I'm really scared?

Question

I just got out of hospital, I was there for almost 3 months with severe depression. I'm on a lot of different medications now and they are helping a bit but I still feel really depressed most of the time. I live by myself, and I have a psychistric nurse who comes to see me every day and I have appointments with my psychiatrist every week, but I'm scared that things will get really bad again now that I'm not in the hospital anymore.

When I was in the hospital I couldn't hurt myself because they took away all my sharp things, but now I'm back home and I'm finding it really difficult not to hurt myself again.

What should I do? Someone please help.......

Answer 1

Don't look for an answer to that question here, none of us know you & even though we want to help you, we might not give you the answer that best suits you because we don't know your history. You need to talk to your nurse when she visits you next & tell her what you have told us. Good luck.

Answer 2

Do you have friends and family, because I need to tell you one thing - if you are feeling like this, posting a question on here asking for help about it is not the best thing to do. Because people here aren't experts and some seem to like to take the p*** and may say something nasty. Instead, and assuming you've no-one nearby to call on, type into a search engine for support groups relating to self harm and depression and challenge yourself to find somewhere for support that hasn't been signposted just by your psychiatric nurse/psychiatrist. Can you go for a walk? It might be weird but if there's a park near you, you might find the fresh air starts to make you feel a bit brighter after a while. I'm no expert and any suggestions anyone, including me, make here don't reflect your medical history and so might be more of a hindrance than a help so if you can do just one thing, take this question off. After all, someone might say something that upsets you and pushes you to harm yourself which I think you're trying really hard not to do. Remember what they say, you have to get to the bottom of the black hole before you can get back out again.Good luck, you can get through it.

Answer 3

Thats a really horrible place to be, but you must have made good progress at the hospital if they let you move back home. You could try and keep to a routine, get up at a certain time and organise your day so that you can prepare for whats to be done. Be honest with your cpn and tell him/her what your fears are about being home again and they will be able to give you some strategies to help you cope. Keep going because there is a light at the end of the tunnel, and feel good about how much progress you have made so far and believe in yourself that you can get to where you want to be, just like all the rest of us though it can take some time and some hard work. Take Care.

Answer 4

Its OK to be scared about something that you dont know how to cope with. Just remember u have a nurse who is there for u, has she given u a number to call her or someone else when u feel things are getting to u a little ? If u have call them now as it may help for u to express ur fears and to hear a few words of comfort.
Just remember u have eventually come out of hospital so u r getting there it just takes time, and each day that u dont hurt yourself has shown u can do it. Can u also talk to somone who maybe has had similar issues that can support u and them through this? hope u r OK.

Answer 5

Jeez Louise, you poor thing! I too am a self harmer and was in hospital on and off for a year before things got under control. (sort of) Now when I feel like I wan't to gore my arms or face with forks or sharp pencils I think of my kids. Would I wan't them to see me doing this and worse, if they thought I did it then so could they? How would I feel if they started copying me? if they didn't see me then what if they had problems and started doing it anyway? How could I help them if I was still unstable myself? Harming yourself is like an addiction and you need will power to stop it so keep up with your treatment as I myself am doing. I don't think telling you to Grow up and get a grip (like I've been told) will help much as you have an illness and it needs to be treated not scorned.
You live alone and probably are not in the mood for socialising as people advised me, when you feel so low but in the end I made myself go on a weekend break, just me, away from my four walls, and I actually did start talking to people and found I actually enjoyed it. Back home I was down again but instead of hurting myself I wrote about my day and forced myself to plan more. It's extremely hard to get over but I wish you all the luck in the world in your recovery my friend. Well done for actually asking for advice, as this means you are willing to try and help yourself get out of this, your willing to listen to and hopefully take advice. Good luck!

Answer 6

i think you should find a purpose to be strong, and find things that can help you achieve that, do you have anyone to move in with? a family member or a friend maybe someone from the hospital that has gotten discharged? you should find a hobby, start reading books with happy endings, there are many, and watch movies too, stuff like that,simple as they are, can bring a little happiness to you. if your out of the hospital you must be getting better the doctors would keep you there if you weren't. you should trust them and understand that things will get bad only if you let that happen.

Answer 7

Hi Alicia - sorry you've been feeling so low. I think the fact that you've written this is a really good sign - you know what the problem is and you're asking for help. Perhaps next time your nurse comes he/she will help you sort out all those tempting sharp things and take them away for the time being. Is there anyone else you could ask to come and visit you to keep you company? Or somewhere nice you could go to keep your mind occupied? I really hope you feel better soon - meanwhile, Yahoo 'Answers' is here for you!

Answer 8

I really feel for you,I have been through depression myself and know what it's like,I didn't try harming myself and I was lucky to have my family around me for support.Can you not get someone to stay with you until you are feeling a whole lot better? or tell your nurse and the psychiatrist how you feel,I really hope you get better soon, for me I got out of feeling depressed by thinking I do not want to be like this for the rest of my life and that was 19 years ago and i haven't looked back since.Good luck to you.

Answer 9

Call your doctor, therapist, etc. Another thing you can do in a pinch is call 630-482-9696 - this is a 24 hour depression hotline and it helps to talk to someone.

I know how you feel and know how hard this is. Don't let anyone tell you "it's not that bad," or "what do you have to be depressed about, " etc., or any of that other bullshit. Depression is a very real, very hard, very dangerous condition, and it's also PHYSICAL, not just emotional. Medications used for depression are generally to correct chemical imbalances that ARE NOT YOUR FAULT.

If you need to communicate with someone who understands, please send me a reply, and set something up. Good Luck!

Answer 10

As you are aware of the possibility of hurting yourself, you are doing good. This is good technique: Ask yourself. Find atleast two different answers and choose the most positive one.

Talk to your family and friends. Make new friends. Your depression may go away if you can find a way to see that you are in a better position than many others in many ways.

Wish you a cheering heart.

Answer 11

You should not be on a site like this of one thing, people will tell you all sorts of things, can you not go and stay with someone? or at least visit someone, is there someone in the family who could stay with you or least talk to you, you could phone the Samaritans and you must tell the Hospital how you feel.
try and find something that will help take your mind off what ever it is that makes you feel this way.
take care.