Ladies, tell me what you think about this one. My sister and i have a so so relationship...?

Question

"The Joy"

I'm in this position to where I must listen
Wondering why after all these years I feel there was nothing I was missing
Same words, different thoughts on my behalf
Same crazy uncle with the same crazy laugh
How is that people allow themselves not to change
You dont go to school and just learn one subject, there's a myriad of thangs
Break down the definition of spirit/soul
I'm sure I'm not the only one not comprehending what's being told
Scared to question, satisfied with no answers
This aint no religion, its ritual, destorying the cells of our soul like cancer
I'm feeling uncomfortable, and I wanna keep an open mind
Wondering why I came, and lo and behold, up from behind
I expected them to show, I figured they'd be here
I expected mommas face to glow, a kiss on the cheek, a hey dear
But what I didnt expect, and what I dont recall seeing
Is the smile on my sisters face towards me for just being
It was genuine, it was pure, it was a blessing too see
I dont recall her ever looking like she did directly at me
I was warmed all over, and had no doubts about her love
She loved me and it showed, I thanked the Being above
Why havent I seen this before, why in church, why now?
I stopped questioning everything, and just sat in elation at my sisters smile.

Answer 1

animal instinct with romantic cover.

Answer 2

That's beautiful! You're very talented. You obviously have a great relationship with your sister, deep down, or want one. I'm sure if you showed her that poem she'd cry and then your relationship would be that much stronger. ;-) I think I was close to crying and I'm of no relation, haha