Have you ever wanted to kill yourself but was just too terrified?

Question

I am tired.

Answer 1

Yes on the first part, no on the second. I was always more curious about... y'know... what would happen after.

But, as someone who went through all that... stuff, let me tell you - it does get better. And there's a lot of stuff you'd miss out on, if you were to... not... be there. anymore.

Answer 2

I did think of it once and am so glad I didn't. I lost my girl, failed all my college courses and had my parents tell me not to come home if I quit. I was all alone. Or so I thought. I grabbed some pills and prepared to do it when I found a Bible on my desk in my dorm room. I said "God, if you are real you better show me now cause I have nothing to live for". Then I did a really cheesy thing and opened the Book and dropped a finger on a page and read " Tho your mother and father forsake you I will always be with you" and suddenly I was not alone. I now have a beautiful wife, 4 great kids and a life I may never have known if I had given up. Don't give up yet, cause if you do it might be just a minute before you find your true destiny in this life. You were made specifically for that destiny and no one else can take your place.

Answer 3

yes. i've been there. i can tell you what the business end of a shotgun tastes like. i had the gun loaded, safety off and the barrel in my mouth. nothing tastes quite as bad as a shotgun.

i wasn't terrified--i just didn't have whatever it takes to go ahead and pull the trigger---or in this case "push" the trigger. never told anyone about it---my folks would've freaked and NEVER understood.

so here i am, sitting on the edge of my bed---shotgun in my mouth and i'm crying because i've messed this up as well. i can't even kill myself right. i didn't have the strength to push the trigger. what a loser.

and i was tired. i was so tired. i don't think people understand what you mean when you say that you're 'tired'. i understand where you're coming from--and its not a good place.

so eventually i quit crying, unload the shotgun, put it away and go brush my teeth to get that Godawful taste out of my mouth. i then decided that i had to at least try to make a go of it---i was no good at the killing myself routine.

i came back by myself. at the time i was proud of having been able to get away from the persistent thoughts of suicide. now when i look back on that time some twenty years ago, i'm amazed that i was able to do it without any help. i would NEVER suggest to anyone else that making that crawl back to sanity should be done by yourself. SEE A DOCTOR! SEEK COUNSELING! GET HELP!

hell, email ME if you need someone to talk to!

you can do this, don't do it alone---it's too hard to make that journey by yourself. i should've gotten help! i was too afraid of what others would think of me to seek help. is that lame, or what?

i know what you mean by being tired. i know the feeling. you need to seek help---you can get past the 'tired' feeling.

you can do it---please call a doctor, a minister or a family member if you have a supportive family.

hey, suicide is a permanent answer to a temporay problem. don't go that route, ok?

and i always had this nagging fear that if i DID pull the trigger the last thing i would see as my spirit floated away from my body would be the publisher's clearing house 10 million dollar sweepstates van pulling up to my house!!!!!!

Answer 4

Yes I have. I have seen the devastating effects that suicide has on family friends and even strangers. Help is out there. There are more positive coping mechanisms that you can learn. You are needed but may not be able to recognize it because you are being overwhelmed by your circumstances.Most problems are temporary. I do understand the hopeless feelings of surrender such as "I'm tired". Shop around. There are a lot of counselors, however, most are not well suited for their jobs. Some use pat answers and antiquated techniques that may be ineffective for today's lifestyles.In the meantime, get out of your environment even if just for a little while. Keep a journal and express all your feelings.Write down 3 great things about you. Write down 1 activity you will engage in to help you. Write down things you are grateful for. Take small steps. Get help. If medication is necessary, take it. If it causes unpleasant side effects have it changed.Exercise if you are able. Do a kind deed for another even a stranger. I believe in you. You are important to someone. You can get better. I suffer from depression and I'm still here. No one needs to suffer like you have. Get the help you deserve and yes you deserve help.

Answer 5

Oh yes! Most of the time, and for most of my life.

I'm terrified of the unknown- and while over the years I've developed some personal religious beliefs that make it a little less scary= I'm still not sure what to expect from death. Non-existence scares the heck out of me. In fact, that's rather the core of most of my suicidal thinking- that I'm non-existent most of the time now and just want someone to care that I'm alive. Then at other times I recognize that I've been more of a burden to the world, and less of a contributor and for that I want to die- or feel I should. But I just can't make myself do it.

