why am i like this?

Question

female, 18 years old.
i never seem to feel happy. i rarely go out. almost never..just if its very necessary like school or doctor. i don't care about the way i look not even my personal hygein. i lost interest in people. i prefer being alone..and spending time alone. it started about 7 years ago. i keep gaining or losing weight all the time. my hair is falling out. i look older than i am. i cry with or without a reason, sometimes i feel numb and careless other times i feel so sensitive and get hurt at any word or comment or critism i get.
im an A student, though i never really study. i don't sleep well. i still get horny alot. i spend occaisons alone like new years eve, valentines day..etc etc.
i tried to commit suicide 3 times.
i live with my parents and siblings. i rarely smoke, never drink but sometimes feel so high without anything. im addicted to the computer.
my room is so dirty and i don't let anyone enter or help me clean it.
my father is an alcoholic and i feel shi*ty..

Answer 1

um
have you tried telling this to a DOCTOR?

Answer 2

Many of the things you have said I feel the same way. What I do to stay happy is to be around others that are happy. I try to make jokes and be around laughter. It is hard to get out and do that, I know, but you should try it at least. Also what helps me is by chatting on line. I am able to talk to people and if I don't feel like talking I just close the chat. It helps a lot when you are around people who don't think bad thought and who are happy. I still get depressed but I feel better when I am around people but not in the center of conversation. Just to hear the sounds and hear what they say. Not to jump right in and start talking. I also know how you feel about your parents. Mine are the same way. Drunk and non caring.

Answer 3

OMG You just described 97% of how my life churns and turns. Man it sux. I hope you get better. You are on the right track. I am too. It is sad that this happens to people all too much. I think it is because city life can be so so so so so overwhelming! I know it is for me. I crave to go out to the country and juss vegetate. I am saving up to take myself away somewhere special. Maybe I'll take the train up the coast and just hang out in some lazy beach town. Mornings kill me! Gaaaw! When the sun rises so does my anxiety. I think NO! I don't wanna face another torture session! Please! How do I get off this flippen maddening carousel of hell!? Keep reaching out! And when you get there, reach farther! I will too. Much LoVe to you and peace too. muah!

Answer 4

Hey , You are experiencing some things that are typical of being a teenager but the suicide thoughts are a wake up call. Please talk to someone about this. Who are you close to? who do you trust the most? Parents, clergy. There are so many resources out there to help you. why not check it out. You sound like a bright caring girl. please know you are not alone. even at my age (I dare not tell you) I feel what you are feeling but make myself work at getting throught the day and living life. You have your whole life ahead of you Good luck I know you'll work it all out...

Answer 5

I have what you have but I'm medicated.... NOT A BAD THING AT ALL! Don't be embarrassed about having to admit this to your doctor. He'll prescribe an anti depressant. It's an unbalance of chemicals in your brain, which is common, and all the meds do is up your serotonin(your happy chemical) It won't make you overly happy or giddy but it will bring you back to a normal level of feeling thinking and caring.
DEF talk to your DOC

Answer 6

It indeed does sound like depression.
and suicide isn't the answer,there is people out there that do care about you..and at 18 you have allot to look forward to in life many good things to look forward to. so the sooner you Talk to doctor about how you feel the sooner you will feel better..

Then the good will start happening,where you will want to go out more,and then you will become successful..and then all those that said the negative things will look on and see how good you turned out in life and say to themselves.."Dang I wish I was that Successful".

Answer 7

We all get upset and sad sometimes, but it seems like you might have it to the extreme. Perhaps depression or anxiety. It sounds like you have a lot of issues going on at once. I don't think Yahoo Answers is the place for them. I think you need to seek a professional to help you with all of your problems. Ask your MD for a referral to get some help. You just need to discuss your issues probably and get some weight off your shoulders. Good luck!

Answer 8

Kolera, did something really bad happen to you seven years ago? Or perhaps at that point in your life did a memory arise from your child hood that may have put you in this funk? Your behaivor is not normal for someone so young . Have you considered therapy for this?

Answer 9

No doubt many will say clinical depression.

Understand that true happiness is something we allow without cause or reason. And joy is killed by comparisons.

Answer 10

Sounds like clinical depression. Try talking to a doctor.

Answer 11

it sounds like you need some professional help, please do not kill yourself, there is a beautiful and special person inside of you you just neeed help realizing it and beleiving it. then the shitty feelings will turn to joy over the excitiment of self awareness and self love.