Don't like being healthy...upset about having no cavities...I like being "sick"?

Question

Why am I so stupid? I was at the dentist today for a suspected cavity, but it was just a stain. I was upset about this. I didn't *want* a cavity, but I was really hoping they would question me about my oral health and say something. I've been feeling depressed about this all day. Who in their right mind is upset when they're told that their teeth are "perfectly healthy"?

When I had heart problems (including a murmur, heart palpations etc) and was dizzy all the time at a point in my life when I was really sick...I was happy in an odd-twisted way.

It's like that I want attention. If I did, I would have openly told my dentist today that I've been bulimic for 6 years. I didn't say a thing. This questions relates specifically to struggling with bulimia. Why do I have to feel like I need to prove it physically?!

***I meant to say "It's not like I want attention."

Answer 1

I think you feel this way because deep down you know and you feel that you do have a problem, however, the problem is not obvious physically to other people, and so you feel that you are suffering in silence. And perhaps you feel that it is unfair that people are not noticing your pain? however think of it this way, would you prefer ithat people knew about your problem and treated you differently from the rest? wouldnt "special" treatment hurt your feelings? i think it would.

Answer 2

DO NOT listen to the Aholes who tell you negative things! Yes you do need counseling, but you are responding to pain in your life in a way that is harmful to yourself, unlike the jerks who respond by trying to make you feel worse.
You want someone to acknowledge you and just don't know how to go about it in a healthy way. Think of all the people who complain constantly about this ailment or that problem, they are doing the same thing. Everyone wants to been seen, not just looked at, but seen in a way where they matter. Life can be very lonely and it is obviously difficult to find people with compassion. Go to a counselor and they will give you attention for at least one hour a week and help you develop more positive ways of getting the acknowledgment we all want and deserve. Everyone has problems, so don't be so down on yourself. Some of us have more than others, but it's the ones who think that they don't are usually the ones causing them for the rest of us. Be good to yourself and give yourself some attention, like bubble baths or whatever. You are self aware and seeking help and that is a great start.

Answer 3

I can try to help you with your question:
Without knowing you, I would say that you are self-conscious about being bulimic which makes your situation worse. You want to prove to people that you have this problem because 1) On the outside, nobody can see that you are ill and 2) I bet when you tell someone you are not feeling well and it is because of your stomach, nausea, whatever, that person may not believe you or tell you "It's all in your head!" especially if you say it often or call in sick from work because of it. You have a REALLY problem and if people don't understand that, consider them ignorant. I have irritable bowel syndrome. What I told you above is what was happening to me before IBS started to become known (about 2004). I got it back in 1990. People told me I was crazy, I brought it on myself, it was stress causing me to feel sick, etc. I felt like I HAD to somehow and prove to society that this was a REALLY physical, not mental, problem. I still have problems at work because people don't REALLY understand what I go through on a daily basis with IBS unless they know about it through a loved one.

Also, I think you are DEPRESSED and NEED to feel or BE sick so you can prove to people that you won't/can't fulfill any obligations. You are not motivated, probable tired, and don't feel well in general because you have Bulimia. I can only imagine how horrible that must be. My suggestion would be to see a very good Psychiatrist and Psychologist. They can help you with all conditions you have AND all underlying conditions. I highly suggest this!

Also, just explain to people the problem you have and the physical problems that go along with it... get a doctor's note for work explaining this condition. And surround yourself with friends that won't judge you because you have a medical condition and understand when you have to cancel your plans. Don't let ANYONE who judges you negatively get in the way of you being positive. People who judge you just don't understand and are ignorant. If you still try and expain your situation to these kind of people and they still don't get it, continuing to act negatively toward you, don't EVEN worry about those people. You are better than they are!

Answer 4

I used to feel the exact same way you do. I have never heard anyone else say this, and I'm actually glad - in a twisted way, I guess - that I'm not the only person who's weird like this.

A lot of people above me have suggested you go to a therapist, which would probably be a good idea, but its very hard to admit to them about this 'problem' - or it least it was for me.

I don't really have any advice or anwers for you about this, but if you wanna talk, feel free to send me an email or a message or anything. It might be interesting? :D

Answer 5

I think you should see a therapist. This is not a normal thing. Aside from the eating disorder which you need help for, you might be bordering on Munchhausen's syndrome. (Where people get a charge out of being the center of attention for being sick. Munchhausen's by Proxy is when someone does something to someone else to make them sick so the first person gets attention - like a parent/child.)

Answer 6

You are on the edge of the edge and don't know it. A cutter only has to survive for a few years and will recover sanity. A bipolar may get worse but it takes years and it is all very slow. But a bulimics will often never recover after wasting their body flesh they die. The depressed have been rejected and are outcasts socially... the bulimic doesn't want to have a period and become a female after a long abuse. Who wants to be responsible for your passing.

Answer 7

You are sick. You need to see a doctor, especially about the Bulimia. That is a very serious disease, as well as a fatal one. I'm sure you're thinking about wanting to be sick goes along with the mental issues you are suffering from the bulimia. Get some help!

Answer 8

It's okay to like all the attention that being ill brings ya. You have been sick in the past and now seem to be missing that attention.

Answer 9

Its sound like you DO want attention. Talk to a doctor or a thearpis and story being Bulimic, you could kill your self, PLEASE get help, im praying for ya!

Answer 10

cause you like attention and you don't know how to get it in a good way, like accomplishing things, goals.