As long we dont know what do we have, we shall never miss it truly.?

Question

that's what makes our life so hard.
when something walks out from our life, that's the only moment when we become aware of what we had.

seems like we live in our dream of happiness all the time, and these, broken-up connections sometimes wake us.

now, i'm leaving my home, and my family. and there's only one thing thats on my mind. i need to be sure that they will be safe.
who knows what's waiting for me. but i know that there's one thing that's above my life. its them.
am i just suposed to stay tough, as i used to be? am i suposed to carry on telling them that their worries are so minor and that this voyage is nothing, though i'll come back in december.
in the end, seems like i'm the one who's acting like that.

how am i suposed to carry on, when being so deeply desperate about everything. i dont express it, i hardly speak to anyone about this.
just, have a feeling that i've never been much close to my family. now, like every good thing is showing its sad one...

Answer 1

I think you knew all along what you had you just didn't appreciate it as much because now you will be without it for a few months. December is only 4 months away and yes, absence makes the heart grow fonder. Just try and keep in touch as much as you can or want to. You are not losing anything but 4 months time. think of what you will be getting in return and when you return home.

There will come a time in your life when you start your own home and that will become your hub of life. Right now this is the only home you know and it kind of makes you certain that you have a heart because you can kind of feel it breaking a little when you think about leaving. That is normal. get a cheap calendar and mark the days off till you are suppose to return and you can make it a habit every night. I am willing to bet you after about 3 to 4 weeks you don't mark so much anymore in the calendar and that means your growing up.

Good Luck and in the words of Judy Garland, "There is no place like home."

Answer 2

You know what you have and they know what they have. Each person knows what he has. This way everybody manages their life perfectly without anyone really intervening. And most people really do manage.

I think what your feeling is about when you feel that you lose something as moving away from home - is a lack of control. Why would you feel worried about how your family manage at all? Aren't they grown people managing on their own? It is actually healthy to feel loss and sorrow when leaving, but it is not as if you don't get to visit or go see your family again?

Maybe you do need to speak to a close friend about feelings like these just to make them common to your own thinking. To me it sound as if these feelings are not thought of or processed with you? It is nice to have a close relationship with family. Very nice. But it is as important to tear oneself loose and live one's own life. As for your family (mom?) to let you go - to trust you to come back?

Good luck and best wishes for your process on losening bonds with your family...:)

Answer 3

You sound all grown-up, concern for your family. Your on the right track, they'll be fine, you will be too. Shalom, Live life to it's fullest potential. That's what they want for you.

Answer 4

the only thing you can do is do what is in your heart and put one foot in front of the other