i think im depressed and i cut myself.... I NEED HELP?

Question

ok well my parents broke up and today i relized all the memories my mom and dad had and then i got really quiet and i thought to my self(cuz we were with my dads girl friend) that she shouldent be here.. i should be with my mom and dad. he should not even know her.... how is this happinning to me... and then later i cut myself.... i've been doing that for about 2 years and my parents still dont know.... ive thought about suiside and i tryed but i couldent get the blade to cut...... i wanna stop but i really dont know how... i have so many cuts and i just wanna die... i hate it and i really think im depressed... how do i know and how do i stop the cutting.... plz help me befor i get to far.... thanks

Answer 1

Suicide is not worth it. I've been there before myself. Check out the links below for some crisis hotline numbers which I hope can help you. E-mail me at [e-mail] if you'd like to talk.

Answer 2

Look, perhaps you should see a counselor at school or something. Or talk to a friend openly about what's going on at home. Just keep in mind, it may feel like things suck as hell, if you died then you wouldn't have to deal with everything, but also keep in mind that dying won't solve the problem and will be a problem for others, especially people who love and care about you. Cutting yourself will only leave scars, and unfortunately those scars don't go away, even if you get passed your situation and move on, those scars you physically left on yourself will remind of this past situation and it will haunt you for a long time. Not to mention the scars you will leave now, even if you won't think about them in the future, someone is bound to ask you how you got hurt, and do u really wanna tell people its because you cut yourself cuz you were upset?

Answer 3

Yes it does sound as though yo are "addicted" to cutting yourself. Addictions tend to take first priority in an addicts life. It is interfering with your daily life and friendships. You really need to find out what it is that is causing you so much internal, emotional pain that the physical pain of cutting relieves your symptoms temporarily. Cutting, when it becomes a regular behavior, releases endorphins into your body which make you feel good for a while, similar to an illegal drug. The feeling does not last long, and afterward you will be excited for your next (high). You need to ge help, as much as you are resistant to tell an adult, it is the right thing to do. You could end up getting a bad infection, accidentally cut too deeply and need medical attention, and you are marking up your own body. Those marks do not go away, they turn into hideous looking scars. Someone is going to find out, you cannot hide those marks forever. Get help now! The longer you toy with this addiction, the more it becomes ingrained into your life. There is great respect for those that ask for help when they really need it. And you really need it. You should be talking with a therapist that can help you to learn and utilize better coping skills. Also to gain insight as to why you are being self destructive and cutting. Good Luck to you.

Answer 4

You are depressed and you are hurting yourself, you know it, and you're not happy about it. You might think no one cares but I am sure quite a few people care about you and would be devastated if you continued hurting yourself or worse. Talk to one of your parents, the one you think is least judgmental. Gather up the courage like you did here, and speak to them. If they are really too much into their own world, speak to a favorite teacher, a counseor at school, a relative, your doctor. Pretend you have to go to the doctor for some reason. If you want confidentiality, ask for it. People WILL help you. You will get better. Come on, reach out today to a real live person.

Answer 5

I think that your description shows much deppresion to me. BUt remember, you can talk to your dad about the past and how having such a present and future hurts you physically and mentally and to the heart. If he doesn't listen, ask God for help and become new. He will guide you all the way. Do not suicide. Think of it...you have a whole life in front of you and you hsould conrol it and not let other people ruin this. Get cleaned up and tell someone or God of your troubles and of cutting yourself. Just for the record, while you are doing all this, get rid of most knives that are not for kitchen use. That will decrease the chance of death. HAVE DETERMINATION TO LIVE. DO NOT WORRY. I don't know you but I will pray for you and be with you.

