I cant stop feeling this way?

Question

I dont even know why, but I still feel horrible about myself. Even though I have friends who care about me, I still think about suicide all the time.

Im 16, and Im schizophrenic. Meds cant help me, and therapists keep giving up. I havent heard much from the voices lately, but alot of the time I'll be thinking about killing myself. Even sitting here typing this. But I could be on the phone, in the car, with friends, anywhere and I still think about it.

I dont even know if I want to kill myself or not. Sometimes I think I do, and other times I dont. But I think about it constantly no matter what. Im extremely paranoid and delusional, so at times im not even sure if my friends care or not.

I have this constant urge to take a large knife to my chest, or to jump off a bridge or throw myself into traffic. I have thought of so many ways to kill myself, and I dont even know if I want to use them or not.

What is wrong with me? The doctors already want me in an asylum. HELP?!?

Answer 1

im also a schizophrenic and deal with a lot of other stuff as well - so i know what youre going through and thinking.

lets talk about the meds and therapists for a second - first i dont think you found the right therapist that knows what they r and know what theyre doing. keep looking theres one out there that can help. i hate meds to be honest been on way too many and have had no such luck - ive always been told by others though to keep trying for there is a right combination for you! dont give up! im not.

please take care and if you ever need/want to talk (i might not have all the answers) but....i know what youre going through - youre not alone in this just drop an e-mail [e-mail].

Answer 2

There is no such thing as an asylum we only have psychiatric hospitals now and the reason they want you to stay in one for a period of time is so they can assess your mood changes day to day and prescribe the correct meds for you.
You really need to talk to gp/psychiatrist and explain that the current meds you are taking are not working for you and could they look at trying different ones which may help better eg. olanzapine/zyprexa,risperidal,quetiapine. People can only help if you let them in and tell them exactly how you feel.
As for therapists or counsellors you need to find one you trust as you will not open up and talk to someone you don't trust ask your gp for a list of recommended counsellors or community psychiatric nurses that will better understand your illness.
As for killing yourself please don't you are a long time dead so just try and make the most of your life and once you get the help you need you will feel loads betterand can maybe even look at getting a job through mind or remploy. Good luck!

Answer 3

You need to help youself i have urges to kill myself and for no reason at all i feel unimportant in life and i'm sure everyone loves you your friends and family and i know it's hard to fight what your going through but you need to get through it with help and keep trying with yourself don't give up on yourself no matter how hard you are god made us each with a purpose on this earth and your barely 16 your to young to be thinking about hurting yourself i'm sure your a beautiful person just don't give up on yourself i hope you can find your way in life and know that your life is precious...good luck and remember your special

Answer 4

dont throw yourself into traffic, you dont want to kill someone else, they dont put anyone in an asylum anymore, so dont play games with me, they can only put you in a hospital for 3 days at a time unless they can prove you are a danger to someone else. if you jump off a bridge be sure no one is under you. and if you use a knife on yourself, dont do it in your parents house. you will hurt other people because they will always feel guilty that they couldnt save you. killing yourself is not an answer. but if you have to do it, try not to be messy , dont do it at home and dont hurt another person while you are doing it. take a whole bottle of pills out into the woods or something and just take them and sit down and go to sleep.

Answer 5

heh,interesting question,now the doctors think everyones crazy....but i'm not to sure how to solve your problem..but it's like suicide is what ur mind is attracted too or sumthin....i wouldn't lable you as emo from that cuz it's far from what you've explained...but i dun think anyone can really help you,you can only help yourself...like try to think real deeply why you feel that way...but i've wanted to kill myself beofre too and it wasn't even cuz i was sad it was jus the thrill or doing it i guess...

Answer 6

Relax you are a very important person.
Two minutes every day sit in a chair close
your eyes and feel God's love. DON'T give up.

Answer 7

it sounds like your very depressed as well as having schizophrenia its possible that your meds need changing.... i know how you feel m8 i have depression and im on a real low at the moment