fee again with her eating trouble -bpd-how can i have anorexia when i weigh 59 kgs-130 Ibs,I Realise its a?

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A control kind of thing same with the drink thing,im blocking-but hey im on this site,easy to write words tho,it took me ages to ralise that blacking out on drink wasnt helping my depression,i gave it all up 60 days ago-wow what a difference!did the odd bit of coke thats gone too!thanks for your email add i wont abuse i would love to touch base!i have also self harmed and the usual bpd behaviour-.I am trying to play it down with my psch,i cant handle another rigid thing right now it took 3 goes to get off drink,im so proud i did it,i cant pos be anorexic,if i can jst eat healthy stay away from bad stuff,and bin the laxatives it will be ok rite! my counsellor is amazing she thinks im dealing with it the same way as booze,email doesnt have the same affect as one on one counselling ,its just bad luck shes away for 3 mths im seeing a temp one its not the same ,i have a good rapor with my psch his way is to make a deal,and he knows im nt under weight,he doesnt know bout laxs an reg puks

He knew i was puking a bit,i normally see him -have to once a wk,havent been for a month,its got a lot worse in the last month or so,but i play it down,what can they do to a 31 year old im not a kid!i worry he will take on of mt meds away that does have a side affect of weight loss and he has threatned ,so i may keep quiet,i dont make a good liar though,thanks for your help guys!

Answer 1

I am here when you need me, if I feel it is getting too much don't worry I will let you know. :)
Take care of yourself, hope to hear from you soon.
If you live in the UK I can chat to you on the phone as long as it is a land line. :)

Answer 2

You can be anorexic if you're under 85% of the normal expected weight for your height and I'm fairly sure you have to have stopped menstruating, but I'm not 100% sure if that's a definite requirement. Anyway, it seems like you're really confused about what you want and where you want to be. I advise you to go back to seeing your psych once a week so you can be sure you're going down the right track. It's important to be honest with him, even though it's a terrifying thought, not being in control and putting yourself in someone else's hands. Kudos to you by the way for stopping drinking,that's a huge accomplishment. You must know that you can trust your psych and are able to be completely honest and know, in your heart of hearts that he will only do what's best for you, and you simply may not know what's best. Your judgement is clouded, and it's clear that you know that from your post, you know what you want but what you want are complete opposites...you want to be well and healthy and living a normal life, but you're so scared to do that because you might put on weight and lose the control you've so sought after. I wish you the best of luck Fee and hope that all goes well.

Answer 3

This is an extremely difficult question to answer, perhaps because it's not truly a question. Please let me begin by stating that I by no means wish to belittle you, but I believe that the reason that you wrote what you did, fee, is that you need someone to speak to. I think that it's wonderful that you have stopped drinking, and I felt very uplifted until the end of your question when you stated that you are indeed suffering from weigh-dissatisfaction problems. Your weight has nothing to do with whether or not you are doing healthy things to your body. I would like to answer your question by asking you several yourself: Are you satisfied with the life you lead? Do you wish that you did not suffer from problems such as yours? Do you possess a true and honest desire to become healthy and live respectfully as I am certain that you are perfectly capable of?

Answer 4

It actually takes about 365 days to start thinking clearly after your last drink, if you're an alcoholic. Your email/post is not actually a question, you are making an argument to support your belief. That is alcoholic/control behaviour.
Your thoughts are jumpy and it shows in your written communication. Writing posts to YA is not an alternative to seeing the temporary counselor. He is the real McCoy, not an anonymous, unlicensed, uninsured Answerer.
You need to be honest if you really want to get clean. Good Luck !