can do i've already zoned out and cut myself once

i don't want to do it again i zoned out and phoned my friend cause i realised i couldn't be on my own

i've just been asked how old i am
i am 15 and turning 16 at the end of the year (dec 16th) i sound young and naive but i am actually quite grown up for my age alot of the time ... ( i admit i have my moments)

Answer 1

I think huni, if things are really getting that bad let me know! and (I'm not trying to convince you about this) if you decided to do anything like run away r whatever you kow my Mum and Dad a.k.a Your adoptive rents will take you in and Mum will call yours to tell her okay! I love you so much and plz stop cutting, you know what happened with me and you told me to try and stop so plz don't do it again we're always here for you (BAM included)

love you
xxxxxxxxxxx

Answer 2

I'm glad that you decided to phone a friend and talk, it's good that you have a friend that you can do that with. Cutting will only make you feel worse in the long run. I have friends that have been through this and it's not pretty.

Sounds like you have some maturity to see the difference between what is real and what is manipulated, always remember this when there is an issue happening, try to think of why it's happening, what made it get to this point. You know it is not your fault, and I think you know that your mother does not mean to take things out on you, PMT can be bad for some. When your grandmother manipulates people and you know about it, tell them the truth, it can't make it any worse. Good Luck and I hope things get better.

Answer 3

I don't know if you are going to get the kind of help you need on here, especially since you have cut yourself once in the past.

As it turns out, I have been dealing with depression and bottled up anger for a very very long time. I mean, we're talking somewhere around 35 years or so worth (I'm 47 now).

Unfortunately, it took me hitting rock bottom and attempting suicide 2.5 years ago to end up under the care of a Psychiatrist and seeing a therapist. I am still still taking the same meds I was taking back then (a ton of psych meds) and seeing my therapist, but I'm doing better. I'm no longer extremely depressed like i use to be and I don't have the violent thoughts like I use to have.

Anyway, back when I was growing up my parents got divorced and I ended up being the middle man in their battles. Plus, I was also the delivery boy for the child support, and I heard about it when my dad was late. I also had more bosses than I knew what to do with because my grandmother was watching us kids while my mom was at work, and there was the guy from upstairs too. So, I had all these adults telling me what to do and sometimes what they told me to do would confict.

I tell you if it hadn't been for me getting hurt on the job and ending up in the hospital for 3 months, and then laid up at home for another 8 months after that. I would have been out of there as soon as I could.

However, as soon as I was able to get on my feet again I moved out and as far a way as I could get, and shortly afterwards I cut all ties with my entire family.

It wasn't until just this past January that I contacted my mother again and re-established my connection with her and my brother and sister. Everything is going much better now that I have my depression under control, and I'm not the middle man in a fight or have a bunch of bosses.

Answer 4

One , how old are you , it would help for people who you are asking advice , to know this .
People are manipulative ,and it sounds like Gran is a bad example .
I can only suggest that you concentrate your energy into junior sport . Join a football club , or net ball , what ever takes your fancy .
Why ?
Your family always comes first , bit in situations like this you need to get support from some one indifferent . People in junior sports are very supportive , and whilst you may not receive counselling , you will be involved with people who will care for you , and how you feel .
its only a suggestion , and its all I came up with .
If your not interested in sport , try a local youth group . don't concern yourself with politics about Christianity , it's the release from home I feel you need .

Answer 5

i think you need a new life but since is impossible so if i were you How old are you? I will go live with aunt or uncle do you have any of those people? you need to pay no attention then your family are argument and not get into an arugment with them, for your mom she take things out on you, tell her how it make you feel she will understand i think she don't know what she was doing.