I'm afraid I'm going to kill someone (see details please)?

Question

I live in a town where people can't mind their own business or leave anyone alone. Almost anytime I step outside the door someone makes a stupid comment or throws something at me.
Today I almost got in a fight but I knew if I hit the guy I wouldn't be able to stop so I walked away, while I was walking away about 15 of his friends kept shouting 'you useless woman' (I'm a man with long hair). I'm really afraid I'm going to kill someone or put someone in hospital because I can't take any more of people. I've had rage building up in me since I started school and I think it's all going to be let loose on the next person that harasses me. I really think I'm going mad. I suffer from depression and people are making it worse. Can anyone suggest something I can do to cope with life?
Serious answers please, this isn't a joke question .

I should have mentioned - I'm not actually in school any more, I'm 30 years old and this has been going on pretty much all my life.

Answer 1

Hey my friend- damn, I am sorry that so many people hassle you about this!

I have long hair, too, and I am a guy. I play guitar, as well. I am fortunate in that I haven't had that kind of experience before. People just tend to accept me as I am (for the most part). But some people are very narrow minded. That's a shame.

Please don't hurt anybody. I am only saying that for your sake, so that you don't get into serious trouble with the law. But I do understand why you are angry about this. Lots of guys have long hair, and there is nothing wrong with it. I just plain like having long hair, personally.

You are special in a way, because you refuse to conform to society's standards. I really praise you for that! In fact, if I may say it, I am proud of you for standing out, and being who you are- remaining true to your spirit!

I know all about depression, as well. I have had it all of my life, especially since I was a teen. I am 31 years old now. I like heavy metal music, and I don't really 'fit' into neatly delineated categories that the world has set up. But that's okay!

I really admire you for being a real person. And, I really respect the fact that you haven't already kicked someone's @ss when they have said rude things to you. That shows that you have enormous self-control. Good for you!

Some people are just cruel, and it's wrong! If I were your friend, and I honestly wish I were, I would defend you. I would not allow anyone to say rude things to my friends. Besides, obviously, those people don't know the real you. If they did, they would be more sensitive, and would not say those stupid, wicked things that they say.

I know that this may be hard to deal with on your own. I would really encourage you to find some counseling, if you can. You shouldn't have to deal with this alone. But trust me, there are good people out there- open minded people. Sometimes, the evil people seem to outnumber and outshine the good ones, and that's terrible.

You have a right to be angry. You have been wronged, and you deserve justice. I think that if you can find a way to creatively unleash your anger (in a non-violent way), that people could really relate to you. For example, if you were to write poetry or songs about your feelings and your experiences, I really believe that people would respond in kind. I think that many folks can empathize with your plight. You seem like a very honest person, and when you write words, they come from the heart. People really admire that. It's a gift.

If someone throws something at you, you may be able to press charges on them for assault. Frankly, if I were you, I would call the cops the next time that happens, and see how your attackers like getting questioned by the authorities.

I am glad you didn't engage in that fight today. I commend you for your self control.

Please don't give up! You have a purpose and a destiny in life, and no one can stand in your way!

Please keep us informed of how things are going. I know that I have never met you before, but honestly, I care about what happens to you. You seem like a really nice guy, and you shouldn't have to put up with all this bullsh*t from people.

I wish you well, and good luck! Take care, my man. Peace.

Answer 2

Dont sweat this small stuff and its all just small stuff, Make peace with your imperfections, Be aware of the snowball effect of your thinkings, develope your compassion, do something nice for someone else-and dont tell anyone about it, let others have the glory. Ask yourself the question "will this matter a year from now?". Surrender to the fact that life isnt fair. Smile at strangers, look into their eyes, and say hello. Seek first to understand. Become a better listener, and choose your battles wisely. Practice random acts of kindness, and look beyond behavior......Just for fun, agree with criticism directed toward you, then watch it go away. If someone throws you the ball, you dont have to catch it. Always remember life is just a test and only a test

Answer 3

you should find a crowd that suits you, maybe join a club that shares an interest...
if it wont help you can always change schools, boarding school can actually be kind of fun if its the right school. build up rage you say? how about letting it out and beat the hell out of a punching bag, hang it your room or garage.
oh! how about joining a band or something? i understand your a guitar player, maybe give lessons. if you feel it wont get ant better and its the town you live in that created his situation then you should definitely consider moving, start fresh some place new.

Answer 4

If you think you're going to blow your stack to that degree if this keeps up, get professional help. Better to see a shrink than to end up being the love-puppy of some big-@$$ convict if you go down for murder/manslaughter. A psychiatrist can also help you with the depression through medication or therapy (or both). Don't ignore it; this feeling won't go away, and people will continue to be stupid and cruel. Get help. Good luck!

Answer 5

good for not fight, if you would done some maybe you would be in jail, and it is not worth it. maybe go around them and just keep ignore them. i have a disability i started to take the bus people would make fun of me too and i would cry and i would see the happiness in the children's face that make them happy and started to laugh i started to ignore those people and eventually after a while those same kids would ask me if i need help

just remember sometimes people are not happy whit themselves and have low self esteem and they want people to get mad so they can be happy

also remember if you hit somebody the police is going to come and maybe you would go to jail and to be onset is not worth it for you to in up in jail

also do you have good friends that seems how this people are teasing you, if yes make a report to the police, and have a copy of the report in case something happen and the police does something to you, you can show the police the report

Answer 6

I really feel for you, have you ever considered getting some kind of anger help. The way it sounds you're not angry all the time just when stupid stuff like this happens. Have you ever considered getting a punching bag or something like that so you can vent your frustration when needed, Good luck and I hope all turns out well for you.

Answer 7

i agree with you, some people just don't believe in living and letting live. the best thing one can do is to simply ignore them, let barking dogs be. i know its really hard, but maybe this is God's way of testing us, whether we are as good as we seem!
do try to distract yourself from negative thoughts, this phase is going to make you stronger as a person. find a good hobby to spend time on when you're at home. pray to God to give the strength and courage to face each day with a smile.
wishing you the very best, take care.

Answer 8

Lay low...keep to yourself. If you are being harassed by large groups of people and you are not breaking any laws yourself, contact law enforcement about having such things resolved. If the cops don't help, get a restraining order. If the courts don't help, call 60 minutes.

Keep running it up the ladder.

Answer 9

Thanx 4 coming to Yahoo! Answers to solve ur seroius problems
O yeah thanx 4 the 2 pts

Answer 10

Do you believe in god? Ask him to come into your heart and become your personal lord and savior let him into your life and find a good bible based church and don't give up. I will be praying for you to be safe at all times and I plead the blood of Jesus over you from the top of your head to the bottom of your feet And command Satan to take his hands off you in Jesus name.
you will be okay try to put yourself around people who make you happy