Answer 6

Hello my name is Darren.I feel your pain my parents divorced about 21 years ago.You are supposed to be very upset I mean come on that is your family.Listen I could write volumes about the pain I have experianced let me tell you however,let me say that I am now a dad and I have a very special wife yes, life can go on.Please head this 34 year olds advice in this world of it is only real if you can see it lie,there is an answer and his name is JESUS CHRIST if you want peace,love,forgivness and the true meaning of life please don't disregard what I have said.Just reach out and call upon the LORD JESUS CHRIST and ask Him to help you.Faith in CHRIST is the ONLY answer if you do not mind I would like to pray for you.P.S I am not a judgemental freak who is trying to box you in with all types of rules and regulations.I to have been through a very simular experiance and all I can say is JESUS,JESUS,JESUS.He literally saved me no joke.God bless you and your family.Darren

Answer 7

I went through the same thing kinda when my dad got remarried (my parents got divorced when i was 2) to a woman who is really mean to me it broke I and my dad's friendship (he was my best friend) I really didn't know my mom she was always busy with work never really home!! so i started cutting (in the 2ND grade is when i started)then i met my best friend Sarah and she moved this year for good (Sarah was my best friend and my g/f!!) when she moved i made a promise to quit cutting!!! If you have a friend that truly cares talk to them about what's going on and i promise they'll listen!!! Don't kill yourself it's not going to do any good think about the ppl who care the most!! Killing yourself would be taking the selfish way out!!

Answer 8

You can call a suicide hotline (1-800-SUICIDE) and ask them. They are really helpful & it's toll-free and 100% confidential. You don't even have to give them your name.

I battled depression & cutting for about a year. I have a few scars from it & people will ask where my scars came from. I don't know what to tell them... but with a few people, I've told them the truth. Sometimes, I still cut, but I haven't since March.

Also, if you just talk to someone about how you feel, it helps. Even in the chatrooms or in the Yahoo Groups. Just talking... it really helps!

Answer 9

Hi...yes you are deppresed and you really need help. When I was 13 I tried to kill myself after something really bad happend to me. It was so terrible and painful that I thought if I kill myself...the pain will go away. But despite of what I did...I still did not die.

All my life, I live the terrible nightmare of the incident that happened to me - over and over again...every night.

When I was 28 I got so tired of life, I tried to kill myself again, But I did not die again.

All those times, I never seek help. I thought I could handle it myself. Two years ago, I did it again...This time I died for few minutes and luckily I was saved from death.

All my life I have thought of suicide and told my friends and family but nobody took me seriously. I am telling you...this is serious.

Deppression can kill. It is an illness...and it can be cured. But the only way to do it is first to accept that you are ill and have the willingness to get better and seek for professional help.

As for cutting yourself...it is a sign that you are really upset about something. It will only stop if you stop getting upset.

As for your parents, you have to understand that sometimes, no matter how much two adults try to be together...it just does not work. And that's not anybody else's fault. It just happens. Sometimes as much as it hurts so much, we just have to accept it...just the way it is because we love them. Instead of looking at it in a bad way....you should think of it as a good thing. Sometimes, it's better for two people to separate ways while they still love and respect each other...I supposed to end up hating or killing each other.

Everyone in this world deserve to be happy. Including you. Your parents are probably miserable for a long time that's why they chose to separate because they want to seek happiness that they deserve. It doesn't mean that they don't love you or they stopped loving each other. It just doesn't work for them anymore. They have to be at peace with themselves so that they can go on with life...and be there for you.

As for your Dad's new girlfriend, give her a chance...you might find out later that she is not that bad after all. Keep in mind that she is not there to replace your Mom. She is there because of your Dad...and you can join in..there's nothing wrong with that. It will sure make your Dad happy. Do not create unecessary pain for yourself. Let go honey...and you will see that the pain will slowly go away.

Please believe me when I say..things will get better for you if you seek professional help and if you let go of the negative feelings deep within you. I know...trust me, I have been there. I am much happier now than ever. You need to get help. Tell your Mommy or Daddy..they will understand....talk to them about it.

Answer 10

I believe you should get theropy, cutting is a way to deal with stress, but is not a healthy way, there are also drugs which can help you, where it suppresses the high from cutting yourself. But most likely you need some theropy and maybe a group theropy with both of your partents. I hope this helps, most of the infromation i heard this from was from love line. Also having someone to talk to that you trust, but make sure they are willing to help you get help.