why do i hate so much? "when you answer don't tell me to see a doc i know this and have an appointment"

Question

Any ides why I hate every thing so bloody much. I am 20 male and very shy. i am never happy, i am usually neutral and thus don’t really care about any thing, but some times i get this hatred violent mind set that wants to kill every one. I Hate my parents, and every one else. During this time i see happy couples or happy people and i want to gut them. I see teenagers leaving school and in the girls, I see whores and the boys I see bang banger that do not deserve to live. I’ve tried to kill my self twice but the first time I reasoned with my self and the second time I chickened out. I also call my self a freak sense I was born with a clef pallet and have a weak body and bad allergies. I have a hard time trusting any one and want to get close to people but always seem to chicken out when I try. What do you think? I also see every one as evil but I tend to think of my self worse than every body, and more deserving of death than others do.

Answer 1

aw...well that's wonderful you have an appointment! good for you. see? you're already taking initiative to fix things. honestly, God helped me out when i had immense anger and hated. that's what worked for me....i'm not sure if you want that or not...but that's my thing. if you do, email me or IM me anytime. even if you don't, i'd still talk if you needed to. write...it'll help. i write and it helps me. God bless ya, hon and take care.

Answer 2

You posted that you are shy, never happy, and usually neutral and thus don't really care about anything but
inside of you are so many emotions, resentment, jealousy, anger, hatred and sadness. The experiences you have had so far in your life and the self esteem you lack as slowly sunk you into this deep hole of hatred and depression. All of this could also be the reason you trust no one because you don't want to be hurt. The bad feelings you have towards yourself are being projected on to everyone you see. You see people as evil but think of yourself as worse than everybody because when you are projecting your negative feelings of yourself on to these other people deep down you know they did nothing wrong. Your false beliefs of yourself and depression are making you think you are more deserving of death when in actuality no one deserves to die. I am sure you have many wonderful qualities about yourself but right now you can't see any of them.

Answer 3

You are not a freak. You have a very low self esteem and this anger you are harboring is very dangerous. I would not wait for a doctors appointment. Get on the phone and call a crisis hot line ASAP. If you don't have one close or have a number you can always dial 911 and they will contact someone for you. They're are people to help you with your problems. And people DO care. Good luck with this its not easy to go through life unhappy. Been there done that. God Bless.

Answer 4

i think u just need to start looking at what u have got and not what u havn't got make others happy and it will make u happy, you want help so you'll be fine ...cheer up ... lifes a ***** but instead of being hateful learn how to be a better person from it :)start by apreciating the little things in life like a flower, the way a tree moves in the breeze no kidding look and wonder at these beautiful things it will help

Answer 5

You're not alone. You're on the right track. You're getting help. There is a better way to help you through your inner anger. There are support groups and anger management groups also..

People hate for different reasons and that needs to be addressed. Addressing your specific reason will help you to release the inner anger and rage. Good luck

Answer 6

It's partly genetic, partly brian chemistry, partly bad habit. It's quite understandable for someone who hasn't "found his place in the world" yet to get frustrated and place blame on both himself and everyone else rather than trying to find a solution. Then once you get it in your mind that nothing you try every works out, you rely on bad habits, creating a vicious cycle of failure, blame, and hatred.

You've got your work cut out for you, but with a good therapist to guide you through the maze and teach you new approaches to situations, you may be able to slowly "remap" your thinking patterns so that frustration doesn't always lead to failure, blame, and hatred.

As for your physical problems, it might help you put things in perspective if you thought about the fact that allergies are extremely commonplace and that many children are born with cleft palates, too. And weakness, although genetic to some degree, can also be minimized with a proper diet and exercize routine.

I think you just need to start taking some positive steps and sticking with them, even when they appear not to be working. You've already taken the first step: calling a therapist. You should feel proud of yourself for surmounting your fears and doubts and trying to find someone to help you change your negative attitudes about yourself and others.

I wish you the best of luck.

Answer 7

There are only 2 emotions in life: Happiness and Hostility. I gues there's also Indifference, but that's not really an emotion, but rather lack of it, eh? Anyways, my point is that hostility is far more common than you might think, it's just a matter of degree how it exhibits itself in daily life. I don't know how to fix it, but knowing that other people are also angry gives me some comfort that I'm not alone. :)

Answer 8

If you are able to explain your reasons that clearly, your handle on whats wrong is better than you think. Now you just need to decide what to do about it. Shyness doesnt preclude you from friendships or romance, it'll just keep you from initiating them (not accepting and encouraging them). You need to stay off the net and away from the TV for a while and get out there and live life....experience it on your own so your perceptions are truly yours, not the warped and unfelt ones of others.


And yes.....ANTIDEPRESSANTS are required!

Answer 9

I guess you need to find interests. You need to surround yourself with positive people....sometimes this means staying away from your family or current friends. Find people with common interests and that will support you. Maybe you can find a therapy group with people in the same situation. I'm pretty sure you are not the only one out there. Hang in there...

Answer 10

you need a goal. this will be a way of channeling your energy in a positive way and stop you being self destructive.
sounds like you enjoy attention seeking as well. people who want to kill them selves do. those who talk about it never actually believe what they are saying.
grab your balls, be a man. get a job, live your life and stop telling yourself your unhappy.

Answer 11

I think it's easier to hate. Seems the minute I'm happy something always seems to go wrong. Sit back and ask yourself why do you feel this way. Is it school is it your apperence. Then go frm there.