Can someone help me out i feel as if i can't take anymore!?

Question

About a month and a half ago my father became very ill and has been in the hospital since. I am Bipolar and have a bad back. I am on psych meds and vicodin for the pain. Last week I became very ill and ended up in the same hospital as my father. While i was there my mother told my daughter to find all of my pain meds. They ransacked my room for them. I had a psych med change and went on a manic high for about 2 weeks of destructive behavior that left me forgetful and in the hosptial icu for pnuemonia everyone said that i went there to get attention because my father has been so ill that i am lacking attention. I feel violated and so upset with my family that i am at my wits end. I pay all the house bills and am going to be a grandmother in 3 months but am divorced and finding myself lonely as i only had 2 visitors in the hospital the whole time i was there and my family have left me angry and depressed. I feel as if i am cracking up can anyone help me out. I just wanna end it

Answer 1

Don't hurt yourself, ok? Please?

I don't know if this will help or get through, but....this particular situation, as you have described it, sounds like it is mostly NOT your fault.

--It isn't your fault that doctors changed your medications for no reason and made you hyper-manic,
--It is most definitely NOT your fault that your own flesh and blood family saw fit to DENY you doctor-perscribed pain medication that for all they knew, you might have needed. Denying medication is a form of *abuse* and one of the most common ways elderly family members and people with mood disorders *get* abused.
--It is most definitely not your fault that your family sees fit to stigmatize you by blaming all your problems on your "mental health". Yes, I am well aware people do this, but it just isn't right. Just because someone *has* a psychiatric diagnosis, that does not mean *everything* is about their "being crazy", ok? People with mental illness *do* get physically ill, do get injured, and *do* have feelings too. And people are just being *bigots* when they insist that every problem you have is "all in your head". The doctor who perscribed you the Vicodin (serious stuff, by the way) for back pain didn't think your pain was "all in your head" so who the hell are your *Untrained* family members to judge you?

Really. As sad as it is, it really sounds like your family is abusing you, and you need to get help. Talk to your doctors, particularly ones that *respect you* like your doctor who helped you with your back pain. See about finding a social worker to advocate for you so that your family *knows* someone professional and objective has your back no matter what abuse they concoct.

Elder abuse is still abuse and you don't have to take it, psychiatric diagnosis or not.

Hope this helps....

Answer 2

No one gets admitted to the hospital for attention. Hospital beds are for those that need them. Please don't feel guilty about being in the hospital. You were there because you needed to be, otherwise, you'd have been discharged.

I assume that since you have a long-standing psychological condition that requires treatment that you have a psychiatrist or at least a doctor you see regularly. Can you explain to him or her what is going on. I say this without offering you much more because you allude to issues that appear deeply rooted and pervasive. These and any others with your family need to be sorted out by someone who can accept and interpret all the details.

Please don't give up. There are solutions to what seems like so many overwhelming problems. Seek the help that you need. You are here for a reason, you must believe that and be strong until you can start discovering possibilities with your doctor.

Answer 3

Yeah some times family could be cruel. They feel like they need you and you are not there. You are the fam. strength. With out you they feel lost. It' s natural to blame at some thing thats not available for you to use. Thats what they are doing. You can't loose your confident or cool. You can't even complain about anything... It's not fair but when the leader is week or wounded you'll loose the war (of life). You get what I am saying.. Huuh. So be the leader. Don't get emotional. They all love you. Just can't handle you and dad in the same bad situation. You are their hope. So get up and get going. There will be a time you will let them know that they are bunch of craaaap. But it is not the time now. O>K> xxoo

Answer 4

There are two major life changes that have caused your crisis: your father in the hospital and your recent divorce. I am bipolar too and major life changes are unbelievable stressors for me, as well. Your family doesn't understand your illness, and therefore they don't know how to cope. You know, sometimes you just can't depend on others, you have to depend on yourself, and battle your way back to stability, it can be done. I understand suicidal feelings, I've struggled with them for years. But, you know, I'm ten times stronger than I was a decade ago, because I have survived innumerable struggles with my own illness. Keep reaching out on this website, and see if it doesn't give you a perspective to help you emerge from this crisis a stronger person. Good luck.

Answer 5

Ending your life is not the answer. You are trying to take a short cut out of life and you can't do that. How do you think your family would feel if you took your life. Someone who does such a thing, is unfair to their children and loved ones. You leave them wondering and worrying what they could have done. However killing yourself would deprive them to help you.
Your Dad is ill. You need to be there for them and they will be there for you. You have to do your best, whatever is best for you. Perhaps you need to sit everyone down and tell them you are sorry they feel you were trying to get attention when you were not. Explain to them you want
to share with them this walk with your Dads illness.
All of you need to bond together for all of your sakes and especially your Dads.

Answer 6

Ok it'ts like this don't pay attention to what your family think you keep your head up and keep stead fast. When it comes to your meds get on the right ones for you can be on track No one know how it is to be bipoplar but you dont end your life or nothing stay their for your child pray do whats right and forget if none of your family there or what they think they not living your life for you at all. when you let them know that i dont care what you think they have a new respect for you cause guess what you have a new respect for your self. Sorry about your dad and i hope he get to feeling better keep yo head up even though i dont know you and i really honest to god care about what happen. feel free to email me anytime if you want to at [e-mail]

Answer 7

I think the first thing you need to do since you have had a medicine regime changed is to get that straightened out first.
Then stand back and take reveiw of your life. If your family is making you miserable, YOU need to get out of that situation. Family or no family, it is not right for someone to put another person down by saying you got ill to seek attention.

Answer 8

Keep it together my friend. Its too bad that their concern is causing more pain for you and it is always far easier for people (family) to falsely label a situation then to take the time to understand what is going on with the person they are labeling. That way they can justify their actions or lack of to themselves

Answer 9

I am sorry you are having such a bad time with life. Please don't end it. I have felt like ending it too but I have a purpose on this earth and so do you. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Remember your new grand baby will be here soon. My family does not respect me either. ( my husband and kids do but others family members do not) I don't really have any words of advise but just please hang in there. It will get better soon. I don't know if you are a religious person but please put your faith in God. He does not give us any more than we can handle. Good luck and God Bless.

Answer 10

Please stop thinking like ending it all...I know you can survive all the problems your having right now...Problems sure will have it's end but please be patient to bear with it for the meantime. Life is beautiful..count all the good ones you have had in your life and you'll be surprised to know that your problem is not even one half of it....please think positive and be excited for the coming of your grandchild...believe me everything will be changed as your grandchild is your angel that will bring out happiness in you...Pray hard...Know God...He will help you.....Indulge yourself here in yahoo answers...this will keep you away from boredom and loneliness....God Bless