Does anyone out there live their life having lost the ability to feel anything although they want to.?

Question

I am unable to feel anger, joy, anticipation, infact the only emotion I feel is very very very real fear . . . .of everything. I have started a successful business, I keep fit, I own my horses and run a business though I don't feel anything . . absolutley nothing except the fear . . very real fear that someone is waiting to break me. Does anyone else live like a robot though wants to learn how to live again?

Answer 1

First of all I know this sounds crazy but be grateful that your fear is so close to the surface -- most people have just as much fear as you do but keep it totally locked up in their subconscious minds. Your fear -- which could also be called your 'ego' -- is actually conscious in you and that is a BIG sign that you're closer than you think to being completely liberated from it. Once your fears are conscious then they can be consciously 'unraveled' and 'die' (egodeath) ---- so that only what is TRUE in you is left.

I was exactly like you. My fear was so intense that I had no peace whatsoever...and being a new mother this was just horrible for me. On top of my debilitating fear was a secondary one: that my fear was causing my daughter damage. I have been blessed beyond belief; I've recieved the healing power of divine grace and have been completely liberated from all my unnecessary psychological fears. All the Joy and Peace that I've always longed for is my constant default position now. I am so truly free!! And you can be too -- the fact that you are consciously aware of your fears is such a strong start.

All that is needed from you is your conscious intention and complete willingness to let go and surrender. Fear dissolves in the Light of awareness. It will literally unravel from your psyche and leave you completely centered in Peace and Love and Joy. This is what Enlightenment is. The human psyche detached from psychological fear and reattached to SOURCE is ENLIGHTENMENT.

My unraveling has led me to Christ within, but with a whole new understanding of what it really means to embody Christ. It means that we are one with our Source instead of being one with our fears (ego). You unhook from one, and are replugged into Truth within your heart.

Go within your heart and ask Divine, by whatever name you prefer, to shine Light onto your fears -- all the way into the deepest corners of your being. If you ask -- trust me your request will be answered. Peace is our true state of being and all the angels of the kosmos will be singing in joy for your liberation.

The fear ego is completely worthless, and you are right on the verge of making this discovery for yourself. Your suffering will only continue to grow until you release all fears to Source and BE the Light that you were born to be.

Fear only has power over you when you agree to it by having faith in it -- instead of having faith in the LOVE that is your true nature.

Feel free to email me if you'd like: [e-mail]

Blessings of Light your Way!! :-) (my sisters name is Paula btw :-))

Answer 2

Don't know what to say about this. It is sad, on the verge of mental illness.

Usually there is some type of anticipation of being a successful business person, and satisfaction from exercising.

It could be that it all comes to easy for you, so there is no real joy in accomplishments. I never experienced that, for me everything is a struggle. I have fought getting where I am at now, and there is a lot of fight ahead of me in the future.

Horses...gets you back to nature. Feel the freedom of the horse when you ride them. You are just so disconnected to anything or anybody, if you are...then they are unable to influence your feelings.

I have only one idea. It is not prayer. It is giving back. Become part of somebody else...somebody that needs you as much as you need them.

Become a Big Brother or Big Sister. Become an influence in a young child's life that is aching to have you be a part of them, and I can tell...you need the same thing from them.

That's all....what do you expect?

There is no magic button to press. Take your focus off of you, and help a child.

Answer 3

That's sad that you don't feel anything. I think I can understand. It's not that I don't feel anything but I have known days when all I could feel was fear because of not knowing what sort of problem was coming next and that sort of thing.

I don't know what your belief system may be, but it really does help when a person gets down on their knees and just opens up to God. You might try this and see if this will help you get in touch with other feelings other than fear.

I think fear can be helpful at times. I mean, it may keep us from doing things that might get us hurt and so forth, but when it becomes the only emotion we feel that just can't be good.

I don't mean to imply anything here, but if you are on some sort of mood stabilizer or elevator such as Prozac this may actually be causing your problem. I had a friend who when she was put on Prozac actually felt nothing at all. She no longer felt depressed, but she didn't feel any joy, anger or anything else either. She was just...there.

If that's the situation then you may need to try a different drug. But don't stop any medication without discussing it with a doctor first. Stopping Prozac and other drugs of that nature can cause a person's moods to swing out of control and you might suddenly feel emotions that are too overwhelming to deal with.

Anyway, like I said, I don't know if that's the case with you, it may be something else. Try prayer. Try a doctor. You can get through this.

I wish you all the best.

Answer 4

There must be one thing you care about. Focus there and take baby steps, The emotion turnoff didnt start overnight, It may be that you have to much on your plate, rinse it and start over.
It sucks not to feel. Been there and I still cross that one once in a while. Learn to love yourself first.
Maybe a past life reading might help. I had a fear of large knives and a strip of light about door wide but narrow. I saw a phychic,she touched the hernia I was born with, said I was killed here by a large knife, oh my God Im not afraid of knives anymore.
She also said the light strip if from another life. I was helping Jews escape in Germany. I was put in a dungeon and the only light I would get is the crack on the top of the door. I never dream that anymore, it use to keep awake as a child, I knew I would dream it and remember it.

Answer 5

I don't think it's all that unusual to be that way at times. My depression has taken that kind of form in the past. But more often I'm the one that feels everything- I'm extremely emotional and get so excited or scared or anxious over the slightest little thing.

It sounds like you need to shake things up a bit- take a chance, or make a change of some kind. That's what I would do. Something very different from what you normally would do.

Answer 6

Please talk to a doctor that will work with you to discover why you are feeling this way. You know that this is not your usual state or you would not be missing the emotional diversity. So I would recommend starting the journey to finding out what is going on by ruling out physical/chemical imbalance factors by working with a doctor that you trust. If that person does not help you solve the problem, then they are the wrong person, and you need to continue your hunt for a diagnoses. We are here for too short a time to be numb. Use the skills that you used in developing your business (focus, problem solving, hard work, etc.) to turn yourself into a project. Best wishes from the heart.

Answer 7

Yes in a way i do. the only good thing it does for me is the fear and anxiety i feel sucks,but i am a very productive person

Answer 8

i'm basically emotionless to every knew person i meet am attached to people i lost and am fearful of dying alone and being forgoten in my opinion thats the only way you truly die is when you are forgotten

Answer 9

get help, must suck to feel that way