What should I do?

Question

If you're reading all of this, then I really appreciate it. I've been suffering from ups and downs of depression for the past 3-4 years; as well as feelings of low self-worth esteem. I'm currently in my last year of highschool and I'm just not sure if I can make it. I've pushed through for so long..and I'm long overdue for my release. I think I know the cause of all of my mental tourmoil..You see, in 7th and 8th grade I was severaly teased on a daily basis, and it does wonders to your mind. I healed some over time, but the feelings of low esteem, feeling below everyone else, and fear of others still remained.From 9 to 11th grade I healed alittle more, but still, I felt bad about myself. And because of that weak point in my life, I was still teased somewhat 9-11th grade because I did nothing to stand up for myself. I know I should've told someone, or stood up..but one cannot understand the feeling unless it happens to you. I dont want my grades to drop, so should I homescool or stay?

Answer 1

Have you been seen by a therapist or psychiatrist? You might have severe depression or bipolar disorder or something of the sort.

As for your question...something kinda like this happened to one of my friends when we were in high school and she got her mom to write a letter explaining the situation to the principal and it was eventually brought before the school board and they let her go to another school out of her district.

Answer 2

I am 30yrs old and know EXACTLY what you mean. Some people will not however so be ready for that. The mental and emotional scars remain. Some even carry into adult hood (trust me). Stick it out though. I know it is hard to believe this but after high school.....popularity does not matter. It is not worth ruining your future over. I know how down it can get you. I was actually hospitalized for being suicidal as well as bulimic. I am now 30yrs old. pretty well adjusted and a mother of two. I have a lot of friends and am not considered unattractive. I had problems being the new kid and being picked on. There was more that I won't go into here. I will tell you that if you need someone that understands to talk to ....contact me. I will not give my email here but I would be glad to give it to you if you contact me. I know what you are going through is pure hell but there is light at the end of the tunnel I promise.

Answer 3

I've tried home school, continuation schools, no school and high school. Of all of those, high school is probably the best. I'm in kind of a rut right now myself, but there's something you should know. After high school it isn't going to get any easier, so you should try and find a way to cope or adapt. The way I got through it all was just becoming very apathetic and not caring about much of anything. That turned out to be a bad choice since I'm my situation now, but anyway I think all you need to do is a way to focus on the goods things.

I also was picked on in middle school, but I just tried to let it go and enjoy being with my friends. Once I reached high school I found that befriending people around me stopped all teasing and such. It may be a little late if your going on your last year, but try to hang in there and dont let it get to ya. Good luck and hopefully you'll choose high school.

Answer 4

Try to hang in there, you're almost done and life is much better when it's over. I was also victim to bullies from 6th grade on and know how you feel. I never really fit in, never dated anyone in high school, never got invited to parties and on graduation day, after all the hats were thrown in the air, I walked off the field alone and sad. I vowed never to see any of those people again. To this day, I have no contact with anyone from school, attend no reunions, and I like it that way. The real world may not be so cruel to you once you're out of school. I've been out for 21 years and will never forget either...

Answer 5

It's time to talk to your parents, if you can't then one of your teachers or your school counselor. Just remember those big fish in high school, when they get out in the real life or into college, then they too are the little fish. Hang in there, find a hobby that will keep you busy and happy. Try a sport such as karate, or cycleing, or track. Read volunteer at the library. Ask yourself, in a few years is it really going to matter?? Yes I was taunted and teased in Jr. high and highschool, both at school and at home. I'm now the one who is laughing, why? because I worked hard and became sucessful, and what became of those rude people from 25 years ago??? Who cares! Cheers Bogey

Answer 6

I went through many of the things you describe when I was in school. I know how it hurts. I am currently in treatment for bipolar disorder and I could have saved myself a lot of time if I had only seen a psychiatrist when I was still in highschool. Due to depression, I dropped out of college after less than a year. It took me four doctors and 10 years to get back into college. With my medications, I can stay focused and now have honors. I hope you will see a doctor or psychiatrist and I hope that you find a good one. Good luck to you!

Answer 7

Hang in there!!! One thing that I wished I had known in high school was that the chances of seeing the majority of my classmates after graduation was very slim. So what the heck....who cares what they think? That, however is hard when you are in the middle of it but easy once you look back as I am. I think that if you have a few good friends (or even just one) to lean on and help you keep your focus it would do wonders. Try to surround yourself with people who encourage and are positive. Keep in mind you teach people how to treat you. I can recommend a great book..."Battlefield of the Mind for Teens" By Joyce Meyer. It is great for helping to identify where your feeling of low self worth come from and how to break that habit. Good Luck!!!!!!!

Answer 8

You should stay! Never let anyone tell you who YOU are. Nobody else can really know from just being at school with you. See a psychologist to determine of you may be bi-polar, or have difficulty producing serotonin, or any other natural disorder. And, believe it or not, parents are there for you when you need it... even times like this. Don't give up, things get better after the turmoil of high school.

Answer 9

You need something to get your confidence back..because once your out of school..that doesnt mean its going to stop. To fully help you..i'd have to know what you feel is so wrong about yourself or what these people made fun of you for. Its going to be hard..i went through the same b/s...but i did learn to stick up formyself..i do admit..they had every rason to make fun of me..but still..Talk to your best friend..see what they think..but i really dont think home schooling is the answer..unless it really is to the point to where you think you cant go through with it any more..and if you do..it should only be temporarley..you cant just run away from the problem..but like i said..i dont know enough to really help you.

Answer 10

If you are in your last year of school, please go talk to your guidance counselor. Things may look dim now, but I promise you they do get better. You will have so much more pride in yourself if you stay in school and get your diploma. Your school counselor should be able to help you make the right decision. I too had a hard time in high school, but now, I see that the decision to homeschool was not the best one for me. If I could go back, I would. I didn't ask for help from my counselors and if I had, then it would have made a bigger difference in my life. Best of luck to you!