has anyone ever been so down, u just wanted to end it all???

Question

i still going tho a stage where i just dont want to be around no more.
the reason is i fill i got nothing to give to life anymore.
i just fill it be better for people if i was not around.
yes i fill greatful i got some family around me who love me.
ok im going to go and try to kill my self but at same time i could not give a crap if i died tomorrow.
is it weide to care about other people but not myself???
has anyone else ever felt or fill like this???
i know there people who got much less then me but i cant help feeling like this.

Answer 1

Of course we get to a place where we want to end it all. I understand the depths that one could reach inside where nothing seems to help me reach out and see some form of light.

Do you have a plan? What is your plan?

could you respond please?

Answer 2

Hi, I am a psychotherapist, and I once felt similar to you. Checking out of life is an extremely selfish action. You might be surprised how many people actually care about you. You have a number of people answering your question, and they clearly care about the way you feel. These are complete strangers! So, my friend, there is a way out of this without drastic action. Talk to your doctor, who will not be much help, other than putting you in touch with a counsellor or cognitive psychotherapist. Unfortunately, there seems to be a huge waiting list for psychotherapy on the NHS. If you can afford to see a psychotherapist privately, that would be a good idea. Some people have suggested calling the Samaritans which is a good idea, and they may be able to connect you with some good help. Talk to your friends about how you feel, and in fact talk to anyone who has a sympathetic ear! You issues are not impossible to solve, and you can have your life back. Trust me, I've been there. Hang in there and seek the appropriate help. Drugs are not an answer, just a temporary dulling of your symptoms. Good luck.

Answer 3

Yeah,
It's sooooooooooo difficult to find the balance.
You care only about yourself: the world says your selfish.
You care only about others: the world says your crazy.
You don't care about anything: You fit "in"; but only for a little while.

I empathise;
Is there is really any "pleasure"? or just relieve from "pain"?
Thirst - quenched.
Hunger - fed.
Boredom - distracted.
This list could be a lot longer.

Everyone's wanted the end sometimes, I often think that the only satifactory level of existance is complete unawareness, the un-concious blackout.
And then we can turn it around;
a hour or two sitting by a river, or staring at the clouds can be more joyous than your favourite hobby.

The fact your asking means you don't really want to kill yourself, you just don't want the s**t your going though right now.

You know some "things" you like, discover and remember.







If your lost in the deep, look to the shallow.






Love (a sad lonely alcoholic)

Answer 4

Hi mate. Scooting through the questions and yours just struck a chord and I had to answer. I have suffered from depression in some of its worst forms, since I was eleven or twelve, probably younger if it was recognised back then. Started taking medication for it when I was 15 and stopped when I was 28. All the usual tried and tested methods of therapy, some good some not so good, some brilliant some made matters a whole lot worse! You didn't say if you ahave been diagnosed and it recognised that you have depression or that you are receiving any treatment of any kind, so I am surmising that you have been diagnosed and in treatment. What works for me or helps me may not be for other people, so I won't give you the sermons, but if you haven't seen any one or no one knows how you are feeling, please for your family if not yourself, speak to some one asap. If you love your family you will because believe me, you think you are hurting now, but if you go ahead and finish it all, the hurt is nothing to what will be left behind. Alot of suicides would be prevented or wouldn't happen if the person could come back and see the utter devastation that their premature deaths cause. I know mate, I have been where you are now on more than one occasion and I have two babies. I also live with the devastation of a family member committing suicide. Please talk to some one and try to get help. It will take time and courage. Understanding and learning plays a huge part in recovery. With this comes the knowing of the symptoms and what can trigger bad or black times. In time you will know how to deal with these and so will your loved ones. If you need to talk to some one who can put you on the right path phone the samaritans, talk to your GP, or if you are religious, your minister. I really hope this helps mate and that you start to feel better soon. Take each hour at a time, when you are okay with that, take each day at a time. Give yourself praise and thanks for your good days and a hug when its a bad day. Tell yourself at least once a day that its okay and that you love yourself and take it from there. God bless and take care. x After I answered I came across this and hope this will help. One night a man dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand. Then he noticed that at the lowest times in his life, there was only one set of footprints. "LORD, you said that if I followed you, you'd walk with me all the way. But during troubled times there is only one set of footprints." The LORD replied, "My son, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

Answer 5

Felt like this earlier today, briefly contemplated what it would be like to end it all. Got dumped last night in a particularly bad way and my self esteem is never that great anyway. Oddly I feel a bit better now. I wish I could offer you some advice mate. Having a family who care for you is a lot more than some of us have, Focus on the possibilities you could be having in the future.

Answer 6

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Answer 7

well looks like i'm not the only 1 with "issues" i fell like that quite a lot i even tried a few times but it didn't work..aww still i guess you wanna hear everything is gonna get better and u r worth something but if u don't believe it then why waste my time trying to convince u otherwise? i believe everything happens for a reason and i do feel for u but you've gotta realise only u can pull yourself out of the depressive, meaningless life that u say u live i have issues b.cuz i'm forced to live with ppl. who i can't stand and untill i'm 16 there is nothing i can do about it (i'm 14) as long as you have some self-control and try and think positive then u shud pull thru...if u like kids then volunteer @ a nursery or look after relatives kids i think they're cute and they make me smile do something that makes you smile or do something daring yano challenge urself set a goal and work toward it but dont get drunk (it'll make u more depressed) and don't listen to ppl. who say go kill urself thats 1 more looser on the planet...they're high on drugz and don't no wat they're tlking about...life is worth living cuz u never no wats gonna happen and do u really think you'd be any happier dead than you are alive? well i no u probly won't listen to me cuz i'm only 14 but if i hadn't said my age u wud b more likley 2 wudn't u u asked for help so here i am ur guardian angel for the day

Answer 8

Many people have felt like this at one point in there life, the truth is people feel it because it is genuine or perhaps they are seeking attention, all i can say is to kill yourself is a selfish act and really not worth it, you can seek help from your doctor maybe see a counseller, get out there and live your life you will have ups and downs all the time, you will learn to deal with that, but most importantly try not to let anything bring you down, it shows you are weak and people will take advantage of that, trust me i've been there!!

Answer 9

i go through this all the time with my brother and sister. They are both depressed and bipolar. i once tried when i was 16, but when i woke up from my coma and realized how much i hurt my mom and siblings and promised myself i would not ever wish for that kind of hurt on anyone. Get some help and everything you are feeling will seem like nothing. You might need meds or therapy or God. Just know that God would not give you more that you can handle. Seek help you can not do it alone.

Answer 10

I have days where everything feels samey, difficult and lonely, plus pointless but that is life. I have 36 more to go. ;)
You never know what will happen in that time, I know someone that is depressed at the moment, but only you can get you where you want to be. You have to change something and it is difficult but then maybe we are here to learn.

If I were a God, I would erase a suicidee's memory and put them back on Earth again to learn over. It is the easy way out, you can do better.

...and besides, who would protect the women?

Answer 11

Been there done that, got the t shirt and all that. But you need to carry on with life because there will be people out there that need you and if you are really at the bottom then the only was is up! If you care about other people you would not leave them behind, The world needs you my friend even if you cannot see it.