Has anyone seriously contemplated suicide?

Question

I have been going through crying bouts and feeling down. I don't feel valuable and my life seems to be worthless. I somtimes wonder how i should do it and when or why! Other times things don't seem so bad. I hate myself!!!!!!!!!!

My life has sucked for years i don't think anyone would like me and i am at times also on the border of seriously hurting others who piss me off! I think that world would be better without me!!!!!!!!!

Have gotten help for over two years and tried counseling it didnt help!!!!!!! THey r fricking stupid!!

spngebob great answer...just wish there were kind people out there who i could hug and they would give me some affection... I want to be loved!!

Answer 1

Don't do it..............

You are not a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed, because you feel suicidal. It doesn’t even mean that you really want to die - it only means that you have more pain than you can cope with right now.

You can survive suicidal feelings if you do either of two things: (1) find a way to reduce your pain, or (2) find a way to increase your coping resources. Both are possible.

You need to hear that people do get through this

People often turn to suicide because they are seeking relief from pain. Remember that relief is a feeling. And you have to be alive to feel it. You will not feel the relief you so desperately seek, if you are dead.

Please go talk to someone : 1-800-SUICIDE

Answer 2

I had a terrible childhood, and because of that I had almost complete memory loss from my childhood. The first time any memories came back was in 7th grade, and the things I learned happened was so overwhelming that I didnt know what to do. I got depressed and all the fun things related to it, and one day I just had enough. I remember, I needed someone so I wanted my friend to stay over just to talk to and distract me from what I was feeling, but my dad wouldnt let her. It was so to speak, the straw that broke the camel's back. That night, I realized that I didnt have anyone there for me, and those who I did didnt matter because they couldnt be there for me when I needed them. Also, I never told my parents about the memories because they are against any mental problems, and would laugh at me and think I was cute.

So, I tried to kill myself. I took half a bottle of asprin (I dont know if thats spelled right) and fell asleep. I woke up what seemed like hours and hours later (even though it could only have been less than half an hour otherwise I wouldnt be here) and realized that I was alive. I thought it was huge, so I did everything that I could do to throw up, and I got it all out of my system.

From then, I have had many mental as well as physical problems from it. My blood was as thin as water for years, and I am still sick today. I learned that life does in fact go on, and no matter what, your situation will get better eventually.

Remember, no matter what happens, unless you have a terminal disease, whatever happens will end. Most attempts do not work, and the physical and emotional problems that you will have after it will last for years, and may never go away. Just get through it the best you can, see a therapist, talk to a social worker, whatever you need to do. Just dont try it, because it might not work and you will regret it for the rest of your life.

Answer 3

I want to address 'wandering canuck' first, Never tell a depressed person to "Cheer Up!", 'life is full of ups and downs'. That's just shows your ignorance on the illness. A depressed person cannot simply cheer up. If they could, don't you think they would?

Darkmatter, yes. Have tried. Have it all planned out again now that I am older. I may not be the best person for advice, but the only thing stopping me I think is my family, and how it would make them feel. Take how you are feeling right now and put that on your family and friends, I am pretty sure that would be close to how they would feel also. I've been dealing with this for about 10 - 12 yrs. now. Finally last year I managed to get in to see a psychologist.
I don't know how old you are or how long you've had this, but I believe I will have to deal with this the rest of my life (not sure how it will end). Let's hope you don't have to.
All I can say is to see more doctors. Keep seeing doctors until they get it right. Your family doctor should be able to give you the anti-depressants you need, and keep working with you if the first choices don't work. They should also refer you to a psychiatrist. If you don't like that one, ask for another until they get it right.
You have to tell them what is or isn't working.
They don't know unless you tell them.
Stand up and speak out for yourself, because you don't want this illness to last for years like mine has.
Also,
You'll hate this.....
This is the perfect time of year for it. Exercise. It actually makes the chemical 'Serotonin' which is what your brain needs to elevate your mood.
OK, enuf.
Just remember.
Your not alone in your feelings.
I just went through a year of hell. I'm still trying to recover. And now I am on 8 pills specifically for my depression!
So there are a lot of us who know EXACTLY what you are going through.
So Stay Strong. You're not alone!

Answer 4

Yes, all of the time. If doctor's haven't helped, try a new one. I know it is so very hard to try to talk to new doctors and get to know a new one but the right one may help. Also, unless your family doctor knows a lot about psychiatric medications, use a psychiatrist for medications. They have experience in mixing and matching medications that regular doctors may not even consider. It can take a long time to find the right medications and/or doctors that can help but if you don't give up, relief can be found. It helps me to tell myself that I don't really want to kill myself, I just want to stop hurting.

These are the things that have helped me:

Exercise (I know, yuck!) Would your turn down free medicine? If you go for a walk everyday for 20-30 minutes, it will help. Go with someone and the talk will also help. Sometimes I pray the whole time.

