kinda long but
It's almost 11:30, and you're probably asleep.
I guess you could say that this time, I got in too deep.
This is so unlike me, and I hope you know.
You've changed me unbelieveably, and I can't seem to
let you go.
I finally found someone, someone who was just right.
Someone who I wouldn't let go of, no matter how much we b*tched, or fight.
I've made mistakes, and we both know you have too.
How could this just end, considering all we have been through.
You promised, you would keep me, and it wasn't over yet.
But it's hard to believe when you're not here, and my pillows soaking wet.
Don't you know, that I'm hurt, and scared.
Don't you realize that I will always care.
I wish that they would understand and see.
How great we are, and how much you mean to me.
You don't seem worried, you don't seem that upset.
But then again, you said that you'd never regret.
You lifted my chin, and told me to stop when I began to cry.
You said this was just another bump, it will never be a goodbye.
It seems like I will never be able to laugh or even smile.
You seem too far away. More like a thousand miles.
But when I wake up, all there is left of me.
Is this girl who feels like there's nothing left to be.
So let me put on this act, and paint on a smile.
Give me some time, because it'll smear off after a while.
You don't want to see me now, not yet you see.
I'm a walking mess - "the wreck", yes, that's me.
I can't say that my heart is broke, or even breaking.
But when I think about you, my eyes cry and my bodies shaking.
My lips quiver, and my hands turn numb.
It's all my fault, you won't admit it. I feel so dumb.
Would you be happy wihout me? I don't think I would.
Would you find someone else, because I don't think I could.
The past will haunt me, and go with me everywhere.
If I was with another guy. In my heart, you'd still be there.
Everyone said that it would never work, how would they know?
How would I accept it, when they said "I told you so".
Could I tell you to wait for me, no matter how long?
I don't think you would, but please prove me wrong.
It's a never ending nightmare from here.
So I'm letting go of this worry and this frea.
It's like I'm lost, ad you can't find me.
Like it's a blizzard, it's to foggy for you to see.
Here, I am, Screaming, calling your name.
I wake up in the bed by myself, it doesn't feel the same.
Your arms aren't around me. Your kisses don't cover my forehead.
Takes me everything just to get out of bed.
Everytime the phone rings, my hopes get high.
I look at the caller ID, and hope that it's a lie.
But why would it lie to me, when you won't call.
I know that, but you hope for anything, when you're about to fall.
I never wanted any of this crazy-mixed up mess.
I never asked for this heartache-this pain in my chest.
You lied to me when you said that everything would be okay.
I can't seem to speak, even though I have so much to say.
When I wake up, all there is left of me.
Is this girl who feels like there's nothing left to be.
So let me put on this act, and paint on a smile.
Give me some time, because it'll smear off after a while.
I'm scared to dream up something new.
Because there's that chance I wouldn't be with you there too.
Chances will never be taken, taking risks only if I'm sure.
If this doesn't get better, remember me better then a blurr.
It's midnight now, you're probably fast asleep.
I just want you to know, that loving you, means I'm in too deep
2006-09-05 19:01:06
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answer #2
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answered by www.fantasygrrl 2
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