waht does this sound like to you?

Question

sometime when i'm alone i get really sad, i think about everything thats wrong. some times i just want to get life over with it, so that the suffering can end.(i WONT kill my self!!! DONT WORRY!)
example: i never learned how to read correctly, i cant spell. and for almost everything i use spell check. i cant do math because i cant read right. and so i'm suposed to be a senior, but i have the credits of a softmorr.
and that my parents over pretect me, cuz i was an abused kid when i was little. so i think they are trying to make up for it, my 13 year old sister gets more freedom then me!
PLEASE NO RUDE COMMENTS, I KNOW MY WRITTING IS HARD TO READ......PLEASE BE NICE!

I THINK MY MOM SAID I AM "DELOPMENTALLY DELAYED CUZ I DIDNT GET CAUGHT WITH ADHD

Answer 1

Deep breath! Everything will be okay. Just try to take things slowly and don't put yourself down anymore. Considering that you were hurt when you were little, I'd have to say that you are a very strong person and you will overcome this everyday challenges.
As far as your parents are concerned, try and understand their feelings and appreciate that they are over-protective, as they should be. Atleast you have parents that care about you and love you!
Take care darlin'...keep your chin up....don't worry about things that you cannot control, but change the things that you can. Love yourself!
Your cyber friend~Evie

Answer 2

I think you know already. To be frank (and not unkind) you cant read. The comment you make about 'everything thats wrong' stems from your reading ability being poor. The only way to address this is to seek help with your reading. Depending on the wealth of your parents you may be able to afford to hire a tutor, but if not, seek out some friends or family who you can talk to about it and ask them for their help. AND you were abused as a kid, sound to me like you have some self esteem issues as a result of this treatment. Possibly this is why reading became a trial in the first place. So, give yourself a break, ok. Keep trying, figure out how to improve your reading and, enjoy your parents love for you. As to your sister getting more freedom. I dont know the situation, but if this is a real truth, maybe you can talk to your parents about it. I have this feeling though that its more about you feeling down at the moment and looking at things to prove to yourself that "...just everything is wrong...". It will pass. You take care, hang in you've taken the first step. Have a great future.

Answer 3

it sounds like you need some more confidence...I can't spell worth of crap I manager a company and do it all myself...yet I call some of my friends or my sister sometimes when I'm alone so that they can spell a word for me that I need help on...lol It really isn't a big deal, get a tutor it's not to late to learn some new tricks, reading just takes time and when you read more your spelling skills will improve as well. As for your 13 year old sister getting more freedom don't worry they most likely want to keep you closer because your a senior and your getting closer to that 18 age...they want to keep you in the house as long as possible. Be flattered don't worry relax, you will be fine. What's so wrong about using the spell checker anyway?

Answer 4

Nothing to worry about, except for a tutor. It doesn't sound like you have anything mentally wrong with you. OK, you may have ADD (attention deficit disorder) or you may not. Really only a doctor can diagnose that type of disorder.
Graduate - get yourself out of school first. Once you've done that, go off and do your own thing. You don't have to stay around and continue to be ridiculed and belittled. Work yourself out of that situation and you will be much happier.
Don't compare yourself to your younger sister...You are you and you are someone special too. Don't ever let people make you feel like you're lower than them - cause you're not - and people always try to put others beneath them.

Answer 5

I don't think your writing is all that bad.
Beleive it or not, every one thinks these thoughts(about wanting life to end) I had this very same problem for the last year and I'm one of the smartest guys I know ( I'm a senior too...) I get good grades, I'm funny, and I have a lot of friends. But over the course of the last year I had felt the same way.
The simple fact is, life just sucks. It's hard, it's tough, and people are never going to stop being jerks.
That's the bad news.
The good news is that there is a God. Now before you stop reading please consider this. Who made the stars? Does it really make sense that an explosion could creat EVERYTHING? I mean, which came first- language or thought? Evolution can't answer that. I beleive in God because there is no other alternative.
Now please consider this. If there is a God then that means there is an eternity and a life after death. And if there is an eternity then the simple fact is that we are either going to spend and eternity with God, or we won't. The scary thing is, whether we beleive this or not, it's true. It has to be, think about it.
Now lets consider our lives. We all know that in order to spend eternity with God we have to meet His standards. The problem is, no one does. Not me, not you...nobody. So this means we'll all spend eternity away from God, right?
Well here is the good news: God loves mankind, he loves us because he created us. He wants to have fellowship with us, but He can't because He is perfect and we are not. The good news is that God loves us so much, that 2000 years ago He sent his son son to die on a cross for us as a free gift to pay for the penalty of our sins. God's son is Jesus. On the third day after Jesus died on the cross, He rose from the grave conquering death.
Now listen up to this next part because it's very important. Jesus' death was a FREE GIFT. All we, as humans, have to do to gain peace with God and secure our eternal destination is ACCEPT that gift. This is the easiest thing you can ever do in your life! Beleive me, I have done it and it is LIFE CHANGING!
All you have to do is realize that you are a sinner, just like me and everyone else. Then you must beleive in your heart that Jesus is Lord,and that he paid the price for your sin. All that is left is to invite him into your soul, just ask forgiveness and ask him to come in.
It's really easy. And it's the most important thing you will ever do.

Now let me say something else. Once you do this, your situation may not change over night. But I promise you, if you stay true to God and listen to what He tells you, He will help you live with your current state of affairs. Life will never be easy. It's sure been hard for me. But nothing in life...NOTHING, can take away my hope.

