I have a cutting problem! Help me!?

Question

well i cut myself when i feel any overwelming feeling of sadness, anger, hatred etc here's one problem i had at school

well I did it cause I was not bored I was totally pissed off at the whole world and in a matter of seconds I had grabbed her scissors and done it and I cried in the girls toilet because I was so upset that I had done it and I didn't think I would go to that extreme and do something so wacko like what mental peeps do I was scared to think I would do it again and I didn't know how to stop honestly I was like some sicko who didn't know how to deal with her issues.I was a fruit cake, I prayed about it and it didn't work it’s like god doesn’t care at all like he hated me. I didn't know what to do so I lied about it...!

I did it again this afternoon because i was stitting in a tree when one of the gals that tease me pushed me down out of the tree and i rolled away and hit my head on a branch and cut it open and sprained my wrist which is now bandaged up. Help am mad!!

I also got teased about me cutting myself and it angers me to think that i do this so hence i do it more. i get kids calling me a ***** and also saying that i'm a **** and a hoer and personally i don't like it at all, they throw stones at me, weeds, sticks, books and pencil cases as well and it angers me. they spread rumers about me like that i sleep with my grandma and thet i **** my mother in bed and that i had sex with my English teacher and other nasty stuff like that honestly how horrible can some pople be it's apoling and i hate the way they call me names! and then they hit me, punch, kick, bite, pinch etc. an quite franqly am i sick of it help me before i cut myself worse or comitt suicide. NO i am not a ATTENTION SEEKER! at all GOT IT!

Answer 1

No, you're not doing it for attention at all...you are doing it to rebel..and as if to say, "Hey if you think YOU don't like me...look at this...I DON"T LIKE ME TOO..and I don't care who knows it.."..that is what i see...and look at the bullies you are dealing with...Keep praying, and forgive those people who are hurting you darling..the Lord has His mighty hands full right now....with things far more important,..but He does not forget His children..Please make sure you do it in Jesus name, or He won't hear you...keep praying because see..satan has his way of trying to provoke you and to keep you from believing in God..but remember, your body is your temple..and when you cut on it like that, it is just like abusing drugs in it, or anything else...Forgive those girls and ignore them..let them tease all they want and pray for mercy for them...The Lord knows what you need even before you ask for it...And please, stop cutting yourself..

Answer 2

I too am a cutter. I have been doing it since I was 17, now 35. As a matter of fact, I felt like doing it tonight due to a serious situation her in my life at the moment. I know it does not solve the problem, but once you do it you are now of hooked. I have a stash of broken glass and razor blades. My arm, well you can definitely see the scars if you look real close. Am I proud, no. I feel I cannot give this up though. I have not told anyone, professionally about it. It is very embarrassing and scary. Your not a fruit cake. You are just like me, a person who feels that this releases the pain or tension. If you would like to talk about it, please do not hesitate to integrate me personally through here or email. I need a friend who understands also.

Answer 3

You cut your self as this pain takes away from the pain you feel in your life. Those other people who are making your life hell are complete low lives! Beleave me when I say what goes around comes around, they may have their own kids one day who have to suffer at school because of bullies like them selves. They will remember their own actions and feel remorse, and grief. Your better than them, thats for sure. Also this is a problem you will get past, this wont be happening 5 yrs from now, maybe even 6 mths from now, it will end anyway. To commit suicide is not the answer, why solve a short term problem with a long term answer?? And think, what youve learned from this will give you the ability to help others later! Make this lesson make you Great!

Answer 4

God does care...he gave you the strength to ask for help...thats a start =) ppl make fun of what they dont understand..its human nature..our emotions are like rivers in a way, and they build up until the river must find an alternate route...cutting in one way this seems to happen..be known that you are not alone with this...is there someone close to you that you trust, someone that is an adult perhaps..i would just say that you should seek a therapist but not all therapist are good ones...find someone you really trust and tell them what is going on and take it from there...perhaps you can find some sort of counseling thru your school or local police department...a neutral person would be great, no preconceptions would interfere then..remember that God is there, sometimes He just seems awful quiet...lol...and find someone you trust...hope this helps-- cheshirekitty68

Answer 5

You are obviously in pain. :( I strongly urge you to find a therapist or counselor in your area to talk with. You deserve help and support. Below is a list of why people self-harm. You may resonate with some of the reasons... Best of luck to you. You should not have to sit with so much pain. I am also including links to therapists in the "source" section below...

"A person who self-harms is likely to have gone through very difficult, painful experiences as a child or young adult. At the time, they probably had no one they could confide in, so didn't receive the support and the emotional outlet they needed to deal with it. The experience might have involved physical violence, emotional abuse, or sexual abuse. They might have been neglected, separated from someone they loved, been bullied, harassed, assaulted, isolated, put under intolerable pressure, made homeless, sent into care, into hospital or to other institutions.

Experiences like these erode self-esteem. Emotions that have no outlet may be buried and blocked completely out of awareness. If a trusted adult betrays or abuses them, and there are no other witnesses, children will often blame themselves. They turn their anger inwards. By the time they become adults, self-injury can be a way of expressing their pain, punishing themselves, and keeping memories at bay.

There is often an absence of pain during the act of self-injury, rather like the absence of sensation that often occurs during abuse or trauma. The body produces natural opiates, which numb it and mask the emotions, so that little is felt or realised consciously.

A badly traumatised person may end up feeling quite detached from their feelings and their body. Some may injure themselves to maintain that sense of being separate, and to convince themselves that they aren't vulnerable. Others may injure themselves in order to feel something and know that they are real and alive."

Answer 6

It sounds like those around you have a big problem knowing how to treat people. You aren't the one who is wrong. It's those mean kids teasing you. They are getting to you and that is exactly what they want.
Have you talked to you mom or dad about this? If not, I suggest you do as soon as possible. Don't worry about what anyone else thinks; they suck anyway. Worry only about yourself right now and get better.

Answer 7

Look, you've gotta talk to the principal or guidance counselor about the kids making fun of you and physically harming you. That is assault, and that is a crime. Honestly, i dont believe god is real. And if he is, he didnt stop liking you. Stuff happens. As for your cutting, talk to a guidance counselor about it. Just stop doing it.

Answer 8

Ive been down that road before... I know how bad u feel,,, so angry , wanna hurt somebody or something, but the only thing u can do is hurt ur self...its a horrible horrible thing 2 go thru.. i used to wanna kill myself , but i couldnt (becz of my kids.). so i cut myself instead... sound familiar?? contact me if u need someone to talk 2

Answer 9

You need to talk to your parents or guardian. Tell them what is going on and be honest. You probably need to see a therapist and there is a good chance you will need to be an meds.

It is very important that you talk to your parents soon.

Cutting is dangerous and could lead to other health issues.

Answer 10

Many strange things occur when we allow our emotions to rule our mind. It would behoove you to take the steps to curtail those emotions..you control them or they will control you.. Is your choice and you have to live with your decision.

If you go from glad to mad, you may want to look into another condition of the mind.