I hate to wake up in the morning. I do think about killing myself, but I won't do anything about it. I look foward to the day I die. I talk to myself all the time. I have had an imaginary friend since I was a little girl. I'm 28 years old! What is wrong with me?
2006-07-08 03:44:32 · 15 answers · asked by shadow_dancer128 1 in Health ➔ Mental Health
it does sound to me like you're depressed. I went through depression- and I think telling you my story might help you figure out for yourself if you do have it, and if you do, maybe how to help cure it.
I was in 8th grade when I had it, and it started as just a general realization that i didn't like who I was or where my life was starting to go. I hated who I was, and felt powerless to change it. It felt like I was being forced to lead a life I didn't want, a life where I could never experience love or true happiness. As things went on I started comparing my life to those who were around me, and it just made things worse knowing my life was nothing in comparison to theirs. I could never be normal or accepted in their eyes, and I felt hideous in front of them. I hated existing, I felt trapped, alone, and that my life was utterly destroyed. I wanted to be normal and happy again, but it seemed to me like my cries for help were just being ignored- I wanted to die and just end it all. Suicide plauged my thoughts, but I was always too scared to do it- I nearly did one day, came so close to just pulling out my dad's .45 handgun and popping myself in the head... but some part of me said no.
That was rock-bottom for me. After that, i was still the same for a few months, and as time went on I got better. I started to realize that for all my sorrow, there were people out there who were suffering so much more than I was and that all of the reasons I was depressed were so stupid in comparison to their pains. I started to think better of myself, realized that I was too critical of my life and what others thought of me, and that if something was wrong with me that I had the power to change it. I was fine after that.
I'm sorry that took so long..Anyway, if you are depressed, there's a few things I want to stress:
1. There's no reason or anything so horrible in this world that its worth ending your life over- You said that when you think about killing yourself, you won't follow through, right? Do you know why that is? I'll tell you- You don't really want to die, you just want the sadness and pain to stop. You still want to live a happy life, but it seems like there's no way to. Guess what? YOU CAN!
2. Stop looking at the world through such dark eyes- That's really held me down for quite a long time, I was single minded, refused to think of anything except for what I saw to be the horrible truth. That's where I was wrong. Find something that you can use as leverage against your sadness ( like how I thought being sad was pointless) and that should help.
3. Find a way to get things out- I kept most of my depression to myself at first, and locking it inside only intensified the feeling I had. As I started to get better, I wrote my thoughts down, and putting it on paper really helped get it out.
4. Seek professional help- I was lucky enough to not need a psychiatrist, but seeing one will definitely help. They'll help you sort through a lot of complex feelings and guide you in the right direction.
All in all, i hope that i've been of some help to you, and that you get through this okay. It's a long road, and you'll have a lot of emotions to sort through, but just know that you can do it and that I'm rooting for you! :)
2006-07-08 04:53:29 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
I have a depression problem myself. I have had it all of my life. I talk to myself to make myself feel better, there is nothing wrong with that. The imaginary friend, I am not so sure about.
Obviously you don't want to die, you want help. You would not be telling people if you were going to kill yourself, that's just an opinion of course.
Have you ever considered therapy as a tool to get better? Or meds? Go to webmd.com to look up your symptoms. I hope you find your way, it's tough but it can be done. Hang in there.
2006-07-08 10:50:04 · answer #2 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
I suffer from severe depression and the only way we found out for sure that I had it was to go to a psychologist. NOT a psychiatrist. He asked me a heap of questions about the way I think and diagnosed me. I suggest you do this. He wil prescribe you ani-depressants. And it doesn't mean you are crazy. More people are depressed than you think. So you aren't alone. Alternatively see you doctor and he/she will give you advice on what you should do. Good luck.
2006-07-08 10:51:21 · answer #3 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
If you feel depressed it is real. Try to seek the help of a professional, like a psychologist, councillor, or a priest/rabbi (if you are religious). Having someone to discuss your problems with is often half the battle. A psychologist can help you examine what is making you depressed and explore ways for you to solve these problems.
Going to a psychologist does not mean they will just put you on anti-depressants. Most psychologists will discuss your options and try to help you without medication. The underlying fact is there is help out there, don't be afraid to ask for help.
2006-07-08 11:13:46 · answer #4 · answered by Borealis83 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
You need to be under a doctor's supervision right now. It sounds like you suffer from depression and schizophrenia. The only way you can get better is if you seek professional help. And yes depression is in the head. It's a chemical imbalance which effects the brain and can be treated with medication and therapy. Get help, Please!
2006-07-08 10:50:40 · answer #5 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
To feel depressed once in a while is part of the normal mood swings most of us experienced in our lives. But if your symptoms have been present for over two weeks and are starting to prevent you from functioning properly, there might be more to it than just a mood swing. It would then be advisable to see a psychiatrist to discuss about it.
2006-07-08 12:25:54 · answer #6 · answered by mcomeau10 1 · 0⤊ 0⤋
there is nothing wrong with seeking therapy - whether you are clinically depressed or not. If you need a referall for a therapist, your physician is a good resource and going into therapy does not mean you need medication. I've been in therapy a couple of times and I found it to be quite helpful.
www.depression.com
2006-07-08 10:46:55 · answer #7 · answered by Tamborine 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Well your symptoms do sound like depression. Not sure about your childhood if there was something that brought this on but you need counseling. Lifes to short to be unhappy.. Good luck...
2006-07-08 10:47:11 · answer #8 · answered by ? 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
It happens to all of us @ one time or another. I have felt the same way. Talk to friends & talk to your doctor. He can prescribe something that will help. Your way to young to go through life this way. Get help.
2006-07-08 10:53:01 · answer #9 · answered by angiehbug 1 · 0⤊ 0⤋
The best thing to do is to go to a physician and have you diagnosed, depression is dangerous if left untreated.Good luck..
2006-07-08 10:46:54 · answer #10 · answered by Male Sicilian Trauma Nurse 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