I'm so scared?

Question

I went to my GP today because I've been really depressed and I took an overdose last week because I felt so bad and I wanted to die, but it didn't work.

He says I have to go into hospital, he couldn't get me a bed today so he made me promise not to do anything bad tonight and I'm going in tomorrow morning. But I'm so scared now about what's going to happen, I don't want to go but he said if I didn't then he would section me so I have to go.

I can't sleep because I'm really scared and I've self harmed a lot today and I can't stop doing it. I'm by myself, I was supposed to be staying with a friend, my doctor didn't want my to be by myself overnight but I don't have any friends to stay with.

I just don't know how to get through tonight, I'm sitting here crying my eyes out and my legs are a mess from self harm, I just want to die.

Answer 1

Alicia honey, calm down. First thing, you need to put the blades somewhere that's hard to reach them. Throw them down the back of your fridge or something. If you've still got any tablets in the house I want you to flush them down the toilet. Clean up your cuts and put your pajamas on. Then I want you to make yourself a cup of hot chocolate, find a teddy bear and curl up on your bed with the teddy and the drink. Find a nice easy book to read, or put in a favourite (light hearted) film to watch. Try not to think about tomorrow. You're going to get through tonight, and tomorrow you're going to go along to the hospital and they're going to help you. I know this is a really difficult time for you right now, I've been there myself, and I got through it, so I know you can too. You're doing really well sweetheart, even if you don't realise it. Please take care. I'm thinking about you a lot. Be strong, you can get through this.

Answer 2

The hospital is not so bad. I have done the same thing. I took 12 pm pills, drove up a mountain, sat in my car at a rest stop cutting up my arms and waited for the meds to make me sleepy, then drove down the side as fast as I could. I made it to the bottom and drove home. My room mate rushed me to the hospital. It was too late to get my stomache pumped so I was put under evaluation. Come to find out, most over the counter pain killers will damage your organs but not kill you. I was admitted for 10 days on a locked down psyche ward. There were lots of others there just like me! There were lots of doctors and nurses. Some I liked, some I didn't. My pysch had me do alot of tests on the computer then explained why I was doing these things to myself. Cutting releases something inside of you. It makes the mental and emotional agonies ease off so you don't kill yourself. Your cutting isn't suicidal, the overdose was done because the cutting had stopped working. I was put on meds and my mom was handed the bottle, I was 30 at the time, 34 now. It has been 4 years since I have last sliced on myself. It is mostly mental. The hospital will help you, not hurt you. You will be safe there from yourself. Sometimes we need that to survive our minds. hang through the night, go get the help that has been offered to you, ask alot of questions and participate in the program. The scars will always be there, don't keep adding to them sweety. The only person who is hurting is your mind don't let it win. Find something to live for...anything: your pet, a neice, your parents, make something so important to you that you can't hurt them by leaving. My kids have saved me more than once. IM me, email me...I truly know what it is like to be you.

Answer 3

i there! Don't panic. There are people out here who care. I know how you must be feeling, as I've been there a few times myself. Give yourself a pat on the back, because you did a very brave thing by facing up to your problems/feelings/fears by going to your GP.You seem to be suffering from Depression. This can be brought on by many things we have experienced in the past. Sometimes it descends on you from out of no-where and it can be a great shock. Some people who have never experienced it can be very cruel and insensitive. At the moment you feel so bad that what I say may not help much. Hold-on in there. Know that someone, somewhere is sending out loving thoughts in your direction. You are not alone. I am here with you. I wish you a peaceful sleep for an hour or two. Put on some calm, nice music and imagine that you are being cradled gently in the arms of someone who loves you tenderly. Like a small child cradled in the loving arms of its mother who loves it dearly. God bless. I hope you get on well tomorrow and that you get the help/medication and loving-care that you so desperately need.

Answer 4

Well i may be typing for nothing, just about to leave my pc when i read this post. If its fake or a joke, well to each his own. But maybe my advise may save someone somewhere out there in the world.
If your are feeling like this, it will pass. just hang in there, and if you cant handle it , go to a friends house that you like. No bad moods last long or forever. In one hour or one day you may feel so happy and look back on what you did and think it wasnt that bad.
You may need to get professional help and medication thus going to a hospital which has mental care is smart. Why hurt yourself , scarring your body , then the outcome will be even more dark moods. I say this as I been there . I dont know your situation or dont know how your feeling but believe me we all feel like such at times in out life, and if something happened such as a death of a loved one or breakup with a boyfriend girlfriend husband wife, etc, you learn to deal and get over it in time. Time heals all.

