I was honest with my therapists and they r all freaking out....?

Question

I was honest with my therapists and they are all freaking out. I told them since i was raped I am three people inside. One who has been hurting, another who is trying to help her and then me as I watch it all and pray. I hope I am doing the right thing. My mother is so upset. I am in a place where I can sign myself out if I want....at least I think I can. Maybe not after what I said today but I started making deals with my counselors today. I said i would be honest if I could have computer time and phone time. Everytime I call out people say I better be quiet or Ill be here 4ever. I could lie and say Im better and this all would end in a day or two. All day today I felt so strange and sometimes good. Please pray for me that I make the right decisions.

Answer 1

I'm sorry I'm answering this so late (3 days after posting). I've been checking in every once in a while to see if you were here. I'm glad you have computer time.

I hope that you are still in therapy and that you are telling them everything. Don't worry about your Mom right now. The best thing you can do for her is to do all you can to heal.

Don't be surprised if your moods fluctuate. That's normal. Your feelings will cycle, and that's a good thing. It's part of the process.

Don't say you're better till it's true. What lies ahead may be difficult, but you're worth it.

You remain in my prayers.

Answer 2

Why are you there? Are they worried that you might try to kill yourself? Can't you see a counselor without being at a hospital (or whatever place that is)? I am sorry that you are in so much pain. I think that the feeling of "splitting" into two or more people after being raped or abused, is pretty common. It's the mind's way of dealing with the pain and trying to make sense of it. I hope you reach a point where you can find some inner strength to feel whole again. You are a good person, the rape was not your fault, so don't blame yourself or think that there's something wrong with you. Good luck, honey! :o) {{{{{HUGS}}}}}

Answer 3

You have a lot going on, but still part of your mind is still functioning. The stress of the rape and then add multiple personalities is really rough. I presume that you are very stressed and depressed. I know that it really sounds strange, but consider the possibility that you might be an example of a modern-day devil possession. Believe it or not, it still happens. Then again, that might be the easiest way for you to explain how you are feeling.

Either way, the answer is prayer and Jesus.

Since you seem to have limited freedoms, do not take any psychotropic meds while you are there, they will only mess up your mind even worse.

Whenever you can, pray. Read the Bible if one is available to you. I will be praying for you too.

Answer 4

That is so sad, what a horrible ordeal that you went through. I think that you are on the right track though, by being honest and telling them how you feel. Did they take what you said in the wrong way? Do they think that you have a multiple personality, because it just sounds to me like you feel like there are three people inside of you, not that they all have three separate names, personalities, etc, but that "they" represent the whole you, and how you feel, I understand that, I feel like I have different parts of my personality that are complete opposites or even helpers to the other parts of me, it's ok to be strong and then also in need of help. Do yourself a favor though, don't tell lies just to get out, you won't be any better off, stay and face it and get better, we will sure pray for you especially to give you strength the strength to get through this and the strength to face everything. Best of luck to you.

Answer 5

The problem with psychologists is that 99% of them don't have a truly psychological thought process. They are only book learned. That's especially true with clinical psychologists. Because of this, they take what you say too literally. Their only reference of understanding comes from what they learned in a book. I understand fully, what you meant by what you told them. These are the three elements of your pain, the pain itself, The logical side of your mind that's trying to understand and overcome the pain, and your spiritual side who understands the other two elements and is praying for help for success. You've probably got your book learned dip brains thinking you're Sybil. The best thing to do is, be completely honest but choose your words carefully.

Answer 6

Don't lie just to get out. Life is much harder on the outside world without people there to help you.
Do you really feel like three different people? That set them off thinking you have multiple personalities. Or is it more that at times you feel hurt, at times you feel strong (helping) and at times sort of lost (praying.) Maybe it was just in the wording.
Good luck and get better soon.

Answer 7

When you talk about being three people, it sounds like "multiple personality disorder", now called (I think) "dissociative identity disorder". It's when a person transforms into different people, meaning they take on a different persona. Therapists and parents freak out about things like that because it's a very serious psychological condition.

If you don't understand what I'm talking about, I recommend you see a movie called, "Sybil", starring Sally Field. The title character has over a dozen "personalities".

Answer 8

I'm glad to hear that you've decided to seek help. I've seen some of your previous postings and I am sending you love, light and blessings as you read this.

Continue to be honest with them and work through your issues. There's no right or wrong way to handle this trauma within. If this is your truth then this is the truth that you and your doctors will need to deal with.

God bless you.

Answer 9

I think you should be honest as it will allow you to get the help that you need. Also you shouldnt lie and say that you are better because then you will never actually be better and in the long run it will do more harm then good.

Answer 10

No, your doing the right thing by being honest. Your honesty will be beneficial to you and everyone else in the long run. If you lied, your therapists won't get to the underlying issues causing your emotional problems.