Christians- Q's about fellowship with God?

Question

I am saved. I would prefer not to get answers from people saying there is no God...ect because it's what I believe. I try to respect other people, please respect me. That said I am having trouble being angry at God for the things I had no or little control over in my life. My anger has caused me to step back and not fellowship with Him. I keep pushing away when I feel Him tugging because it seems when I go back to Him (read the Bible and talk to Him) really bad stuff happens. I want to know Him more and grow in His word. I don't want to feel anger or alone. I have been away so long. I'm not sure how to accept what's happened and return. I want it so deeply and yet I can't move forward because I emotionally break down and can't function.
Any suggestions would be appreciated. Thanks

Things that happened were- child sexual assult, beaten by a gang in HS, raped, kidnapped, lost older sister in a car accident, and abondoned by my mother

...Crying...I am listening to a secular radio station online and it just played- It Is Well With My Soul by Selah when I was reading some of ya'lls messages. If I needed anymore proof that He's right there with me I'd be a fool.

Answer 1

I am happy to see that you are saved. This will ensure your healing. You say bad things happen to you when you start trying to humble yourself and live for God. That is satan. He doesn't want to lose you so he makes you doubt your relationship with God. It's okay that you have been away from him...he's ready for you if you're ready for him. Jesus says, "Behold I stand at the door and knock", He's knocking at your heart's door right now and he doesn't want you to be emotionally broken. He wants to help you resolve the problems you've had in your past. He wants you to look forward to a happier life in the Lord. He doesn't want you to feel guilty for coming to him. He loves you. He doesn't want you to hurt yourself either. Keep strong in your faith and remember the verse, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. It is so true. Good luck to you.

Answer 2

Sh!t happens!
And it sounds like you got a little more than your share.

There is a belief, that an individual as you are special to God, and Satan would love to destroy one as you. And God would let him, just because God believes your that strong!

(you more than likely been told this)
Read Job, the beginning, then skip all the commentary with his friends and his wife,and go to the end where he talks to God.

Now I am not saying your Job, or anything like it, but God does not just let things happen because he does not care. There is a reason, and I think your one of those special people maybe even chosen from before.

Now if you are things are not going to turn around overnight they may even get worse, (but for you how I don't know). But if you are chosen from before I have no fear of what you will do, and all your days Satan will be right there (just tell him to get lost)

May your days be better!

Answer 3

I'm a Christian and can understand better than you may realize. I think what is going on for you is fear. Satan wants to keep you from a relationship with God, so he's throwing some roadblocks in your way.

Did you know you can access a Bible right from your computer. Check out www.biblegateway.org. If you like the site, bookmark it on your computer and you can read, even just a chapter at a time. First of all, I want you to read the Prodigal Son, because God wants to bring you back, warts and all. You don't have to be at a certain level, because God loves you and wants you back.

Those stirrings you feel are from God, and he also desires that closeness with you, and this is okay.

Don't be afraid, because he does want that time with you.

If you want to talk further, feel free to click on my link at my name. It connects with my e-mail address.

Another chapter to read is Psalms 121.

Blessings to you.

P.S. Don't forget that no matter how "bad" you are, you have not gone too far that God won't forgive you.

In his Love
Searcher.

Answer 4

Sounds like you really do just need Jesus in order to cope with life. Find a great church that is very caring and open and that is willing to minister to ppl that have issues similar to your. There are a lot out there. I always figured (as nieve as it may sound) that naturally when you start getting closer to God Satan is going to try harder to keep you away and make you angry with God. The bigger the plan the Lord has for your life the harder Satan is going to try to get you to turn from Him. To be honest for me it has been just the opposite, when horrible stuff happens it makes me feel better to say"God is good!" No matter what happens God is still good and when we can say that during the worst time of our life, Satan sure does hate it!

Answer 5

Hello sister ( sister, yes, not brother? If brother, my apologies). I don't know where you are, but it is late here. I'm a little blurry-eyed, but I'll try to help you out. I've been there, right where you are. Hang in there-God wants that fellowship with you just as you desire it with Him.

Are you familiar with the book of Job? Look at the story and see how much suffering Job went through. But he was faithful, and look at how he was rewarded!

How about the story of Joseph? There is a life of trials if ever there was one, but God kept Joseph safe and kept blessing him. It is easier to see the "really bad stuff" than the really good stuff-is it possible that you are overlooking God's blessings and focusing on the trials you are going through?

You say that you are angry at God because of the things that you had no control over in your life. Are you angry at Him because you feel that He did have control over those things? Do you think He caused those bad things to happen? Remember, if you have been taught this before, or hear it now for the first time-God does not test us with the bad things. Look again at the book of Job; it was Satan, not God, who caused the bad stuff. Yes, God allowed it to happen, but I am sure that it pained Him to do so.

