Why am I always thinking about death?

Question

For as long as I can remember I have always thought about death. I wonder what would happen to my family if I died, I think about what would happen to me if my children died, what would happen if my husband died, what would happen if they all died at once. I think about family members dying. I wonder how I am going to die. I often wake up in the middle of the night with an overwhelming feeling that I was just about to die. I have been taking Wellbutrin for the past 2 months for depression. So I don't know if my depression has something to do with it. I didn't mention my obession with death to my doctor because it sounds crazy to me. I was hoping the Wellbutrin would help with that but it hasn't. It definitely has helped with my moods. I have a great life, no tragedies ever. So I'm not sure why for one why I'm depressed and for two why death/dying has become a constant thought in my head. Any input would be greatly appreciated.

Answer 1

Ok, you are depressed because there is an imbalance of seratonin in your brain. It is something medically going on in there that is causing your depression. Your medication is correcting the problem. The death thoughts sounds like you have a little obsessive thinking going on there. You definitely should tell your doctor because there are different antidepressants that also address that problem. How do I know? Because I also suffer from depression and obsessive thinking and obsessive behavior (nail biting, lip biting) I am currently on Paxil and not only has it relieved my depression, it has also stopped by obsessive behaviors. BTW, my obsessive thinking was that I always drove well in the snow...nice and easy and never had a problem. Then I had one little fender bender on an icy morning going to work and after that became obsessive about driving in bad weather. I had to drive 40 miles to work and I would white knuckle it all the way. Never had another accident, thank God. Now with the Paxil, I barely give either problem a thought. Good luck and get the right meds.

Answer 2

As your parents and grandparents age before your eyes, it causes you to think about death. If you have had a friend or a relative die recently it makes you realize you are mortal. I am now 60 years old. It really hit me how mortal I was when I was 45. I was reading the obituaries and a lot of the people were near my age. Scared me that people so young could die. But I decided that however much time we spend on the planet is insignificant. I just do the best I can do and try to make life a little bit easier for someone else. Bill

Answer 3

You need to discuss this with a therapist. I got put on anti-depressants by my medical doctor. I didn't get help til I added counseling. Even then, I danced around real topics. However, it came up that I wanted to switch places with my dying father as he had more to live for, and he changed my medication. That might be what works for you. I actually only improved with a group counseling format, where there was no opportunity for avoiding topics, I became rational and happy. What caused the "breakthrough" you could get anywhere, though.....seems I (and everyone else) got better once I admitted and was forced to confront that deep dark secret fear that was too stupid for me to want to tell anyone, due to irrational thought, but had affected me most of my life. As you seem to know what is disturbing you, if you talked about it with a trained professional, they can help find why you think as you do and skills to get rid of the problem. Good luck and keep talking!

Answer 4

That is a problem!! You need to talk to a doctor and maybe get some more help. I never thought of death until a close friend of mine died suddenly....i think that i had gotten so scared and traumatize by the death that there was a time that i thought about it too...but not to the extent...and one day it just went away....but anyways i hope you do get the help soon to so u wont feel that way ne more.....

Answer 5

At a time I was also experienced the same as yours. I was financially sound at the time but jobless. In jobless occasions I used to write. When I was writing a script I suddenly had a feeling that death is surrounded me and I cannot escape from the clutches. I stopped the script writing and started a new story 'Live in Splendour, Die in Splendour'. After two three months writing I finished the script and ready to suicide. All of my friends expected my death.

Answer 6

One of the symptoms of depression is thinking about suicide or being obsessed with death. I always tell people if you are constantly thinking about dying then one can never really live. I think you should mention this to your Dr. A medication change may need to be made and its a very important symptom that he or she needs to know. I hope and pray that you beat this thing. Best of luck to you.

Answer 7

If your problem started alongside the wallbutrin Rx, than have your doctor switch you to something else, or better yet, conjur up all of your inner strengh and overcome your depression. Death is a natural part of life, but for those who dwell on it too often, it can turn the volume knob down on the good in life itself.

Good luck.

Answer 8

I finally met someone like myself i always have the same thoughts yes i do have depression and anxiety I think its from my childhood,not sure yet but i am going to a consuler soon.But your probably just scared of the unknown and i think everyone else is also its okay to think about it but if your like me then you should go to a consuler also..Wellbutrin isnt good im on celexa and it works Ive been on Zoloft too but see ny nind is always going i dont know why thats why im getting help good luck,dont be afraid becasue i actually think this is hell. and its not like one off us is going to die we all are. good luck god bless

Answer 9

i can totally understand what you are going through, im constantly thinking of death, how everyone i know dies around me all at once. how will i die? im scared of being alone for the rest of my life. im always worried about what tomorrow is going to bring. no-one wants to know me, when i had a problem ive always gone to my friends and the one friend that i always go to has stopped talking to me like she used to. I now have a boyfriend and when i mentioned his name to my friends they gave me the look as though they are trying to tell me what am i doing going out with him, and its making me upset that todays society has gotten so picky about who goes out with who where they go and when. i know i went off subject but this is true. i also forgot to mention that im an over-thinker which means that i always over-tthings that arent supossed to be over-think, which causes my depression to rocket sky high, that then makes me feel really ill and light headed. i also obsses over me dieing, and the fact that im going to be alone for the rest of my life not having no-one to turn to when im in need for it most. when i went to seek for medical help, i went to my local doctor and she said that all teenagers are worthless depressed attention seekers, which i think is very un true as not all teenagers are not depressed. i dont know what else to say other than you anyone can message me and talk if they want and good luck with trying xx :) :)

Answer 10

Maybe you are scared about death.If you are not suicidal then I would not consider it depression. you are just curious, because you know eventually it is going to happen. and you don't want a good thing (life) to come to an end.if this was me I would talk to the doctor about it or a counselor maybe.