How can I love myself before another?... because I dont?

Question

I have no reason to feel like this but my mentality has changed in the past 2 years after my cuzin was killed now I dont know about God

Answer 1

I am sorry that your cousin was killed; how did his or her death cause you to not love youself anymore? Are you in a state of depression - is that why? If I were you, I wouldn't concern myself so much about not loving myself, but I would try to find a solution to depression. Are you able to talk to a friend about this? If you haven't, you may find that most people want to help others, because it makes them feel good. I'll bet that there is someone who would feel honored to listen to you; when a person who needs help with something chooses another to request help from, it makes that person feel special! It also works the other way - maybe you could think for a while about the people in your life... is there someone who seems like they might need some advice or guidance? Helping people, or even just listening, can make you feel useful. I hope you can find joy again.

Matthew 22:36-40
36 "Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?"
37 Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.'
38 This is the first and greatest commandment.
39 And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'
40 All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments."

This quote from Rick Miesel's website explains the verses:
Jesus gives two great commandments: (1) Love God with all your heart, soul, and mind; (2) Love your neighbor as yourself -- there is no third command to love yourself. Jesus is saying, "as you already love yourself" -- "as" is used in the same way in Eph 5:25,28,33, indicating a state of current existence, not a command. Jesus knows we already love ourselves and thereby commands us to love others with this same commitment.

Ephesians 5:25-33 state:
25 Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her
26 to make her holy, cleansing her by the washing with water through the word,
27 and to present her to himself as a radiant church, without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless.
28 In this same way, husbands ought to love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself.
29 After all, no one ever hated his own body, but he feeds and cares for it, just as Christ does the church—
30 for we are members of his body.
31 "For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh."
32 This is a profound mystery—but I am talking about Christ and the church.
33 However, each one of you also must love his wife as he loves himself, and the wife must respect her husband.

Answer 2

Think about this...
God did not kill your cusine. Mankind has free will and so someone exersizing their free will, may have done something evil in regards to your cusine but that is not God's will. Free will causes us to have to make the decision to either accept God's will or reject it. When people reject God's will evil will occur in this world and evil will occur to good people. But I believe that those people will recieve their due in heaven, in both cases.

Answer 3

Spirituality will always be tested in life. Your faith in your god will prevail or you will loose your beliefs.

As for loving yourself, with a name like yours, maybe you might try some battery operated appliances. Want some help?