i am a 26 yo woman, wife, and mother. i have alot of things wrong with me i have the following:
bipolar
psychotic episodes
social phobia (have trouble leaving my house even for the kids)
ptsd-post traumatic stress disorder
gad-generalized anxiaty disorder
panic disorder with agraphobia
borderline personality disorder
body dysmorphic disorder
manic episodes
rapid cycles
i have lived with these for a while now and have been on meds since i was 15 yo now i just feel like im at my wits end with it all but i have a family and i would feel bad if i left them behind but all i seem to think about lately is going back to cutting or ending my life i just feel i cant take it anymore. i also have an addiction to pain pills and laxatives. is there anyone out there that may be able to relate or give me some advice on this subject. i feel my family is suffering because of my diseases. i also just started going through treatment for hepititis c from a blood transfusion. makes you very ill.
2006-09-01 14:51:56 · 22 answers · asked by hbtcrew1999 1 in Health ➔ Mental Health
Hey, I know how you might be feeling. I have been diagnosed with bpd, gad, and major depression and I have had alot of problems with eating disorders and cutting and feeling suicidal in the past and Im 23 and have 2 children and am married too. Im also a alcoholic. I havent drank for 2 months now. Ive finally quit. I think you have to stop the pain pills first off because any drugs is gonna alter your moods and you will have worse highs and lows. Especially if you are bi-polar. I know it sucks to feel like your messing up their lives and if you go to get help you still feel like your messing stuff up worse but in the long run its the best thing you can do for your family. Your family will be happier when you our happier and healthier. I know its hard when you have kids to get help and you dont wanna give up the pills cause if you try and get help you'll be held accountable to quit and I used to take pills and loved them cause they keep you in a fog and kinda happier but when you dont have them you get more depressed. You need to do whatever it takes to get better. You need to be strong and know your worth it. I used to want to end it because I thought staying alive was worse for my kids cause of how awful I thought I was but more than anything you deserve to get better and your children deserve that.We our strong people . People may think we our weak because we our considered ill but usually it is because we were mistreated somehow as children or something. Especially with personality disorders like bpd. Its scary to face getting help and sticking to it but if you could deal with all the pain your living in now you can make it and get better. Don't give up.
2006-09-01 18:57:44 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
I'm so sorry you have so many problems for such a young woman. Are you under the care of a psychiatrist, dear? It seems most of your afflictions are mental disorders, which does not mean that they are to be minimized. I can certainly understand your feelings of hopelessness and despair. The fact that you are having suicidal thoughts really worries me. Is your family willing to offer any help or support for you? Apparently your meds aren't doing you much good, and should probably be changed. You need help with your disorders and your depression, and if your present doctor hasn't helped you -- change doctors. There has been a lot of advances in the treatment of mental disorders and depression. You need to address all of these things. Think about your family -- I assume you have children. You don't want them to grow up without their mom. This is very traumatic for kids and can leave them with lifelong problems. Try and get some updated help and counseling. I truly sympathize with your situation, but even though things seem very dark right now, there is light at the end of the tunnel. I will keep you in my prayers, and ask that you write back after you've received some further help, and let us know how you're feeling. You can overcome these things -- don't let them get the best of you. May God bless and keep you!
2006-09-01 22:16:44 · answer #2 · answered by gldjns 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Maybe the pain pills, laxatives, and treatment for Hep c, are getting in the way of your medication for the depression being absorbed correctly. It is hard enough managing all the mental stuff then, you throw laxatives/pain pills into the mix and it's no wonder you are a mess. (Pain pills constipate you by the way) try to get help with the pain pills and laxatives and make sure you are seeing a P-doc for all your psych meds, and maybe you need an adjustment on one of those. You asked us to read your story and say how we would feel. Well, you have a lot on your plate to deal with and get it together. And I agree It sucks, but you can get to a better point. Ask for and let people help you as you make the necessary and painful adjustments. You CAN do it. I have overcome similar obstacles. Do NOT LOSE hope. Sometimes all we have is hope while we are riding out the storm. Take care and God Bless.
2006-09-01 22:23:50 · answer #3 · answered by Rachel☺ 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
It takes time to deal with these things. First thing I would say is really get to know yourself. For example get to know the times, situations, thoughts that tend to trigger manic episodes. What messages do you give yourself about yourself? Are you very self conscious about social stigma for example?
Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT) can be very effective in helping to turn around the negative messages you give yourself. Also monitor your medication carefully, are there any better treatments/drugs available? Talk to someone, if not a counsellor then a community nurse, or doctor at least once a week. This helps to get feelings out and also helps you to monitor your mental health more closely. My wife suffers from bi-polar, but we have been able to improve the situation immensely over a number of years by reading and studying, working at reducing the situations that act as triggers and through better medication and CBT.
I hope you can find a way forward and remember not to beat yourself up with guilt about your family. They will support you if you take responsibility for looking after your mental health as best you can. Good luck.
2006-09-01 22:19:33 · answer #4 · answered by Mick H 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I have lots of mental illnesses and have just been treated surgically twice for cancer. I am a single mother. I agree, families do suffer with you. I am also struggling to get anyone to understand that I cannot get well trying to raise a child at the same time. You can go to the hospital for suicidal feelings. This would give you some time to concentrate on you.
2006-09-01 22:00:04 · answer #5 · answered by catzrme 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I know a lot about mental illness . I have bi- polar and Borderline personality disorder. You need to see a psychiatrist and see about checking into a psychiatric hospital , You'll be in safe hands , you'll learn coping skills and you will get your meds adjusted . If you feel like ending your life you need to seek help immeditly . Yes , your illnesses will effect everyone in your life .
After that ,you might look into resources in your town such as therapy , assisted living , sign up for disability and/or socail security . There are a lot of resources around , you just have to find them . If you need more advice or help , e-mail me at jesse86n@yahoo.com .
good luck.
2006-09-01 22:14:27 · answer #6 · answered by ? 2 · 1⤊ 0⤋
God bless you. My mother in law has the same exact story as you. She is 73. You're so young, you should really get help. I wish she would have gotten help earlier. You are wonderful because you are putting your family first. They are lucky to have a mother like you, don't ever forget that.
Please do not leave your family behind unless you really felt like you were a danger to them and needed to go somewhere for help. Ending your life would hurt the family you love, so knock that idea out. Possibly finding chat groups of others in your situation. There are SO many wonderful men ane women like you who need to talk with others. Do you see a mental doctor? Get help in every way you can. Good luck to you.
2006-09-01 21:59:14 · answer #7 · answered by Recreantess 2 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Why are you going through all of this alone with out the help of a professional and meds?
There is so much help out there. There are 800 numbers you can call tonite. There are assistance for the therapy and meds.
No need to suffer in silence
2006-09-01 22:00:52 · answer #8 · answered by Eeyore 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Goodness. I sure don't blame you for feeling rotten, just don't do anything you can't take back. Talk to your doctor to make sure the meds you're taking are reasonable and check into a local drug rehab clinic.
2006-09-01 23:26:07 · answer #9 · answered by tkron31 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Wow - That is terrible that you have to deal with all of those things. Can you talk to a psychiatrist or have you already?
Are there support groups where you live where you can talk out your feelings with others who suffer from similar conditions?
2006-09-01 22:45:19 · answer #10 · answered by Claire 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