Is it possible through extreme weight loss and abusing SSRI anti-depressants to cause brain damage?

Question

This is embarassing and hard to write. I feel so disassociative and brain dead. I feel like I have had ECT, but I have not. My entire family hates me and do not want to deal with me at all. I basically spend my time in a depressive stupor, staring off into space not really comprehending what is going on around me. I am having a really hard time leaving the house or talking. I know that I am completely alone. Has anyone else been the way that I am and has recovered ? I do not feel anything except self-hatred, guilt, shame, and terror.It is like I am completely trapped inside of myself and my mind has wrapped around itself with all negative, horrible evil thoughts.I cannot even remember anything good at all in my past 45 years on the planet.I have been hospitalized twice for suicidal thoughts. I am very self-absorbed to the extent that my own pocessions mean nothing to me, my cat means nothing to me. My heart is stone cold. I do nothing all day. Has anyone been here ever? HOPELESS in NC

Answer 1

Yea, I'm there now....you gotta get up and do something about that s.h.i.t though, it ain't gonna go away on its own. Find something to take up your time, like a job, where you can meet new people and possibly new friends.
I did Meth for 10yrs straight and when I quit(8 months ago) I felt that way ALL the time, I still feel down a lot cause I feel like I wasted 10yrs of my already short enough life on that crap.
So get up, get out, find some friends, take the time to come out of your funk and reunite with family members....You'll find that life really is great......Once you give it a chance

Answer 2

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Answer 3

I am assuming that if you are taking such meds, you have a doctor. It is time to have a long talk with your physician and get the drug problem back in control. I'm not pharmacologist, but it seems very likely that if you are abusing drugs that alter brain chemistry, you could do permanent damage.

But I also know that such drugs cannot be stopped cold turkey without serious risk, so you're going to need professional help. If your insurance covers it, or you qualify for county help, you may even want to check yourself into a mental health facility tonight.

Anyway, a suicide hotline at a minimum.

This place is no place for that question. You already know you need professional help and too many non-experts here with smartass responses could do some damage.

Go get help. Honestly, though I know sometimes it doesn't feel this way, there are people who care.

Answer 4

Yes. People do come back from that place. You need to know that.

I think you already know that you need to get a hold of your doctor now. If not your doctor, then a crisis hot line or your local hospital. You are at bottom. Everything from there is up. Find the energy to make the call you know you need to make. It is worth it. You are worth it.

I would bet that you are not brain damaged, just on the wrong medication. Major depressive episodes are not permanent. Find the right doc and the right meds and add a therapist who can be your advocate and help you understand you.

You reached out here. Now reach out in person. You can even if you don't feel real while you're doing it. Oh, and don't be embarrassed. The only shameful thing is letting pride stop you from seeking the best care for yourself.

Answer 5

Perhaps you should stop feeling like you are defective for not wanting to do stuff or be happy. Everybody has down times, and some people that have really down times are not responsible, their brain chemistry is. I am not sure I am answering your questions, but you need to see a doctor. If you don't feel like that will help, you have two choices: you can wallow in your own crapulence, feeling sorry for yourself and reinforcing your feelings of worthlesness, or, you can start doing things that make you feel good about yourself. You may not be able to control how your brain feels, but you can control how you react to those feelings.

Answer 6

I'm sorry you feel this way. Nothing I can say will make you better. I'll tell you that my mother-in-law abused her prescription anti-depressants and went on a crash diet. She lost 70 lbs. in 2 months. She ended up in a coma and suffered brain damage. She'll never be the same again. Please get professional help before something terrible happens to you.

Answer 7

Sounds like you need to eat right, and get aerobic excercise 4-5 times a week. It raises seratonin levels, and don't smoke which lowers the levels. I doubt you have brain damage it sounds more like anxiety.

Answer 8

Your brain needs glucose in order to function. If you are starving yourself, you are starving your brain. The antidepressants can make you feel numb... feel disassociated from reality/the world around you. I would make sure your Dr that put you on the antidepressants knows how you are feeling. They can maybe change the antidepressants to something that doesn't "zone" you out so much.

Answer 9

better to avoid diet when you re under a lot of stress

Answer 10

paint your own toe nails instead of sitting for a pedicure