People who have considered suicide?

Question

what drove you to such desperation, and how did you get through it?
Im sorry If Im being to personal but sometimes I hurt so much it seems easier to die than to actually endure the severity of pain I feel inside... I am extremely depressed and I think it would help to heal my brokenness with some of your own personal experiences and I hope to find the strength you found to pull yourselves out of that situation... you dont have to tell every excrutiating detail if you dont want to share... I appreciate anyone who answers

to the guy who said why are you still sitting here, I have tried many times in the past to kill myself I shoved 25 pills down my throat, stepped in front of moving traffic, but I had someone there, what if I dont have anyone who can save me from myself now. Please dont assume that because I havent done it already I am not going to do something like this. because how can you know for sure whether your answer wouldnt drive me to going ahead and finishing the job. You shouldnt tell people who want to do things like this to go ahead and do it. What if it was someone you cared about. Would you tell them the same thing?

Answer 1

You are not alone..,ironic how some things work.Heres the irony to my story..,I have screwed up so many times in my life and hurt alot of people..,mostly my children and my parents.I cannot turn back time and they have forgiven me..,i just cant seem to forgive myself.I have tried to kill myself as well..,a few times..,but the irony is now I have a fatal disease,and I am dying and now I dont want to.Just call me that white stuff on top of chicken poop..,more chicken poop.Hope I got you to smile on that one.We keep reaching but we dont know why and who for.But dont stop reaching..,because one day someone will take your hand and guide you through the hell you are going through.Take one moment at a time because a day for us is eternity.Hang on and hang in there,put on every sad pity party song you want and cry until you cant cry anymore and sleep a peaceful sleep because the sun will shine through your windows tomorrow and you know if you go..,who will fill those shoes of yours?Just hang on ok?Get through tonight and tomorrow you will be stronger.

Answer 2

It was in junior high and my two best and only friends had just dumped me because they just didn't want to be my friends anymore. They were pretty much the only friends I had and it was a week after my birthday and a few days before we had planned to hang out. I actually sat down at my kitchen table with a carving knife and had a suicide note written out. I started crying but then I started thinking of what I wanted to do in life that I was going to miss out on. No going to China, no living in New York and shopping every weekend, no learning how to scuba dive in the coral reefs. Even though it still really hurt, I couldn't pick up the knife anymore. Once I started making new friends, everything got better. But I am still depressed and suicidal sometimes, it is just a lot better and I am a lot happier most of the time. Also, I think that killing yourself would be really hard to follow through with. And it would hurt so I just don't have the courage or the willpower to go through with it. Good luck and I hope that everything turns out better soon. I love you, whoever you are, and I believe that you can do whatever you want to, no matter how painful it is to live with.

Answer 3

I'm a private person so rather not go over the past, but little things helped me to get by. That's not to say that I didn't talk about my problems to friends, see a psychiatrist or people I knew. That was important and helped to focus on positive things instead of negative things like revenge. It's not good to keep things bottled inside nor good to only talk about your own problems. Other people have their problems, too.

Things like opening the shade and window to check the weather and letting fresh air come in. Doing the dishes, chores around the house and doing what I can on a schedule. Cooking for myself and eating three regular meals a day was hard.

I used to think people take it for granted they come home from work tired, have dinner and watch tv or read. Plan for the weekend. They thought it was boring, but it would've been a dream for me.

I spent time on the computer or went to the movies by myself if I couldn't find anyone to go with. But I always set a time limit. One or two hours on the computer. Two to three hours for a movie. Go shopping, but don't dally. Make a list of things to do. Getting a routine became important for me. It was like being a kid again.

Then I started to exercise and lose some weight that the anti-depressant pills had put on. It was hard at first to be consistent, but gradually it came.

For years, there was no light at the end of the tunnel. Then one day it happened. Old dreams that I couldn't reach anymore were replaced by new ones. Things do change and you see things differently in a new light.

Life is wonderful.

Answer 4

Sweetheart.. we've all had our own personal struggles and experiences in life. Some good, some bad.. and some of us unfortunately seem to have had more misfortune than others. I've thought about this so many times, and considered it myself.. but then again I am bi polar, though I can't use that as a crutch.. I go through mood swings, worse than most normal females do. =D But then again, is anybody really "normal"? And which one of us ladies doesn't experience mood swings, even if it's only occasional? Or serious bouts of depression, for that matter. There are beautiful aspects of life, you just have to wipe the tears away and open your eyes to see them. I'm not gonna give you the infamous "Ohhh, there are people who have it much worse" though it can help temporarily for some people. But I'll give you the infamous "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger." You're here for a reason.. even if you don't know what that reason is yet. And I've learned that from experience. Whatever you've been through, there is somebody in this world that can relate to some degree.. or maybe even completely. Think of this.. because it helped me. Your family and other people around you would be hurt so much if you left them.. It's one of the things people don't consider before they contemplate or attempt suicide. Think of your younger family members, if you have any. How would it be explained to them? It would change the lives of others forever, and not in a good way. Music has helped me.. just no depressing songs. Listen to uplifting ear candy! And what might help also is to pamper yourself.. There are many good things about you that of course I don't even know, cause I don't know you.. but maybe you don't see them yourself. Think of all your talents, abilities.. and all the good things that make you, you. God bless baby gurl.