I want you to know that I'll pray for you. I don't even know your name. My name, but the way is Josh, and if you would like to talk more about this e-mail me at [e-mail]
Before I go I want you to know something- whether or not you beleive in God, He is there, and He loves you. And though I have never met you I will pray for you because I love you.

Answer 6

Hi, I'm sorry your going through such a hard time.
First of all you sound like your suffering from depression. I'm happy to hear that you won't hurt yourself. You should see a doctor for that. Sometimes medication can help.
Secondly it sounds like you have some sort of learning disability, That DOES NOT mean your stupid so don't think that way! You should see a school counselor they can help with some testing.
Keep your spirits up and know your a good person.
Last of all your question was easy to understand. It's obvious that you are intelligent!
P.S. I use spell checkers all the time. Its OK.
God bless!

Answer 7

first of all I am not going to make fun cause I have known people near to me just like you or worse off.

1.) goto a eye doctor and get your eyes checked out make sure you can see ok

2.) try to get a tuttor to help you with homework or if your parents will do it home schooling is really good but costly
a tuttor is most llikly better

ome of my friends she got a cute male tuttor she was 16 at the time and she was tuttored in math and spelling and when she turnned 18 she married him

do not call yourself dumb or stupid cause your not that, the only true dumb or stupid person is the one that does not try to do anything about there problem and just accepts it. but your a winner you are asking and getting help. and now your parents are paying attention now too tell them I am sure they will back you with addition information on what is out there for you to learn from Good luck and best wishes to you

Answer 8

Sounds to me like you have a learning disability potentially ADD. Attention Deficit Disorder, this can effect the ability to focus on almost anything. Talk to a special education teacher at your school too see if they can provide any support for you such as an educational assistant which can provide one to one assistance in your classes. See what your school can do to assist you, they may even be able to provide note taking services for you. Good luck!

Answer 9

WOW! that is a LOT of shite! Well first and formost, get a tutor and really learn to read. You may be ADD; attention deficit disorder, so go see a doctor and he can prescribe something for you to focus. You're sad because you feel frustrated and powerless. Go get empowered!!!! GO! YOU CAN DO IT! I did it, and so can you. You can even get a cute guy for a tutor! And there are prescription drugs like Aderrall that can really help you without freaking you out. ya feel? good luck!!

Answer 10

It sounds like you need help. You have admitted a problem and you are just starting to seek this help. You hope to do it in a forum where no one knows your real identity.

My brother (the youngest of five) was a very popular kid; he had friends and a girlfriend. He also knew how to read people and would have made a great politician or salesman someday. he killed himself when he was a Junior in High School. My mother thinks he might have done it because of his poor reading skills.

Both of my parents were college educated and experienced in raising a family. When my brother was in High School they only had to worry about 2 teenagers. The others were grown and gone. My parents were very good, they didn't hit us, and the worst punishment I ever got from my Dad was when he said, he was disappointed with me. That was usually more than enough. My parents didn’t have to resort to brutality, they knew that they we looked up to them and their was mutual love so if they were disappointed in us it was a major blow.

My brother could have gotten help from both of my parents, but he had to ask for it. I had problems in Math as a Intermediate School student and they carried forth through college. I asked my dad for help and he gave it to me. It was tough, I can be pretty dense sometimes, but he did it. What made it really tough for him was that he was a rocket engineer and he couldn’t understand how I had so much trouble with simple algebraic word problems. Yet he spent the time, he kept his anger in check, and he didn’t just give me the answers he taught me. You can’t force someone to do something they don’t want to do, especially if you love them and they are teenagers. You need to give them freedom and be there when they need help.

This is a very good way to raise a teenager, yet still my brother committed suicide. I think my parents did the best that they could. My brother didn’t confide in them, he hid his problems very well, and always seemed happy, even when he was not.

You need to ASK FOR HELP. A drunk will never join AA until he admits he has a problem, and until he is willing to admit it to others and seek their help. If the drunk isn’t willing to do this then AA knows they can’t help him. You have taken the first step, but you need to do more. Tell your parents about your problems and your feelings. It is normal for a teenager to want some more freedom, but parents still need to be reminded of this because for most of your life you depended on them for everything. This may help with their over protective habits. Tell them you have trouble with Math and English and most parents will bend over backward to get you the help you need. If they can’t teach you themselves then there are tutors that can. There are even tutors on the Internet that can help; even I can help. I did poorly in math, but I made it up to calculus (after taking the course 3 times) so I know how rough it can be and I really know my math, especially basic math, algebra, and trigonometry.

You need to admit this to your parents first. If you are willing to admit your problem and seek help for it then that means there is hope for you. As long as you are willing to admit, ask for, and seek help—another words TRY; then you can find the help you need. You can even take your weaknesses and turn them into strengths. I have read an incredible amount of books at least 5,000 by now. My mom says that I had reading problems and had to work hard at it. I worked so hard that I got good and started to enjoy it. I am a poor speller, so I use Microsoft Word to do the spell check and I work to make my answers into best answers. Look at how much I have written here. I got the help I needed and made myself better. I worked hard to get as smart as I am and you can to. It all starts when you admit to someone that you have a problem and need help. It is up to you to keep admitting it and to keep seeking that help.

Oh, and Paul G is right, have a vision check. You don’t have to wear the big thick black frames, like I did, (the birth control glasses), you can get something stylish or maybe even contact lens. Notice how the responses before mine all suggest that you seek help, and they don’t insult you. Some may use some bad language, but they aren’t using it against you.