Okay seriously what do i do?

Question

okay so i am depressed all the time, i never leave the house and dont want to, i eat very little, i have no friends, all and i mean all my family hates me, im cutting more and more every day, i overuse pain killers more everyday, i know that(and dont try and tell me otherwise) that no one cares whether i live or die and they think i dont have the guts to go through with it, i have no one left in the world i care about and i am always seriously considering suicide.I know i should probably be getting help but i went to a counsellor once and it was just painful, i couldnt stand her pressing me an staring at me and asking me quetions i dont know the answers to.I hate people, i hate being in public, i hate life, i dont see any reason to go on anymore and i refuse to have some shrink staring at me thinking what a ******* mess i am

what should i do?

Answer 1

Since you can recognize that you are depressed, you are in better shape than you think, but since you are cutting yourself and thinking about suicide, you are really in need of urgent help.

I'm sorry you had a bad experience with a counsellor, but that doesn't mean they are all the worng ones for you. At this point you need a real doctor, not just someone to chat with. See if your area has a suicide hotline and talk to someone there. If you don't know it, here's a toll-free number to call now:
1-800-273-8255.

Better yet, go to your local emergency room (or call 911 to take you- this is a real emergency) and tell them what you just wrote. Print it out and take it if you don't feel up to saying it out loud yet. Things can only get better for you and treatment is the way to do this.

You do care about living or you wouldn't have bothered to write this or to reach out. Depression makes it hard for you to see whether anyone really care for you or not and when that cloud lifts you can have a better outlook and a real future. Please,. make a call now or go to the ER. Take an overnight bag with you with your toiletries and such if you can get it together to do so. It may take a few days to get the help you need.

And if you need some more insight about the cutting, I have several good references for you to check out.

What you are doing is called self-injury, and people with this are often called "cutters" but they use many methods. Usually, people cut themselves to distract them from some other pain that's worse than the physical pain of the cutting. Finding out what that pain is and dealing with it is the path to stopping.

You are not alone, because many people, especially teenagers and young adults, have this very same problem, and you can be helped.

Here are some websites that may help you and assist in finding the outside help you need. Asking your question was your first step to healing.

http://www.palace.net/~llama/psych/injur...

Self-injurious behavior does not necessarily mean you were an abused child. It usually indicates that somewhere along the line, you didn't learn good ways of coping with overwhelming feelings. You're not a disgusting or sick; you just never learned positive ways to deal with your feelings."
Also:
http://teenadvice.about.com/od/cuttingbr...
Lots of information and more links
http://www.healthyplace.com/communities/...
A support group you can join online

Whatever help you choose, please email me and let me know how you are doing, And you cannot say no one cares, because now I most certainly do. Email me right now if you want.

Answer 2

I'm sorry you are in this state. I know it's a kind of hell. I'm sorry you had a bad experience with a counsellor, but not all counsellors are the same. Like anything else, some are good and some are not. Seriously what you should do is to try another counsellor. Sometimes the only way out of something is through it. Of course we don't like pain and suffering and we try to avoid it,,, but,, it is impossible to avoid all pain and suffering. A saying that I use is 'this too shall pass'. I don't know what your background is, whether you come from a dysfunctional family or not. I don't know whether you have had panic attacks or not. Your treatment depends on a lot of factors that are not , and should not, be presented here, but should be discussed in a consultation with a therapist. I don't know whether or not you have a faith in God. That's what makes the difference for me.
Please pick up the phone and make some calls to get yourself into treatment. I care whether you live or die. Your life is a precious gift of God, and not to be wasted.

Please ignore any idiots who post disruptive junk.

Answer 3

If you don't do something about it, it doesn't get better by itself. I know that from experience. I, too, have always been cynical about the mental health industry, wondering how motivated they are to help you get well when they keep making money for as long as you aren't well. Cynicism is part of what makes you depressed. There are counselors that are not in it for just a buck. My suggestion would be to go to a counseling agency and instead of taking whichever one happens to be assigned to you by the luck of the draw, ask them to let you try everybody or at least keep trying different ones until you find one who you connect with. Try to find one who looks for answers specific to you instead of one who has a technique that has worked so they think the same thing works for everybody. The drug therapy might be an option too. If there is a chemical imbalance in your brain it is just like a broken bone - it needs to be set right before you can do the therapy to make it work right again. Wanting to find a solution is a great sign - some people just decide to give up and wallow in misery. You don't seem to be doing that, so that is really good.

