i started uni this year and i don't have many close friends at all..seems like everyone at uni already haf frens & not interested in makin more..i used to have heaps at high school but we all kinda lost touch & some just moved on..and i guess it was partly my fault too..i deliberately didnt keep in touch with most..cos i thought i could find new friends easily but its harder than i thought. i haf low self esteem but at the same time i think im better than everyone else..not better as in im cocky, i don't quite know..its hard to explain.i have suicidal thoughts jus about everyday..jus flying thoughts..'i wish i was dead then i wouldn't haf to deal with this'..etc. i use to cut myself..but i stopped cos i hate the scars it leaves cos i hate gettin questioned about it. I just think that i shouldn't be dealin wif this 'teenage-low-self-esteem-crap' anymore..im turning 24 for god sakes. I hang out wif my boyfren mainly.my few existin frens all seem so fake. feel really alone :(
2006-09-11
00:19:18
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Khandra J
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