i've done something really stupid!!!!!!!?

Question

this year was really stressfull for me, and i prayed a lot, and made promisses to God (really childish ones) in order to help me, and i can say that for a while he did, and he really "talked" to me, and everything went well, but after a while, i somehow departed from Him, i've sinned more and stopped talking to him every day, and now i feel like i've abandoned HIm, and He abandoned me, and now i really need HIm, because i graduate, and i have final exams, and i'm freaking out, though i've been studying. i don't know how to get close to Him again. I thought confession will help, but i don't have the strenght... i never do. It's the most horrible place for me, to admit that i'm not the person i want to be. Going there is some kind of a sacrifice for me, and i thought that i make it up to God for my sins. I konw it's childish, and immature, but i really need someone to turn to, and He always gave me hope, when i needed, and was besides me.

Answer 1

The reason that this happened is because HE can read your heart and He knew that you were praising Him in exchange of something material. God loves it when someone loves Him without asking anything in return. You must be very lucky, because God personally has placed a test on you. He did so because He knows that you have good qualities, but He wants you to love Him without any material motivation. just like real love. I am sorry to tell you, but you have to make it up to Him. You have to figure it out by yourself, but I can give you some ideas. Write a very beautiful loving letter to him, put it on an envelope and attach it to a helium balloon and let it go. Then you can buy the most beautiful bouquet of flowers and take it to the church that you go, and most importantly you got to prove him that you would die for Him in the cross. (hey just kidding) we are far away from being like Jesus, but you can give three laps around His church every day, people will look at you kind of funny but don't mind remember that you are doing it for Him only, do at least 3 laps every day for 1 week at least, and don't brag to anyone about it. it is just between you and God. You can plot many other crazy things, but whatever you do, do it for Him without considering good or bad , success or failure, do it just because you love Him. He will be watching you!!

Answer 2

" and now i really need HIm, because i graduate, and i have final exams, and i'm freaking out, though i've been studying. "

This is the source of all your emotional hangups--you are studying like crazy to pass the finals so you can graduate. What does that have to do with God? Don't you think there are non-Christians at your college who are experiencing the same dread, fear, worry, self-doubt and anxiety that you are? That's part of the college experience, no God necessary!

" It's the most horrible place for me, to admit that i'm not the person i want to be. "

Nobody is ever quite the person that they want to be. We could all use change or improvement in our lives--the type and amount is entirely up to the individual. Life is what you make of it. You don't need confession, prayer, or God, you need to realize that life is full of ups and downs and we all just have to do our best to work our way through the "down" parts with whatever resources are available.

Answer 3

There is no God, so he cannot help you with anything. You should realise that, leave all the ideas of super-natural powers behind you and just be yourself.

There is no one to run our lives except ourselves. Every person is responsible for her/his own life. We make decisions and choices every day, and we live with the consequences. We are responsible, and we alone. There is no "God" coming to do our work, and no "Devil" to blame when things go wrong. There is always only us, the human race, made up of meanwhile more than six billion individuals who interact with each other.

Churches and religions are man-made and full of man-made rules, most of which make our lives not easier, but difficult and sometimes outright miserable. The purpose of organised religion is the control of people, their minds and behaviour. And churches also make a lot of money from their believers. All that is not needed.
Anyone can lead a good life, be strong and successful, as long as s/he wants it. There are energy forces in the Universe that can be supportive and helpful. They can be accessed by anyone if you know how. This has nothing to do with "God" but with your own ability to control yourself, your own energy and the emotions inside you. Once you bring yourself into balance with the world, you will have unlimited access to universal energy, and that will do much more than you might ever have expected from a "God".

Answer 4

He has not abandoned you. He is your Father and he loves you. You have merely withdrawn from his presence because you are doing things that you know he would not pleased about. You are like a child who has "done wrong" and then hides from the parent.

You mentioned that "going there is some kind of sacrifice". Perhaps you need to reevaluate your relationship with God. God DOES ask us to make sacrifices for him.... which are for our betterment.

You also mention that you are wanting to seek out God because you really need Him, because you are preparing to graduate and have final exams. God does not want us to call upon him just when we need him. It is like only calling your parents when you need money. He wants to talk with you and be beside you daily. During good times and bad. He wants you to tell him about your day, what your throughts are, what you are most happy about and what you are thankful for and what you need.