But medication via professionals will help calm you down and give you some releif, but dont DONT drink alcohol or do drugs, it will make it worse in the end

Answer 5

It seems to me you should be talking to somebody who has the ability to help.
Not fools like us.
Anyway,.. about twenty five years ago I went through a very serious depression for an absolute and totally miserable couple of months.
I rarely left my room, hardly ate and I cried constantly.
Thank God, I was to afraid of dying to do myself any harm.
At the same time I was afraid of having to live.
Life was certainly not worth living.
I couldn't sleep.
I went to doctors.
I went to a shrink.
I drank, I took pills.
My brother sent me a newspaper article. "Read", was written in big letters with a majic marker.
Basically it said exercise has been found to overcome even the worst depressions.
I read it and tossed it aside thinking if I did any serious exercise I'd die.
It was than that I made a small breakthrough of a sort. .
I realized I was scared, really scared, maybe even terrified of dying.
I felt ashamed of myself. Of being such a coward.
Something I had always prided myself on not being, I had become.
I made a half assed decision to "just do it" and (taking everyone with me, just in case) I went out the next morning to begin slowly jogging and walking around the block.
Believe me, it was the hardest thing I ever did in my life.
My anxiety level stole every bit of my brain, my strength my legs were like rubber. I couldn't breath and I had such chestpains I'd have to stop.,
I'd wait for the death blow that exploded my heart.
About half way through all I could think of going back to the safety of my room.
But, no matter what, I realized I wanted to live. It took everything I had but, determined to finish, I continued.
It didn't end overnight, but I knew the worst of it was over.
It never happened again.
Hang in.
Try figuring what's got you by the short hairs so bad it has you in this state.
Listen, I know we're all different but I want to mention this. Maybe it means nothing but I've often thought it was part of my recovery. As soon as I felt a little better my sex interest and I went nuts. After that, so did my recovery.
Hey, hang in. Tomorrows another day.
You never know.

Answer 6

Hello. Try doing a few gentle and slow breathing exercises. Try to get some fresh air. Take time out from your computer. And above all else, when you do get admitted to hospital, try not to be freaked out by the people you will see in there. Use the experience to strengthen your own grasp on reality, and to strengthen that cord of consciousness which you may feel is fraying. You are not so far gone as you may think, because there is still a part of you that realises what you are doing and how you would wish things to change. And change they will for the better. It will not be easy, but who would want a life of just plain sailing? You have to have the stormy seas to truly appreciate the beautiful peaceful calmness that will eventually be yours to enjoy.

Love, light and hope,

Richi :-)

Answer 7

How old are you? I'm not going to tell you every thing is ok and things aren't all that bad. I've been on a very strange journey for the last year with my brother. After he was admitted to an inpatient facility medication was administered. When that didn't stabilize him he had several ECT treatments (shock therapy). It's not the old barbaric Hollywood version of shock therapy. The muscles are relaxed and the convulsions are confined to the brain. The sedation given before the procedure makes it seem like it never happened. He doesn't feel or remember anything. After monthly treatments he's on the mend and can look back on the days that were like yours knowing it doesn't have to end like that.

Answer 8

Honey, honey SSShhhhhhhh

Please don't cry, Things will be ok, you'll see.

Don't be alone. Depression is a state of mind and you can actually control this.

You know what I mean ( you hurt yourself because you are in control of the pain ) and you feel this is all you are in control of, so you do it to make you feel better about yourself.

But you are also in control of your mind, you can do this sweetheart, work with me on this one.

Think of a nice place, a thought of a memory or place you'd like to see one day. Close your eyes and take yourself there, a place where you feel happy and safe.

Think of this place, look around you and remember the happy feelings.

You are a strong person inside, you need to tell yourself over and over ( I'm ok, I'm ok , I'm ok )

You have only got today to get through, The help you need is there waiting for you babe, you've done it, you've cracked it, you've got over the hard part, it's the easy part now sugar.

Take it one minute at a time, if you feel yourself going down, close your eyes and think of your happy place.

If you need to chat at any time email me, I'll chat with you babe, as I'm sure lots of other people on this site will.

Remember, the hard part is over, you're on the easy road now.

X X X X Please let us know how you are !!!!!

Answer 9

You can call 1-800-273-8255. This is the National Suuicide Prevention Lifeline and there are people there 24 hours a day ready to talk to you about issues like these. You could also look in the front of your phonebook for other crisis hotlines. These hotlines are staffed with mental health professionals who are trained to help you. Please find someone to stay with you through the night as well. A supportive friend or family member would be really helpful for you. Good luck to you!

Answer 10

I have been there and got the t-shirt etc.
You are going through a demonic attack where you spirit is so low that you are having to cut yourself to remind yourself that you are on the planet earth plane.

I recommend licking/tasting your wounds as this will also bring you back to reality.

You need to get away from negative bubble you are in.

If you self inflict a wound that would cause you to bleed to death and die you would have to wait for years until your natural time was up.

The place you would wait is a nothingness that is so lonely darkness feels alone.

I love you my friend and what you are going through is real.

You have to get a grip though as your off spring will be GREAT FOR THIS WORLD AS WELL.

Don't be silenced by this demonic attack as this is what the other side wants.

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http://www.freedomdomain.com/linkpage.htm#Surviellance%20/%20Tracking

THIS IS YOUR WORLD AND YOU CAN LIVE IT NOW.