As I stated before good medical support.

Web sites such as NAMI and the Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance (DBSA) have support groups and websites that give a wealth of information.

What you are going through is normal for depression, you just need help and support. If you had cancer would you ignore the symptoms and just suffer? There is help and hope out there. If you can't help yourself please, please, tell someone so that they can help you. If you can't control your impulses to kill yourself, go to your local emergency room and they will find help for you. The key is hope and keeping it while you find an answer.

Answer 5

I too thought seriously about it.
I tried it twice in half hearted ways with Qualudes when they were the thing everyone took to get high. But I threw up before I died.
I am now 53 and would have missed out on a lot of fun if I had succeeded. I think of my friend who died at 19 and think of all the songs, the sex, the food, the travel, the fun that she missed all these years and am very thankful for my life. It was incredibly painful at times, times when I would have been better off dead even, and yet, I love the ocean, the flowers, the birds, and nature so much I would have missed out on things I love so it was worth it over all to stay alive.

Answer 6

I have several times. But life ALWAYS gets better. Suicide runs in my dads family. My grandpa, my aunt and my dad all committed suicide. My dad, just 2 years ago. The void they leave behind is unexplainable. Please don't even think about it anymore. Find something positive about yourself-and don't tell me there isn't anything because there is,and focus on that. Find a hobby or pick up an old one. Keep your mind on the positive things in life. You are valuable and you are NOT worhless. Everyone has problems and beleive me there are alot of people out there with a lot worse problems than either you or I have. Go to counseling, find a support group-do something but don't think about killing yourself. Have you talked to your dr? maybe you need antidepressents. After 20 years of depression and many aintdepressents, I finally found one that works for me..Zoloft. My dr. finally figured out that I have a chemical imbalance that was causing my depression and zoloft puts those chemicals back. just like a diabetic needs insulin, I need the chemicals in zoloft. Talk to your dr. And quit hating yourself. Put that energy into something worthwhile, something positive.

Answer 7

i know were you are coming from, i felt the same a few years back i woke up almost every day hoping i get killed or i kill myself i almost killed myself as i was in tears in the bathroom because of a school i never got into, and because how all the things werent going the way i planned life but thats how it is i pushed through and within almost a year i was just like "screw this" and became my own person and did my own style i am now a skater and changed my whole look, not for other people but to make myself feel better, new haircut working out etc. after all that i forgot why i was changing and just did it for fun, enjoyed my changes and then all the pieces started to fall down. i understand your problems and i hope you dont do it i dont want to be religous or anything because i hated when my mom and dad threw this in my face and always laughed about suicide like a couple years ago but would you rather live a life of complete torture and agony because of "heck" ^^trust me dont really think about this, but i tell you one thing life may seem hard and difficult but it only feels so long because you are not yourself be yourself and forget what others think. i understand you may be nervous but in time things will change and your true colors will shine

Answer 8

~~i have read what you said and the responses given to you, and a few of them have some good advise... (sponge bob... especially good job answering) the meds are a tricky thing, because they do take a while to get into your system and be fully working. the medical profession is not an exact science unfortunately, and at times it takes many tries before the Dr's get the right combination of meds at the right milligrams to do maximum benefit for you. also, finding the right counselor does help... maybe the counselor you had was not quite in touch with your pain.... try again and again until you get to where you feel you are receiving the help you disserve. Undoubtedly you are a person with a big heart, and have very much value but have been misunderstood and possibly even emotionally and or physically abused. although i have never met you, i would be saddened greatly if i heard that you ended up a statistic. you have much more to offer the world than ending up nothing more than a statistic. use your experiences to build others up and this will help build yourself up. in the mean time, if you are looking for a shoulder to cry on that is not going to judge you, add me to your messenger... click on my avatar and i'll be happy to chat with you. (i'm not on here every day, but i always try to get back to those who message me.) take care of yourself, and i hope to at least hear sometime in the future that things are looking up for you. (i'll be praying for you too)~~

Answer 9

Yes, I seriously went through depression for years. Now I wouldn't give my life for anything and I am cautious to things that would hurt me. I know when your down it feels like nothing can be better but you do remember the good times after all if you did not know that happiness, you would not be crying. I know most things do not change, that's why it took me so long to realize. You do not know the future and no matter what your beliefs you should know there will always be times worth living. There are so many opportunities to make yourself happier. Don't be scared of life <3

Answer 10

I'm so sorry that you're going through this. Believe me, when I tell you that you are not alone. My 17 year old attempted suicide last year, but thankfully, she was properly diagnosed (bipolar II) and she survived and she is doing better because of medication and therapy. Please don't wait and just do what spongbob suggested. You really need to talk with someone. You are definitely in a major depression and you sound like you are on the verge of a crisis. Stop reading responses and get help! Good luck to you!