say if you try to integrate into society, but society dont let you, and you get singled out?

Question

in everything you do, and persecuted, and no one wants to know you? how do you deal with that? because ive exploded in public alot with my anger, this is how i feel, and where i live, england and the city i live in is only small, and people are gonna remember you and recognise you...so people could do this to me and alienate me, then wat would i f***cking do huh wat? everyone rejects you, everyone knows your face then wat?!! f**ck. would you be doomed? walkin around like a retarded person that everyone knows

I MIGHT AS WELL SPEND MY LIFE SLAPPIN THE OLE SALAMI, BEAT THE OLE D**CK MEAT

YUP..BEAT THE OLE MEAT...WATS THE F***CKING POINT ANYMORE EVERYTHING SUX. PEOPLE ARE TRYIN TO GET RID OF ME ANYWAY...AND I BET THEY GET OFF ON IT TOO.....YEAH THEY BEAT THE MEAT TOO

Answer 1

Time to get new friends and move on...when the old ones see a brand new you...who cares what they think anyway? They weren't there for you when you needed them, and didn't try to understand..so they were fair weather friends anyway. So what if you exploded and got upset...you're a good person, probably better than they are...they just keep their demons hid...I would smile and hold my head up high...and be darn glad to be alive...Don't let people run you off. I have people who lie on me fiercely, and to hear them tell it, I am the worst person who ever lived..But I know what the truth is, and I hold my head up and ignore them, if they want to believe things or judge me...Remember, The lord says not to judge anyone, so they are sinning against what He wants, when they judge you. So you got angry...so what...you are so honest with it...it is something you are working on...Everyone sins my friend...

Answer 2

Move away. Start over with a clean slate and try not to get angry so much. That's what I'd do, if it were me feeling so unhappy. OR try harder to get involved with the people in a positive way. But if that hasn't worked and only created more problems, then I'd move.

Being around people who won't give you a chance is what's hurting you so much and preventing further growth. Anger will only hurt you more. I'm not sure why you've put this in the mental health section, but I'll write under the assumption you are not "mentally ill" except for anger and past bad choices..

You might do better if you move away. Coz even if there are reasons why you did the things you've done that people remember so well, they're not going to forget. Even if you change and are sincere, someone's bound to gossip about you when they see you have a nice job and then your new rep will be shot. Hate to say it, but you're kind of right to think some will alienate you maybe? That's what I feel would happen in a small town anyway. Have seen it happen with quite a few people...mentally ill not so much as gay or otherwise "different" people.

I'd think small town people would be understanding of the mentally ill and someone would help them, so if that is what is going on with you, not just a wild or unusual past, I bet you just need to plug in to the right resources.

Do all good things all the time and try not to let anyone else know what kind of baggage you used to carry. Stay in the present.... Should someone bring up the past, then maybe apologize if you wronged someone.

All good, all the time. It's not hard if you've really changed.

Try to relax for the time being. You are most likely not persecuted by all or anyone. I really do understand the feeling, I really do. You've got to go where you can be happy and grow instead of stagnate with suspicion and dread, or make your current situation an acceptable one somehow. No one should live with such anxiety. Try to relax...and plan ahead...and then decide what is best for you--stay and steamroller on with your head held high or go and start anew with new people.