is God still with me even through all this.? I need serious anwsers?

Question

I was born with ceberal palsy in my left arm and leg. Iwhen I was just a little kid I was apparetly happy all the time my dad brough out the crushing blows of my heart. he said when you were just a little guy you were happy all the time smilied no matter what now your one of the coldest most bitter kids I have met Now im 17 violence and Rage and emotionless Person was me then a Preacher came into my life out of no wear opwened my eyes to God. It helped but I still have rage issues like my dad used to. and i got into God for awhile Now I told the preacher dont waste my time if your gonna speak of God. I dont wanna hear it. and earlier i had a comfrontatin with my mom, she accidently she says called me her bfs name. I said dont ever call me that again or i'll hit you, and she did just to piss me off so i threw a little bottle at her leg she told me to get out of the house and leave, I said **** you. i walked off she grabed my arm and I grabed her and sla,med her agaisnnt tht wall nothin

more then that. and we had arguement maybe 2 hours ago cuz theirs bruises ion her arms. n she saud sumthingfs like I dont care bout anyone

and my heart I almost collpased it was like God was expressing his heartbreak inside of me Omfg it was pain..

I react in adness but express it with rage

Yo tell me to get over a disability when your born with a disability you dont get over it you just deal with it and dealing with it does not mean your anger is gone. I hold in my anger most of the time until sumone gets physical with me

and yo to the one person if there was no God then their is no hope only randomization

Answer 1

Stop holding on to all your bitterness. God can't touch a heart holding on to unforgiveness and hatred. Let go and, well, ask God to do something, talking to a friend who would understand helps.
Check Eph 6:26-28 "In your anger do not sin": Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold. He who has been stealing must steal no longer, but must work, doing something useful with his own hands, that he may have something to share with those in need.
also Mark 11:25 And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins."

Answer 2

Anger is something you can control. Go get help if you can't do it yourself.

If you ask about God, then on the last day, every single soul will be questioned about their resources (including their bodies) that how did they use it on earth (For good or for bad?). The more the resources, the more the interrogation. The healthier you are, the more you're accountable. So perhaps this would make you feel better. You really ARE special!

That's what I believe in and that's the only theory that proves life is NOT unfair for those who're disabled.

Answer 3

Ok... calm down. First of all, you are 17, so your body is producing a BUNCH of testosterone (the kill it or mate with it wonder-hormone). Your rational mind is still figuring out how to deal with the hormone levels... That is what is producing the violent and angry emotions. Try to realize that it is a natural process - and that you should go for a run, shoot some baskets, go to the batting cages or something when you feel angry or like a rage is going to come on. Remove yourself from an argument before you act out on your rage. Doing something like that will make you feel a lot better about yourself than if you hurt someone else on an impulse.

From what you say, it seems as if you liked the Preacher and what he was telling you about God. It seems as if you found solice in enhancing your relationship with God... Why not continue with finding out more about religion and what you can do to improve your personal relationship with God.

Personally, I am not one for organized religion, but I do have my own relationship with God and I am spiritual. From what I understand, God will be with you through the bad times and the good - as long as you allow him/her to be.

Don't give up on yourself - try to find ways of coping with your feelings. Perhaps you could find a different preacher or a male member of your church who can help you through this time. Talk with your dad or an uncle or someone who can help you out. It seems like you are a good person who is just going through a rough time... Just remember that this time will pass and you will move on to better times in your life.

Good luck!

Answer 4

You need to speak with someone. This rage and anger is just a manifestation of how you really feel inside. At this point, getting violent will only make things worse. I suggest talking to someone who is a close friend or anyone who is willing to listen to you without passing any judgement. I truly believe that God is watching over each and everyone one of us and that God has a plan for everyone. Although it is difficult for us to understand and make sense of it, especially during trying times, there will come a day when it will all be clear. Just be patient and have faith.

Answer 5

I'm sorry you had this confrontation.
If you truly believe in God and it makes you feel better to believe that he is there to help you, then I would say, yes, according to the bible he forgives and is there for anyone who tries to do the right thing.

If you are prepared to accept the fact that God does not exist, then I would say to you, learn to look within yourself for inner strength and joy. Search out who is close to you that you can truly trust and confide in them your troubles. Use the world around you as your guide - don't expect some invisible 'person' to step in and solve your problems, or take the hurt away. You will be disappointed time and time again. Once you take control of your own life, and take responsibility for your own actions, you will live a happier, honest, and truly fullfilling life.

Answer 6

I think the question is, "Has God ever been with you?" It appears to me that you have never been serious about God. All of your situation can be turned around by God but you need a genuine conversion through faith in Jesus Christ and acceptance of His Lordship or you will never change. Right now you are your own god so don't expect anything from the true God.

Answer 7

You need to talk to a professional. No one is with you on this. There is no excuse for what you did. It sucks you have CP. But, get over it and live your life. You are wasting time being upset about it. And, it is NOT AT ALL cool that you are taking it out on the people that love you.

If returning to god helps, do it. But more importantly, see a psychiatrist and get some help and medication.

Answer 8

Yes, God is with you THROUGH everything! Good and the bad. Have you ever heard of this poem? The Footprints

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed
he was walking along the beach with the LORD.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene he noticed two sets of
footprints in the sand: one belonging
to him, and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him,
he looked back at the footprints in the sand.

He noticed that many times along the path of
his life there was only one set of footprints.

He also noticed that it happened at the very
lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he
questioned the LORD about it:

"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow
you, you'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most
troublesome times in my life,
there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when
I needed you most you would leave me."

The LORD replied:

"My son, my precious child,
I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."

Answer 9

hello , i think God is something human beings made for their mental satisfaction. and in case let us suppose God exists then why he is giving pain and sufferings to some people. while some evil people are living with comfort.
i feel either God does not exists or if he exists he does not interfere with peoples life.if you believe in life before life and life after life then may be the we have to suffer of what we have done in some previous lives and vice versa.
but never loose hope, there is a saying and i saw its true. "after every night there is a morning.

Answer 10

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