And yes, I know. I'm just so very tired myself!!!!! Survival is such a battle, just getting through the days. And the hurt I feel, it's a physical pain that most people don't understand and never will.

Answer 6

It happened to me. I had a gun pointing to my head, and then thought that my family would probably see the mess I did, and cause them a lot of suffering.
There are times in life when you feel you have nowhere to go, but remember, from the bottom the only way is up. Try and think of all the lessons you are learning and that after all your problems dissapear, you will be a better person.
Just let those ugly thoughts go away, or bury them deep inside yourself, and focus on all the things around you. Yiu see, we don't even know you and we are woried for you.
Plus, think that maybe just right after you do it, your life can change for the good. And think that maybe there is hell, and you can fcuk your soul for all eternity.

Answer 7

i don’t know who you are I only know that for the moment, you’re asking it, and that is good. I can assume that you are here because you are troubled and considering ending your life. If it were possible, I would prefer to be there with you at this moment, to sit with you and talk, face to face and heart to heart. But since that is not possible, we will have to make do with this.

Start by considering this statement:

“Suicide is not chosen; it happens
when pain exceeds
resources for coping with pain.”

That’s all it’s about. You are not a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed, because you feel suicidal. It doesn’t even mean that you really want to die - it only means that you have more pain than you can cope with right now. If I start piling weights on your shoulders, you will eventually collapse if I add enough weights... no matter how much you want to remain standing. Willpower has nothing to do with it. Of course you would cheer yourself up, if you could.

Don’t accept it if someone tells you, “that’s not enough to be suicidal about.” There are many kinds of pain that may lead to suicide. Whether or not the pain is bearable may differ from person to person. What might be bearable to someone else, may not be bearable to you. The point at which the pain becomes unbearable depends on what kinds of coping resources you have. Individuals vary greatly in their capacity to withstand pain.

When pain exceeds pain-coping resources, suicidal feelings are the result. Suicide is neither wrong nor right; it is not a defect of character; it is morally neutral. It is simply an imbalance of pain versus coping resources.

Now I want to tell you five things to think about.


1 You need to hear that people do get through this -- even people who feel as badly as you are feeling now. Statistically, there is a very good chance that you are going to live. I hope that this information gives you some sense of hope.

2 Give yourself some distance. Say to yourself, “I will wait 24 hours before I do anything.” Or a week. Remember that feelings and actions are two different things - just because you feel like killing yourself, doesn’t mean that you have to actually do it right this minute. Put some distance between your suicidal feelings and suicidal action. Even if it’s just 24 hours. . You can do it for another 5 minutes by continuing to read . Keep going, and realize that while you still feel suicidal, you are not, at this moment, acting on it. That is very encouraging to me, and I hope it is to you.

3 People often turn to suicide because they are seeking relief from pain. Remember that relief is a feeling. And you have to be alive to feel it. You will not feel the relief you so desperately seek, if you are dead.

4 Some people will react badly to your suicidal feelings, either because they are frightened, or angry; they may actually increase your pain instead of helping you, despite their intentions, by saying or doing thoughtless things. You have to understand that their bad reactions are about their fears, not about you.


Suicidal feelings are, in and of themselves, traumatic. After they subside, you need to continue caring for yourself. Therapy is a really good idea.

think more about it.
live your life and stop thinking about killing your self
you must fight your pain
you have the power

Answer 8

Yor fear probably stems from "what might happen if i live?" Everyone feels the world would be better without them or what do i have to live for but if you feel that bad your current circumstances are probably the culprit...change your living situation if possible and one day mabey 1 day or 1 week or on month or one year or ten from now...youll be glad you were around to enjoy THAT particular day and from that day on you may think about suicide but it wont control you cuase youll now better days are ALWAYS ahead..especialy if your donwn right now...you can only go up and the skies the limit...go hang out with someone you love and trust and youll be fine!!
Good Luck and God bless!

Answer 9

I killed myself three times... I was never too terrified. The hardest part is comeing back to life!

Answer 10

Yes a couple of times but now that I am Mother i found a new reason to live. Just try and get some rest and please get some help. nothing is worth killing yourself.