i have had several times in my life where ideation about suicide was very enticing to my mind. during my first serious bout with clinical dpression and anxiety, i welcomed the thoughts of suicide. the painfully miserable existence i was living didn't seem to have any hope for improvement. my head constantly felt like it was going to break into a million tiny pieces. i finally understood the idiom "cracking up." i couldn't eat, sleep, concentrate, entertain rationale thoughts, or leave the house. my favorite activity was lying in bed, in the fetile position, lights out, all by myself. attempting to do simple tasks overwhelmed me to tears. i cried non-stop. i keep making dates wi/myself when i was going to commit the fatal act.
depression is a horrible disease. it strips you of your self-esteem, your dignity, and your sense of self-worth. you feel like there is not a single reason for you to keep living in this intolerable condition. death becomes the only escape route.
fortunately, i decided to confide in my general practicioner, who referred me immediately to a psychiatrist. he prescribed anti-depressant(s) and anti-anxiety drugs as well as the requirement that i engage in talk theraphy w/him or a psychologist. i chose to work with my psychiatrist, which was very beneficial.
the a/d's took about 6-8 weeks for me to feel the full impact of their medicinal purpose. But day-by-day my condition improved.
negative thoughts were slowly disappearing. i was beginning to feel human again.
life returned to normal for several years. but then a major unjust event came my way and i sank into another 3-6 month depression. this episode was so intense. i cried constantly.
thoughts of suicide were utmost in my life. i needed to ned the pain. again, my psychiatrist came to the rescue. by changing medicines or increasing doses, i was able to come back to life again.
my final episode with my friend, depression, set in right after i retired due to a series of panic attacks brought on by conditions at work. this episode was intense, but didn't last as long as the first two. again, i have to seek psychiatric help.
depression is not your fault. it occur due to a chemical imbalance in the brain.
Best of luck to you. please seek the help of a psychiatrist. there is life beyond depression. Always remember, "suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem." I hope this line works for you. it helped me through many desperate moments.
2006-09-04 07:47:33
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answered by Anonymous
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Whoa...just a little hostile are we today? This is a serious subject so it is understandable not to want the 'oh poor me' types of advice.
I will tell you this, I believe almost everyone, at one time or another has thought about suicide, even if just a passing fantasy 'what if' scenario. If you are contemplating it yourself, and feel it's out of control, please call a suicide hot line for some relief, then get yourself to a community psyche clinic for evaluation. Remember, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary situation. Help is available, and the mental and emotional torture you may be experiencing CAN be brought under control by other means besides taking your life.
2006-09-04 06:35:35
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answered by The Oldest Man In The World 6
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definite, i've got had them. I warfare from melancholy, bipolar 2 actually. There are good the thank you to handle those ideas by cognitive therapy yet while your ideas are being brought about by chemical imbalances, you will possibly prefer to ascertain psychiatrist and have it dealt with medically. If the ideas are merely ideas, as in case you wanted you have been lifeless, it incredibly is termed suicide ideation. it rather is closer to a fantasy the place you like some sort of escape out of your present subject. that's not incredibly risky, yet you're able to talk with somebody. If the ideas become greater concrete and you have approaches in which you will go approximately doing it, it rather is greater pressing. be at liberty to e mail me in case you like to speak. I even have incredibly properly study a number of those themes and that i'm able to propose some components. i comprehend 2 brothers who the two committed suicided contained in the final six months and that i think of it ought to have been prevented.
2016-09-30 08:16:49
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answered by bradberry 3
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yeah, more than once... i've been going through depression-- i think that's what this lonely road i've been traveling on is-- and a voice in my head arises and said, "There's a blade. You can take it to your wrist and slash it and see the beautiful red blood on your skin and on the carpet and all over your body. Won't that be a sight, Salma? And think about it... you won't have to worry about anything... nothing at all... just forget it all, lose consciousness slowly, get colder than you already are, then slip away like a leaf falls from a tree." Then, i shake my head, disgusted at myself for being drawn to that thought...
I've given up on boys because I want more than a "you wanna be my girlfriend?" guy... i want something deeper and i'm not getting that so i wouldn't even CONSIDER committing suicide over a useless guy...
When the thoughts do come out of the dark crevices of my mind, I think about books and music-- they are the loves of my life. My curiosity about those two give me life. Also, I don't think I have the courage to actually kill myself. I'd look like a stupid little piece of crap if I slashed my wrists and went to the ER and then I'd be off to a psych ward, without books and music. That'd suck.
2006-09-04 06:32:57
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answered by misery 7
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Anyone who has a mental condition, or illness has thought about it at some point. I know myself..I thought about it often. I hated feeling like I was crazy all the time, or that I wasnt normal, all because my head didnt function right. I know most suicides occur in ppl who have experienced some sort of mental illness.
2006-09-04 07:15:09
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answered by Anonymous
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Yes, and so has everyone else. The plausibility of suicide is a definition of being aware of ones mortality and freewill.
2006-09-04 08:05:31
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answered by Chronic Observer 3
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I sometimes think if the worst comes to the wost and i loose everything eg job family etc that i would do it, i think this alot actually.
2006-09-04 08:33:18
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answered by Anonymous
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Boy howdy have I. I've had thoughts ,actions, attempts just never completion.
2006-09-04 09:22:58
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answered by frogbfound 4
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