Answer 4

You can go see your family doctor and he can prescribe an antidepressant. They can do wonders for people such as yourself. A therapist might be the way to go after the meds kick in but maybe not at the beginning because of how you feel. You could also try doing yoga. It will provide some exercise and calm the mind and help put your life into perspective. I would also stop using the pain meds. They are just masking the problem and can make you more depressed. Please let us know if these things work out for you. Life is to precious to throw away. Good luck.

Answer 5

You need to do three things.

The first two involves getting out of the house.

You need some sunshine, as you may have seasonal affectiveness disorder. You need to get on a walking trail or a track and exercise. This wll get your endorphins flowing and elevate your mood (running would be better, but let's build up to that)

The last is the Gotta Wanna.

Only you can genuinely decide that you want to change. I cannot motivate you if you will not be motivated. You must look at your life, feel this is no way to live it and take the steps to change it.

The weekend is coming up. You'll have lots of time to take up these suggestions.

Never take a permanent solution to a temporary problem

Answer 6

To be honest, you need to self admit yourself to a psychiatric facility. They have groups and programs that can assist you in dealing with your problems. If you self admit yourself it is easier to get released than if a hospital admits you.

Also, if you do not like the therapist you are seeing find another one. It is important that you and the therapist agree with how to proceed. You are not alone in what you are experiencing, many people are dealing with the same issues. The fact that you admitted in this forum shows you want help. Please find a facility near you and go check your self in. And then while in there be 100% honest and participate in the groups and you will be amazed at how much of the weight can be lifted.

I personally have dealt with my wife experiencing many of the same things that you have written. You can get better, and there is a light at the end of the tunnel. But you cannot do it alone.

I wish you the best, and I hope you find your answers.

Answer 7

i can't help you,nobody can if you close your doors to everything. try to take it easy. you need some fresh air, take a walk and clear your mind. don't do anything stupid that can hurt yourself. so what if your family are not supportive and you have no friends. all the more reason to take care and love yourself. you have to be strong and survive these things. life can be hard but that's just the way it is at times. it will come to pass if you try to better it. for example work on your ambition and show them one day that they might have screwed up raising you but you survived them.think there are many others who are much worst off than you. they are the homeless, the sick, the handicapped, but i'm sure you have heard their success stories on tv shows like opera. they have hope and they want to survive and succeed. you should do the same. think about the impoverished in india and africa, cambodia and those who lost thir limbs on abandoned land mines. they have a higher wall to overcome than you. so count your blessings, and do good to yourself. get those good grades and dont do drugs or anything stupid. it all depends on you. you can choose to go downhill( people don't care anyway cause they have their own things to manage) or go uphill (and earn their respect and do many other things you want to do when you make it one day(a decent living, independancy) , like a holiday in south of france or some tropical getaway, a carribean cruise.). and remeber if all of your dreams don't come true, you are not a loser,people will say that to keep you down but just turn the other cheek.just think about your other achievements and feel good about them. don't raise the bars too high - know your limits. sometimes some things you work for are just not meant to be yours and you have to face it and accept it, everyone of us have to get over thses things in life . just get up and move on, and look for another clear blue sky. it's called survival. who do i think i am? a wiseguy? no i'm not ,i make mistakes too, not perfect . you can shut out what i had said now but i hope you think about it afterwards when you have cool off. you cant shut your doors to everything because if you do that, nothing can help you. hope you be ok. look there are others replying to your question they want to help you too and get you started. See, have faith in humankind. but you have to make that first step and carry on with the rest yourself cause that's how things get done. it all depends on you. be strong , hope you be ok

Answer 8

Oh, honey, i know exactly how you fee...no, realy i do. i am a foster child. I have felt like you, i wish i could talk to you in person insted of publicly like this. I have been sent to many,many, many "shrinks" and have been told some of the stupidest stuff and have been made to take some of the stupidest stuff. please e-mail me so i can talk you in private. Half of the people that is on here don't want to hear your "sappy story" and think what you are saying is for atention...but rarely ever in lock down did i find someone who was realy contemplating suicide for atention. I still don't know if i can help you much because i found myself tieing a rope around my neck only a cuple of months ago...but I would like to talk to you about it.

Answer 9

PLEASE go to a doctor and ask for help. It could be something as simple as having a chemical imbalance that can be corrected with a pill.

Don't kill yourself. You WILL die one day, and as far as we know there's no way to come back. So enjoy everything while you are here! It would be a waste to just die.

Really, I ask you to value yourself and take the first step. It will get better.

Good luck and God bless.

Answer 10

Get professional help, fast. I know it takes a big step to make the first step (been there) but it will make life worth living again.
PS: Shrinks are there to help, mine never told me that I'm a mess (knew that on my own haha).