I dont have any light anymore, all I feel is the darkness, pain, fear and hate... If noone knows, pain and fear create hate and I will never be happy again and never find him... the one... NEVER!! No ******* psychic knows and never will... Nobody ******* knows what I feel and how dark my heart and soul are and nobody cares!! help if you want, but thats it... nothing will happen... NOTHING!!
So people will just answer this and yell at me, say Im nothing... Nobody feels how I do, so all you worthless, heartless people can go to Hell and die... Death awaits...
2006-09-04 07:59:12 · 14 answers · asked by Flesrayne 3 in Family & Relationships ➔ Singles & Dating
Wow.... Flash from the past. I remember being in a hell like that. I remember a time when I would post something like that too. I remember feeling so angry at the world, at my life, and at God that I would yell at Him to strike me down or leave me alone and quite ******* with my life. I remember a time when I almost choked on the bile of bitter pain, fear, and raging hate. I remember being in a hell so dark and lonely that if I didn't feel a guilty responsibility to family and friends to keep living, I would have take an extreme action.
And you're right.... There's not a damned thing I can say that will help you in that place. At least not until your mind/soul is ready to really listen. You're too busy dealing with the raging storms within to find peace or comfort without.
But I can tell you two things.... One, that darkness is not everlasting. IT WILL PASS. And two, it is not all consuming. You do still have a light. It maybe a small burning ember, but it's there. And all it will take is the right circumstances to bring it back to full brightness.
Shaman says - Seek to calm the storms within and find love and respect for yourself. Then, you'll be able to find the happiness you're seeking.
2006-09-06 07:10:37 · answer #1 · answered by Shaman 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Sounds a lot like my life. No one can be sensitive nowadays. I've been in the darkness for the better part of my thirties. Many people I loved died, including my father.My heart feels like it has been ripped out of my chest and the pain is unbearable. I practice the occult so I did some mojo, very dark mojo and the people who hurt me and destroyed my life all almost all dead. I may sound like I am cruel by doing this but I can't even write the cruelties they did to me on this site without it being removed. When I see evil in a person's heart and they have no soul they don't deserve to live. And why the hell does everyone say it is God who dictates their fate. **** God he never did anything for me.
2006-09-04 08:08:04 · answer #2 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
Wow, man, you are in pain. Don't get stuck there. Unless you want to. If there is anything you're getting out of feeling this way, you won't see any change.
If, on the other hand, you do want to crawl out of that dark hole you're in, you can try this. May sound trite & stupid, works like a charm, though. Make a gratitude list. List all the things you're grateful for. Being able to breathe without a machine might be one. Ability to see, hear, smell, taste, touch might be on that list. Having a computer/internet to reach out of the hole & get help might be another. Anyway. Make a list. Tomorrow, make a list. Next day. You might even start to FEEL grateful for something. You've already started the climb out of the hole the first time you make a list, by that time you should be feeling some light...
2006-09-04 08:07:33 · answer #3 · answered by Helga J 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
you have a great style of themes, do you visit a therapist or take any medicine? And its good you comprehend what you have because of the fact thats a million/2 of the undertaking, have been you in general like this? (by the way i'm purely a sixteen twelve months previous female, i come across psychological wellbeing very exciting and that i prefer to help in some way, you do no longer could ...idk 'hardship' with all of this answerif you think of its merely nonsense, i'm getting that). i've got faith a number of the flaws you experience, I even have an interest in men.. yet i've got purely ever had one boyfriend, he became 24, he left me for yet another female because of the fact he couldnt cope with long distance. Do you have close friends? or maybe one or 2? Or do you merely close off from all and sundry thoroughly? There are a extensive style of motives which you think of this way, and the useful guy or woman might say "you will get greater appropriate" yet i'm no longer useful, merely.. in case you have not got already got therapy classes, you're able to have them.. provided which you're prepared to be fairly common, perchance with a great style of enable you to'll get greater appropriate, i'm no longer asserting you will love unicorns and rainbows, yet something is greater appropriate than thinking why you reside, and wanting to count on video games to make you experience greater appropriate
2016-09-30 08:20:47 · answer #4 · answered by ? 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Try to dwell on the positive and bright side of thing,
light instead of darkness.
I would start by changing your name, it reflects who you are. At least you are alive. Ask yourself why you feel the way you do and what you can do to help it. I suggest adding God in your life because he died for you and loves you more than you know. Talk to him and ask him into your heart and replace your hate, anger and fear with love, peace, and joy... he will do it. Good luck
2006-09-04 08:17:32 · answer #5 · answered by lynn t 1 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I am not gonna tell you anything about looking for the light or any other cr@p like that because i suffer from a really bad depression and i don't have control over my anger so if you are serious and you really feel like that i just gotta say that i know exactly how that feels like, actually i think i invented the feeling
2006-09-04 08:09:48 · answer #6 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
Your wrong..
I have had them dark feeling myself...what you gotta do is turn the negatives into positives..
many people have felt down at one point or another in their life it is what life is,if it went perfect all the time you would get sick of it too.
2006-09-04 08:04:28 · answer #7 · answered by steve 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Yes, my son give your soul to the great beezlebub, We are all waiting for you down here. Do not be afraid of the darkness it will comfort you and give you warmth. All lost souls are heartless and dead you of all people should know that by now, so death cannot await if we already are.......................666.......................
2006-09-04 08:04:18 · answer #8 · answered by Alucard 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
why dont you go to church and it might change the way youre feeling at this time...or do something new that makes you happy and forget the things that makes you sick...why dont you go to school, make a career to start your own path for your future...for example nursing, i am a nursing student ryt now so we can help each other, you know...common'
2006-09-04 08:08:04 · answer #9 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
maybe you should have god in your life because ppl with god in their lives dont feel like that , if you have questions you can email me
2006-09-04 08:01:45 · answer #10 · answered by BABY_GURL 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