no matter what time of day it is, or where I am, or who I am with, I just cant stop thinking about suicide.
I was with my friends for most of the day today. The whole day, the thought of suicide would creep into my mind every few minutes and stick. I even started drafting a suicide note in my head, and I think I even saved a copy to my computer.
My therapist is already considering putting me in a mental hospital. But school is starting soon (im 16) and it would suck to miss alot of days for being in a mental hospital.
But I just cant stop thinking about killing myself. Im not even sure if I want to or not. Usually I do, but sometimes I dont. idk anymore. I've almost given up on everything.
What should I do?
2006-09-04 14:42:43 · 9 answers · asked by trainboy765 4 in Health ➔ Mental Health
A lot of hospitals have schools in them! School should be your last concern right now! Talk to your parents and have them take you to a hospital asap!!!
2006-09-04 14:45:34 · answer #1 · answered by monroe1172002 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
hey man, listen up. My name is matteo and i want you to know a little something about me. I grew up in a very Italian household and always did what my parents told me (kinda). I have friends that have been friends since high school. Currently I reside in Florida but hail from Pennsylvania, i live with my fiance, Sharon, and she is the world to me. I have a cat and a dog, Cleo and Einstein (because the cat Cleo for "cleopatra" can't stop looking in the mirror, and because Einstein is a sheltie, like lassie, and is pretty smart). I rent an apartment, own a car, and work as a security gaurd (3rd shift) for a really wealthy guy. I also have been in the United States Marine Corps for a little over 2 years, I have not seen combat, yet, but am a Lance Corporal, E-3, and loving every second of it. OO-RAH!!! And finally, I'm in a business called Monavie, that is a great product and will be making me A LOT of money soon because it's such a new and great company. But besides all of this I want you to know that I did all this by today, and I just turned 21 years old on August 14th, 2006. I personally think that is a great accomplishment for somebody so young and i want to not only be here in my point of life right now, but continue my success. And you know what, you can do the same, i guarantee it, not because you have "potential,"-heck, i don't even know you, but because if i can do it, so can you. I have been through lots in my life and i'm sure you have too. I had to witness my father almost beat my mother to death, but i saved her. and i couldn't have done that if i wasn't on this earth to do that. so even though this is just a short paragraph of some guy that you don't know or even give a crap about. i want you to know that if you want to talk just pass me an email so we can figure out you best choices, because that's what lifes all about. peace, bud.
2006-09-04 21:58:59 · answer #2 · answered by matteo f 2 · 1⤊ 0⤋
You're worried about missing days while in the hospital? Guess you'd miss a whole lot more if you kill yourself. Don't do it. Nothing is worth that. It will hurt the people you leave behind more than you will ever know. If you want this thought to go away, talk to your folks and your therapist and go to the hospital. There is nothing wrong with getting help. Hang in there. Life just keeps getting better and I'd hate to see you miss it.
2006-09-04 21:47:38 · answer #3 · answered by Chloe 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
So sad, something obviously happened to you as a child, something that is so unbearable for you to think about, that if makes you feel this world is full of disappointment.
I dont know what this specific problem is, but your therapist should and should be making some kind of inroads with you.
Your constant thoughts of suicide is very troubling to me and tells me that whatever happened to you is not being dealt with.
Are you on any kind of medication? If you arent, then maybe you should be, or if you are, and you are still having these suicidal thoughts your medication may need to be changed. Medication, together with counselling can help, one without the other sometimes isnt enough.
I wish I could talk to you personally and find out exactly why you are feeling suicidal. You need to talk about it, and sometimes therapists cannot be there when you need them most....Maybe hospital is an option for you at this moment. You certainly need a friend right now, if not a friend then at least get yourself into a supportive environment where people will understand you.
Your life is so precious...I know you dont think so. This is not a cliche, but things rarely stay the same, with time things do get better, but if you end your life now, you will never know if that is true.
I have worked in the welfare sector for 25 years and have seen some pretty sad things...the saddest being a young person taking their own life....but you know what a young guy I used to work with, I thought, was really going to kill himself, even with the counselling and support he had. He had no will to live, he lived on the streets, was heavily into drugs and he felt absolutely miserable. I met him 12 months ago, and he thanked me for supporting and encouraging him through those difficult years and for not giving up on him. He was married to a beautiful woman with two gorgeous kids. I kept on telling him when he was in his suicidal stage that you just never know what is around the corner, it could be tomorrow, it could be next week, it could be 2 years from now that someone will enter your life and you will experience ultimate happiness....all you have to do is to believe it will happen and hang on....live each day as it comes, always with the thought in your mind, that something/someone wonderful is around the corner. If he had killed himself then there would have been no possibility of him ever finding his true love and being happily married.....He thought at the time, that his life was going to be this way forever. He knows now I was right in everything I ever said to him. Time changes everything.....Please hang onto that thought and do whatever it takes to keep yourself alive.
My heart goes out to you, take care of yourself, you are a very precious person.
I would be very happy to chat with you on line, but I dont know how to go about it. I have yahoo messenger and if there is a way to give only you my contact name, then I would be happy to do that. Just know this, you do have the power to change your life...people dont save other peoples lives when they are thinking of suicide....they make suggestions, they support, but they cant save your life....but you can, you have that power.
2006-09-08 18:40:55 · answer #4 · answered by rightio 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Hospitals are not bad. I have been there. You are able to meet others too with your same feelings. Being closed off from the world for awhile is good while receiving intensive care. My therapist states to tell yourself that suicide is not an option everytime you have the thought. She also says that a thought is a thought. Now, making plans is a different story.
2006-09-04 21:49:48 · answer #5 · answered by catzrme 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Im telling you something here and i want you to listen closely to me. Susicide is not the answer to anything and not even worth thinking about or doing. Consider that. Alot of ppl will miss you, including your enemys, family, and friends. its not something worth your time. There are alot things better to put on your mind than susicide. You need some serious help and someone to talk to. You can consider talking to me. I have helped someone who wanted to commite susicide not do it and not think about it anymore...i have helped and saved his life. he thanked me. Now he tells me he is doing alot better than before and not thinking about and thinking more better. Susicide is really not the answer...like i said its not worth it and alot of ppl will miss you and you have a full life ahead of you...this means a future. Believe me things will turn out alot better for you if you don't do this.
Good Luck and I hope this susicide thing passes you by and you don't do it or think about it.
2006-09-04 21:50:19 · answer #6 · answered by ♥mcmanda♥ 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
If your therapist thinks you need to go to a pychiatric facility, it's best you do what she/he thinks. It will suck missing school but in the end, your life is more important than school. You can always catch up on the school work later.
2006-09-04 21:47:28 · answer #7 · answered by leafs1318 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Dude, do you know how many million people would give up everything they own to be 16 years old, to have that marvelous fast-healing body and flexible, adaptable mind? Please do consider the hospital before you throw that away - it's priceless. You can do anything you want with your life, but only if you live it.
Take care of yourself, really. Please?
2006-09-04 21:49:43 · answer #8 · answered by Steve H 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
What do your parents think? Maybe going the the hospital would be best. Even if you get to go to school, how much can you really concentrate if you are thinking about killing yourself all the time?
And PLEASE, PLEASE don't do it!!!!!!!
Don't waste your life, that's my advice.
2006-09-04 21:46:53 · answer #9 · answered by ? 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