Can you describe your experience of losing faith in faith?

Question

i'm an agnostic atheist: that means, I mostly don't believe, and in addition suspect that this here is all there is. However I leave open , like a scientist, the possiblity of something else out there. (I wont hold my breath)

as Hamlet said:"the rest is silence

Answer 1

I prayed and prayed and prayed, and things just kept getting worse, there is a point in everyone's life when they must realize that there is evil in the world. It is at that time when one's innocence is lost forever. God has never performed a miracle in reality, only in once upon a time. My father was killed in a boating accident, then my brothers very best friend was killed in a freak accident, three months after that my brother was killed two days before christmas working on a construction job site, at the funeral that was on his best friends birthday, the troll hag that was stalking my brother vowed to somehow have a piece of him, well a couple years later she kidnapped my son, with help from my biological mother, because the only thing mom cares about is money, and took him a thousand miles away, and because she inherited tons of money, was in a position to have documents manufactured and forged to keep the law from prosecuting her, I didn't have the money to prove the truth, then six months of going out of my mind with grief, my live in boyfriend of seven years died of pneumonia, what did I do, I was devout, I was so completely destroyed, I was in and out of the psych ward, and continue to suffer from Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome, God does give certain people more than they can endure, the thought of hope becomes disgusting, even the will to live seems only for imbeciles, what kind of God would do this to me.

Answer 2

I spent years searching for the truth. I prayed all the time. I worked hard for perfection. But none of my questions were answered. I studied the Bible for five years, reading it several times...thinking that if religions couldn't help me, then the word of God could. But what I learned is that most of the Bible is not true and was not written by whom it was said to have been. There is no authority for my belief, if it is lies. Only truth can breed faith. I lost faith at that point and have chosen the Deist path from then on of believing in, loving, and being thankful to God the Creator. The revelation, at first, was devastating. I had lost everything, spiritually. But as time went on, I appreciated knowing the truth. It freed me to think clearly.

Answer 3

thats a good question!!
I actually did have an experience. I believed so strongly for 15 years. after much struggle I finally realised one night that the God was just in my mind. It was terrible at first. I felt like I was losing my mind or something. The next day, everything was 'new'. existence was amazing. i was more amzed at life than I had ever been. I dont always feel this way all the time now,though occasionally I still remember, Life is amazing.
there is alot more I could say, but I dont wanna bore you. :)

PS
it was literally like I was born for the first time. I realised I didnt know anything. it was amazing.

EDIT 1
And everything that 'sogwhip' wrote

Answer 4

When I first saw that picture of a Buddhist monk who set himself on fire to protest the Veitnam war. I realized that his faith was MUCH stronger than mine, even though his beliefs were contradictory to mine. I realized that faith is not a determiner of truth, and could actually lead us further from truth.

Thirteen years later, I'm still an agnostic. Go figure.

Answer 5

It happened once. It is scary.I felt strong but i felt like an orphan, i was scared if people around me noticed it.
I got my faith back, and now its a faith. Before I had the faith becuase my parents had faith in it.

Every person should go through a phase like this to TRULY have the faith.

Answer 6

Bonzo is right. However, it often starts with a disappointment or tragedy that makes us question enough to do more research. But after we look into it and discover how silly it was to believe what people have told you without proof, and realize that you have to be the one who makes your life happy and fulfilling and moral or not. And, it is a weight lifted off of your mind and feels like a breakthrough moment.

Answer 7

I always called it "grasping the infinite." It is an enlightenment. It provides a freedom that gets you as close to altruism as possible. You realize that life has no meaning, and it is so comforting. You fall back to your family and friends, sometimes nature, letting go of trivial things in life that held you back. Everyone is beautiful, judgment ceases--you accept everyone-- and you find yourself having an armor that no comment or action can penetrate. It is truly remarkable.

Answer 8

I didn't lose my faith. I lost the organized religion crap that was associated with it for too long. Now I am a much happier person, and more at peace than I ever was when I was attending a church.

Answer 9

I hope I never do. Faith doesn't connect with a religion. It's believing in our capacity to transcend our problems and find a reason to live, something to hope for. Without faith you you lose your will to live.

Answer 10

Well I don't have too much faith in my faith this morning, actually. Feelin' a bit like a mustard seed, but that's supposed to be enough, so it all comes 'round to make me feel a little better :)