I woke up crying last night, is this normal???

Question

I sometimes feel like it's really hard to go on, but I have two little girls that I love more than anything in the world. I had a dream that I just wanted to leave my girls and find a job that would help me make a lot of money for them, as much as it broke my heart I was willing to do this for them. When I was about to leave, one of my little girls told me that even though she didn't have everything she wanted, she loved me and was happy and thats all that mattered to her. Even now this breaks my heart and I cry. I love my girls and I know I will bend but never break. I'm not sure how to categorize this sorry!!! Thank you for taking the time to read this.

Answer 1

I think it's normal. I was sleeping next to my ex-girlfriend one time-the girl i love more than anything or anyone in the world-and I suddenly found myself sitting on the floor with her holding onto me asking me what's wrong because I was balling. I'm not a cryer either. I suddenly felt all this guilt for everything I had done and had not done. I don't know where it came from. It was absolutely the wrost feeling I've ever had. When I came to my senses, I went back to sleep and was fine the next day.

But I know it's hard being in the bottom of the ocean. you feel like you can't swim up. you just want to breath in the water or get out of it. I've had some hard times. I've wanted to die. So many times I've thought about just leaving and changing everything to get away from the hard stuff. I had so many things plaguing me. I couldn't work, I was in debt so bad I was about to be on the street, and I was alone. I couldn't stop drinking or thinking about that final moment with the gun. Then one day an old friend of mine showed up at my door and said, "get in the car, we're going to the grocery store." She and her family bought me groceries every couple of weeks. When I was finally able to work again, her mom got me a job (nice paying) with a friend of hers. Best job I've ever had. I learned alot about myself in those 6 months. I had been poor for a long time and finally i was going to be able to afford things, and I realized it didn't change anything. The thing that made me the most happy was knowing that there was someone who really cared about me. I had never been content with that before. I hope you find happiness like I did. And I hope someone comes along and picks you up from your quick-sand one day soon.

Sincerely,
James

Answer 2

Yes, I would say totally normal.

Be sure and listen to what the dream was telling you - the monetary stuff is not the important part of your relationship with your kids. If you have a safe place to live, clothes and food - well the rest is just gravy. Money is never worth more than time, once the basics are covered.

This is not what we are taught by the constant stream of advertising that bombards most folks in modern life but if you can raise your kids in a safe, loving environment AND you can manage to also teach them that the material things are not important - that IS priceless.

Answer 3

Some times we suppress in our subconscious things, conversations or maybe even situations we've engaged in. Then when we sleep at night and the body is relaxed the mind is to. You can't get caught up it little details like this. Maybe your going thru some hormonal changes and it has nothing to do with the dreams. Sometimes before our cycle you feel anxious or overwhelmed. Have you ever noticed your more sensitive around that time. Don't be so hard on yourself.

Answer 4

u need to start over and to find a good job i'm broaken i know what ur talking abt but if all of us ran away or break down then 80% of the word will suicide so no ur not alone and u shouldnt stay low keep going there is a reason wich is ur kids think abt them and belive they r ur target in thislife!
wish u luck!

Answer 5

NO.what u done last night is not normal.usually everyone does not do it so.it because that u had left ur loving girl for ur bright future.u must under stand that to get something u must loose somthing.ok take care.just think of ur life.make it sure that u have to acheive something.then u can get with that same girl.BEST OF LUCK.

Answer 6

life is really difficult. you are having conflicts in your heart. you want to work for youR DAUghter's future but you are also scared of leaving them alone. these thoughts are in your head all day and at night you are dreaming it. dreams are the reflection of our thoughts.if you have to work for your daughter's future then leave someone responsible at home. bring your mom at home or you can send them to a day care. you can also work from home. there are many jobs were you can work from home.

Answer 7

Hmmm...life is hard for all of us at times. However, I have learned that you have to be strong for your family. Trust me, there have been times where I have just wanted to abandon it all, family, job and so on. Just be strong, be positive and life will work itself out. Set goals for yourself and do what makes YOU happy.

Answer 8

Sweetie, you want to provide for your children. Nothing wrong with that. If you feel you don't make enough money, start looking for a better job.

Answer 9

YOU HAVE POST PARDUM DEPRESSION PLEASE PLEASE GET HELP IF YOU NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO I AM HERE...... GOOD LUCK.....GOD BLESS LOOK I MYSELF WENT THROUGH THE SAMETHING JUST RECENTLY..... I HAVE BEEN OUT OF WORK FOR MORE THAN TWO YEARS.... TRYING TO GET BACK INTO THE WORK FEILD NO ONE WANTED TO HIRE ME... NO ONE WANTED TO LOOK AT MY RESUME,... NO ONE EVEN WANTED ME TO COME IN FOR INTERVIEWS.... IT WAS HORRIBLE I PLAYED WITH THE IDEA OF JOINING THE MILITARTY ( AIR FORCE) AND YOU MUST SIGN OVER YOU RIGHTS TO YOUR CHILDREN WHEN THAT HAPPENS....I JUST CRIED AND CRIED... BUT I GOT PROFESSIONAL HELP BECAUSE THERE WAS OTHER ISSUES I WAS NOT AWARE BUT OTHERS POINTED OUT TO ME... I TALKED ABOUT THE ISSUES MOVED FORWARD AND GOT MYSELF BACK ON TRACK.... I CRIED AND I CRIED AND I CRIED ABOUT CRYING.... I AM SO MUCH BETTER AND I JUST RECENTLY GOT A JOB..... BUT YOU MUST GO THROUGH THE **** BEFORE YOU SUCCEED JUST DO NOT GIVE UP ..... YES IT IS NORMAL WHEN YOU HAVE ALL THE STRESS ON YOU.... SERIOUSLY THINK ABOUT ALL YOUR OPTIONS IS THERE SOMEONE WHO CAN TAKE YOUR GIRLS FOR A MONTH OR SO..... WORST CASE SENERIO.... I TOYED WITH IDEAS ALL THE TIME..... LISTEN IF YOU WANT TO TALK EMAIL ME AT HIS ADDRESS... IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO WAY YOUR OPTIONS OR GET SOMETHING OFF YOUR CHEST I AS A SINGLE MOTHER WILL BE MORE THAN HAPPY TO SPEAK WITH YOU ABOUT IT....

Answer 10

That is the sweetest thing I've heard on this site. I feel like cryin myself. You stay strong out there. You can do it. I hope God will help you get thru your problems.