A tough lesson from the Bible comes from the book of James, chapter 1, verses 2-4. This is summed up in a fairly common saying: "pain builds character." And speaking of anger, skip down to verses 19 and 20 of that chapter-don't be angry because it accomplishes nothing of value. I'm skipping around here, both in thought and in scripture, but the idea of pain bringing about maturity is repeated in Romans 5:3, 4. Going on to verse 5, read that "Hope does not disappoint" (in the New King James Version).

Read on in Romans, Chapter 8, verse 28 and realize that all things work for the good of those who love God. You do love God, don't you? That is why you miss Him, and desire to be with Him.

Read Psalm 32. Do not keep silent, or your bones will grow old because of your groaning, and you will feel God's hand heavily upon you as He reaches out for you, trying to draw you near to Him. But just as the Psalmist found that God was the deliverance and the hiding place that he (the Psalmist) needed, so to shall you find solitude in Him. Read on, verses 10 and 11, and see that you, one who trusts in the Lord, shall have mercy. You will be glad, you will rejoice, and you will shout for joy.

There are many, many more passages like these. You probably know them, or have heard them. Open your Bible, ask God to guide you, and you will find Him.

I am praying for you now; even if I don't know who you are, God does. Reach for Him; He is reaching for you.

Answer 6

Yes that is all negative behavior and not easy to get over if it happens to you. Part of the blame lies with those religions that teach shame and fear of going before your Creator because you had something bad happen to you and you might get punished more for letting it happen to you. NONSENCE.
Both the prechristian religions Pagan and Witchcraft along with the NEW TESTAMENT have the same verse. for starting to find the Creator again.
Some believe in reincarnation in which you set up the circumstances of your return to life in this physical world. to learn some lesions that you think you still need to learn.
Hope some of this helps. blessed be.
If you cannot find me within you will not find me without.
To find the door you first need to find your soul again which is a spark of the Creator that it threw off of its body before the creation of the physical world. these sparks became the souls of all that was and will be. So don't be afraid to talk to something which is apart of yourself and it part of you.
At sixty I'm still trying to find the part in my contract with god that says nothing bad will ever happen to me in my lifetime on earth. It is how well you handle the situation after wards that builds faith or ruins it.

Answer 7

If you have access to Biblical counseling I would suggest that you take advantage of it. I'm a counselor and I can't give you very much over the Internet but it sounds like you are under some sort of oppression and that God is allowing it to test your faith and to teach you not to stray from Him in the future. My advice would be to persevere in prayer and Bible reading and to seek out a mature Christian from your church whom you can talk and pray with if you don't have access to counseling. If you have also stopped attending church then prayerfully seek a good Christ honoring, Bible teaching church in your area to attend. That could also be another reason for the trial that you are going through. God doesn't want his children to be separated from the body of Christ. He gave us spiritual gifts to use in service and fellowship with one another.

Answer 8

Hi Tink,

I am sorry you are struggling. God is sad also.

Please know, this isn't about His love for you. He loves you unconditionally. Even in the Bible, there are stories of great prophets fleeing from God (David, Jonah). But, when they were ready, so was God.

As your fellow brother in Christ, I would encourage you to simply spend a few moments in prayer and ask God to indwell you with HIs Holy Spirit and comfort you.

I'll say a prayer for you tonight!!

In the meantime, please visit this awesome website and take a moment and spend it with your Creator, Father and Savior.

May God Bless You,

http://www.fathersloveletter.com/fllpreviewlarge.html

Answer 9

Dear Tink,

I'm very very sorry to hear about these painful things that have happened to you.

I would recommend that you dialog with your a Christian Counsellor -- or you could check with the pastor of your church (if you are involved in a church).

If it will help to talk (via email), feel free to email me.
--
My background: I used to be an atheist. Over a period of time however, I grew convinced of the existence of the Christian God, and ultimately committed my life to Christ (e.g., see http://www.godsci.org/gs/chri/testimony/seek.html ).

Cordially,
John

Answer 10

The feelings you are getting are because you are under conviction. God wants you back under His wings.
You know that God did not cause these things to happen to you and your family. Go to Him in prayer and ask Him to lead you thru this. Sometimes we are put thru trials because of our beliefs, look at Job, but we have God and He is waiting for you....
Remember that when you are NOT close to God, satan will not bother you alot, but when you are living for GOD, satan throws things at you left and right.
Don't let satan win this battle. Talk with God, not just to Him, with Him and listen to Him. He is trying to tug you back close to Him.
God loves you and satan just lies to you...