But like a parent, sometimes when you ask for something the answer is "no" or "not now". A good parent does not do all things for their child, but teaches their children how to stand on their own two feet. This is oftentimes why we have trials and tribulations.

Find yourself a quiet place. In your room, in a field, in your parked car and give God a call. Just like you had your cellphone in your hand. Start it with...."Hello, God... it has been a while since I called you, but I really need to talk".

He is there waiting... I promise.

Answer 5

Please bear in mind, God never abandons you.

Also bear in mind, God is not your vending machine to ask for favours whenever you feel like it. Don't expect all your prayers to be answered, at least not immediately. This is the main reason most people give up on God and quite likely turn atheist too - they are always expecting God to do something for them, or they think that a little prayer is the purchase price for whatever they want.

The most important thing to remember is that God will always do whatever is beneficial or you - you may not realise it (or like it) but this is a fact.

You cannot ever make up for anything God has done for you nor can you ever fully repent for Sins you have committed, however, God's grace makes all these things possible - simply trust him and believe in him. Try not to beat yourself up for some failings - pray to God for forgiveness and strength.

Remember God will be there always for you, trust in him, thank him for everything and everyday. If it is something you think you cannot be thankful for then ask God to help you understand the purpose. God may be trying to help you learn and stand on your own two feet - don't give up.

God Bless

Answer 6

You know, I go through this all the time. You get so distant that you feel bad coming back and asking for forgiveness. But that is what you must do. And you never forget it or feel forgiven, but you have been, and God has forgotten. So just start fresh. Be honest. He's listening. He never abandons you, even when it feels that way. You are definitely not alone in these feelings!

Answer 7

Follow these guidelines to put your life back together again..
Never make promises that you cannot keep.
Avoid evil companions.
Never believe that God has forsaken you.God will talk with you when no-one else will.
Believe that you are some-one great, some-one of value a life that should not be thrown away on good-for-nothing-people .
NO sin is too great that God will not forgive you. Remember John:3:16

Answer 8

You don't need a priest or another person to make a confession to God. First of all He already knows what you did but the important part in confessing it is facing up to it and repenting... that is, determining you won't do it anymore. And not doing it anymore is something you can't do in your own strength, so you must call on Jesus to help you. You already know what you need to do, it's right there in black and white in your question... talk to God, read your Bible and admit to Him that you aren't living up to what He wants for you right now. Ask His forgiveness again and allow Him to guide you in your life, give Him the control that belongs to Him anyway.

I have been in a similar place, knowing that I was living in my way and not God's, feeling millions of miles away from Him. My pastor's wife told me this:

She said, "I'm going to give you a picture of it-- if you feel like you've turned your back on God- TURN AROUND. He's right there behind you."

He hasn't left your side, He's just waiting for you to turn back and acknowledge Him again. Sounds like that's what you want to do so you are on the right track. Don't talk to us. Talk to Him.

God bless.

Answer 9

What you need to remember is that even if you have abandoned God, He never abandons you. He is just waiting for you to come home. Have a conversation with Him. You don't need to have a perfect prayer, just start talking. He will fill your heart, mind and spirit. Nothing you have done, nothing you have neglected is too much. He is there always. You may not feel him, but I bet if you are still, you will feel his touch, hear his words and feel his strength come back to you.

You will be in my thoughts during my conversation tonight.

Answer 10

God is supposed to be all-forgiving right? So if you believe in him that much that it's affecting your happiness then why are you worried? Everybody "sins", theres way too much temptation around us not to - nobody is perfect!
There is no need to confess to anybody, why bring another partie into your relationship?Why do people have to go through religious people to speak to God when we have prayer?
If God exists then he hasn't abandoned you - especially at such a tough time in your life, i think you are just worrying too much.

Answer 11

GOD's love is unconditional. Even if you have sinned and you confessed to him, you will be forgiven. Here I give you an example call 'THE DIFFERENCE'
I got up early one morning and rushed right into the day: I had so much to accomplish that I didn't have time to pray.
Problems just tumbled about me - and heavier came each task.
Why doesn't God help me? I wondered.
HE answered, "you didn't ask. "
I wanted to see joy and beauty, but the day toiled on, gray and bleak: I wondered why God didn't show me. HE said "But you didn't seek."
I tried to come into God's presence; I used all my keys at the lock.
God gently and lovingly chided, "My child, you didn't knock."
I woke up early this morning and paused before entering the day; I had so much to accomplish that I had to take time to pray.