Answer 5

I don't really know what drove me to feel suicidal apart from depression and a feeling that everything was so pointless. I needed to have medication before the suicidal feelings abated. Then it took a couple of years treatment to get rid of the depression. When I was depressed suicide seemed like a rational choice to escape the pain I was feeling - in fact it didn't seem odd at all. It is only now that I can see how strange that was. Because you are dealing with the mind it is nearly impossible to remember how and what feelings were triggering these thoughts.

Answer 6

Sweetheart,
I'm not sure how old you are but I'm 25 years old. I have felt like commiting suicide so many times. I actually felt it again just labor day. What gets me is that I go out to the club, hang with my new found friends and also have a job I really enjoy. I'm not sure as to why I still feel this depressed. But, I do know for sure that its only when I'm alone. I fell into tears Labor day because the thought had crossed my again. I left my driveway to go to the video store to get a movie to take my mind off it. As I was pulling away from my home, an elderly lady fell over in her electric wheel chair. I was the only one who was there to help her. God has strange ways of showing us that we still have purpose.

Answer 7

Im sure you'll get over depression soon. Before summer I was very depressed just like you. I had to tell my parents that I wont be graduating highschool because i need 1 more credit. anyway, I was so scared because theyre like so strict when it comes to education. so what happened was I wrote them a letter, and went out for a day. I told them how sorry i was and that I wouldnt make it into university..... they got really pissed.... took my car keys and then they didnt talk to me for a week... then theyve looked on the brightside that theyre prolly giving me a hrad time so they got over it and we've discussed what i should do next, why i need more credit and blah blah.. thats y im going back to school tomorrow... then they gave me my car back. so yeah.... Im pretty sure ur problem is less worse than this. I hope ull feel better and wont suicide.... =[

Answer 8

When I was a teenager I thought of it. I even wrote out a note. That is kind of what saved me, the more I wrote about my family, the more I realized how hurt they would be with out me. I knew that they would blame themselves and I knew I didn't want that to happen.

I finally talked to my parents about my depression and saw a counselor. I am now 36 yrs old, happily married for 10 yrs and have 2 beautiful children. I love my life and pray every day that nothing ever happens to take my family away from me.

If you are having any suicidal thoughts please seek help. You have your whole life ahead of you to live as you choose to. You can make it anything you want it to be.

Answer 9

i was told to move close to my dad like 3 yrs ago and ever since ive seen so deprssed. it sucks having sumone trying so ahrd to be ur dad and not suceeding. i hate him now but yeah.. this yr has been my worst. i have no frinds and **** and ive actually attmepted to stab myself through ******* chest. take that knife and drive it through and even my own neck.. once i was in the procees of od tylenols and i dumped the rest of the pills down the sink. the only thing i can do is be deprrssed and not kill myself because i know that im coward.. plp that suceeed are nuts. i mean they must be to the point of no return. thers a aprt of me saying that if i do i'll miss out but those things wont matter.. i even cry somtimes and constantly have thoughts of all my other relatives crying.. it sucks being depressed. u can only fight so hard for so long. one of these im gonna stop fighting unless u find that miracle drug. well u know wat i mean

Answer 10

Oh I pray that you will know happiness! If not today, then tomarow! And how will you know the happiness that awaits you, if you leave us today.
God sent you here to this earth to grow, experience joy, and sadness that we might know joy when we felt it. If your situation is more than you can bare then pray for help from your Father in Heaven. Ask that you can feel his love for you. For you are a child of God sent to this earth to experience life and learn of everything it offers. Sometimes it gets a little difficult. We feel that we just can't do it any more! Thats when if you ask him, God will lift those burdens and make them light to bare. He will not take them away. But he will help you know how to deal with them and make them seem so much smaller than they look now. For He loves you. Each and every person on this earth, he loves us far more than we can ever imagine! I didn't know this for many years. Until someone told me as I'm telling you now. And he reached down from his thrown in the Heavens and touched my heart. Ask him and he will touch yours also! Seek also profesional help. God put Doctors and Health Professionals on this earth for a reason! They can help you. Call someone you trust. If your situation at home is part of the problem then move. If your under age there are Child Legal service workers who will help you. Sometimes those who according to society are supposed to love and protect us are instead our worst enemy. I haven't spoken to my parents for over 15 years. I discovered I was worth more than they portrayed and deserved more than the black hole they kept trying to shove me into. I will pray for every one who is suffering so. Pray that they will feel their Heavenly Fathers love and be strengthened. Strengthened to keep going one more day. One more week, then months and years. Waiting patiently for God to let us know when our time here is done. Because after all - It is according to his will, not ours, that will be done. Bless you all!