I am an ex-junkie.On Christmas Eve in 1986 My best friend and myself were getting high. on our last draw of heroin, my friend closed her eyes and went into a seizure and died in my arms. Yah, Merry Christmas to me. I could not get over it, I was 19 years young at that time. I went into institutions for the next 2 years. Psyche wards medications, psychiatrists, nothing could comfort me and those last memories of BB dying in my arms. I had severe panic attacks, I became agoraphobic, I could not leave my room. I tried several times to take my own life. I tried everything but a dose of God. I guess that is because I blamed him for everything. Then this little girl came to visit me from a local christian group. she was so incredible. she took my hand and prayed with me. She was sincere and innocent and she wasn't afraid of me. That night after she left I prayed to God and appologized and asked him to help me. I told him that I was ready to accept Christ as my savior. I had a feeling come over me like I never had before. It took my breathe away. I prayed and was saying things that I never even knew I could say. Things that i thought I knew nothing about. a calm peacefullness came over me , It was beautiful. God came into my life that night, and even now as I am writing this I weep. Many years have passed since then,I am a productive citizen. I have never touched a drug since then, and I have a beautiful family and I am happy. I teach ( help) people with drug addictions, and I love every day God has blessed me with. I poured my heart and soul out to God that night and he never let me fall. Thank- you for letting me share this story. I hope it can give someone else the faith they need to continue on.
2006-06-19 03:05:14
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answered by Elizabeth P 3
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My Mother Died When I Was Five. Before She Died She Wanted To Take Me To A Church To Get A Minister To Explain To Me Life & Death So She Took Me And My Grandmother To The City For Lunch And To Go To A Church. Wile At The Church They Watched As The Minister Started To Explain God & Jesus
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I Started Rebuking To Him That Jesus Had Came To Me In My Bedroom In A big Bright Light And Told Me Every Thing Was Going To Be Ok And I Was Not To Worry. By This Time The Minister Had Gotten All Sheepish And Basically Didn't Want To Speak To Me Anymore Leaving Our Presence. Note This Is All Baste On My Grandmothers Word I Recall Seeing The Light And De Jar Vu Swept Over Me As She Explained This In My Later Life.
2006-06-19 09:28:23
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answered by ? 2
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God lifted me up when I had finally got down on my knees and realized I needed Him in my life so much. I had so many problems going on and they somehow always seemed to get worse. Then I started going to church with my mother and I could feel his spirit moving me in there everytime. It's almost like tears came to my eyes and I would cry just feeling his spirit moving me in there. So I finally realized how much I did just need Him. I was saved and baptized last week and I have never felt better. Things are starting to go better for me and it seems as if even the little things never bother me anymore. I have a tremendous amount of love in my heart now and I just want to reach out and help anyone and show them how strong God's love can be and how it changed my life so much. God bless. :)
2006-06-19 09:37:56
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answered by Pamela I 2
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I have never felt these things you describe... I've had my mother taken from me and life made difficult even with myself making the right choices and being honest.I've seen a lot of undesirables get everything they want because they are con artists.I can't spend time with my family because I have to work when my husband has finished work and on weekends to make ends meet, we don't own our own home, don't do drugs, don't have debt and give our children first preference in life but this isn't good enough we still have to struggle so what "love" are you talking about?
2006-06-19 09:32:48
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answered by Abs 2
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Before my best friend died, and an owl came to me and told me my life was about to change.
She wasn't a Christain, and my girlfriend at the time told me she was going to go to Hell, and people from my mom's church, and Christian friends all told me she was going to Hell.
I decided that if God were to condemn such a beautiful soul to eternal damnation, then I'd make damn sure I'd go to the same place she is going, because to go to a place full of the same people who so easily judged and condemed her would be hell for me. I figure that my Hell is the Christian Heaven--what other place is full of Christians? This would be a fate far worse than any flames, any "separation from God", anything else that could be thought of by Satan.
Satan is far more loving, inmy opinion; he doesn't turn away anyone.
2006-06-19 09:42:16
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answered by Songbird 5
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So, you live in "suffering" until the day of his return. The day when every man, woman and child will die on this planet.
The more I read about your disgusting death-cult the happier I am that I am not a christian. And happier still that I don't have to deal with any of you freaks on a daily basis...
2006-06-19 09:32:41
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answered by Anonymous
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Well, I haven't exactly felt the Lord picking me up and comforting me. But when I just surrender myself to him and believe that he will look after things, a solution always comes up. Comfort just appears out of nowhere. Also I have felt that God gives us only as much as we can handle, even though we don't always see it that way. The problems he gives us are always for our benefit and he will never give us anything that will break us.
2006-06-19 09:28:35
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answered by Deepthi 2
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wow mine goes back a while in 96 I lost lost all 3 of my remaining grand parents within 3 months of each other on top of that my husband lost his job.
we were living in Texas 3000 miles away from family and friends.
We learned how to stand in faith, pray without ceasing and to trust God above all else.
One night we were totally out of food and I annointed my cabinets prayed over them woke up the next morning and had an over abundance of food.
now I know a lot of people won't beleive this but God literally filled our fridge freezer and cabinets.
2006-06-19 13:53:57
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answered by sshhorty2 4
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Well there has been many times God has lifted me and comforted me, expecially here just a few days ago, I am happly divorced now for almost 3 yrs but been apart for 4 yrs, we have a 16 yr old, he brainwashed her turned her against me cause of my bipolar and she will not come and see me she worships her dad, well june 9th my ex husband in front of his buisness got mad at a former employee shot him in the head and killed him,over a stupid parking spot I was angry&furious bitter hurt heartbroken, my 16 yr old went to her dad:s mom she would not come here, I got so heavy with all mixed emotions felt as if the whole world was crashing down on me, I layed everything down at the feet of Jesus, he lifted the weight of the world off my shoulders, also I have my christian friends at church & bible study & my family.
I have got on fire for God the more I spend time with God and in his word and being filled with the Holy Spirit, more time in prayer I have completely wholeheartly feel in love with my Jesus,
I hope this is a blessing, I am believing In God Jennifer will come back to me, I am not giving satan place in my mind, I know God will answer my prayer I ahve accepted that it is in God"s time.
I have surrended unto God"s will for my life, may God continue to bless you, also I know about my ex temper because he was very abusive to me for 12 yrs finally I got out now I am a new person God has set me free from all pain.love your sister in Christ. suzy
2006-06-19 12:25:00
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answered by Anonymous
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I have had times when I've called out to God coz I'm suffereing and I didn't feel like he was comforting me, I just felt alone. Once I got wierd over whelming feeling that everything was gonna be ok bit it could have just come from my self coz I still don't feel ok.
2006-06-19 09:27:07
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answered by xoɟ ʍous 6
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