What do i do?

Question

I have been on 2 lots pills for depression none have helped.
I have seen more people but they say there is nothing worng with me and I need to get out more but I do I work weekends and 2 days in the week. but just end up cry and puking at work. I have given up on docs now no one can help me.
My old self well now I think about it I can't remenber who that is.
I live with my mum and dad but there always at work and I only see them for 2 hours at night.
There are some really good places in the U.S that could make me better but I don't have that kinda money. Yes sometimes I do wonna die and have tried it in the past everytime I go to a&e they say they will get someone from the chisis team to come see u. what a joke and let me home again. If I had the money I would be in hospital care. But no I live here where no one will do anything. what do i do?

Answer 1

I feel for you deeply, My brother has been like this for 29 years of his life,he has tried to take his own life twice been sectioned once and still the same,he justs exsists really he goes nowhere and has only contact with family! Sorry I cant help you and I hope you find your true self again good luck!

Answer 2

You are in a cycle of despair and cannot see your way out at the moment. You obviously have tried to find support and have not yet achieved lasting success. That is a shame, but this is not a permanent condition.

There a couple of things you could do which might help. One physical and one a bit more cerebral.

I can see that you do have some spare time. I suggest that you try some really vigorous exercise. There are two reasons for this. The first is it gets you out amongst people and that is always good, also during that time you do not have time to dwell or 'feel' you have to concentrate on what you are doing, during those times you will not feel so bad (and the natural dopamine will give you a decent 'high').

the next technique which is really an extension of the 1st is that when you feel you are starting to get maudlin thoughts, concentrate really hard on a mental image of something which gives you pleasure. It is like mediation, the concentration effort can be enough to ward of the bad thoughts long enough for the cycle to break. It takes a lot of practise and effort but does help.

I wish you luck, and I hope you fell better soon.

Answer 3

First thing: you're in good company here. Half of the avatars in Answers have big mental health issues and many have contemplated suicide. Me included. I'm still here.

Drugs: how each drug helps or hinders you is a very personal thing. The doc can't really predict that. There may be a drug that is right for you out there. For me, it's good old Prozac. For my Dad, it's some awful tricyclic from yesteryear. For my friend, it's Lustral. The drugs do need to be given a chance to work - Prozac took at least two weeks before anything happened to me.

As for help: you're in the US and I don't know the system. In the UK there is a system but there is also a strategy, and it goes like this:

1. Go to your GP in a terrible state. Look like a dog's breakfast. Cry and say you have thought about/tried suicide. List out what you have tried to help you and tell him/her it hasn't worked.

2. If that doesn't work, don't bother with the A&E - go and find the equivalent service within a psychiatric hospital. They ONLY deal with that stuff so they won't keep you waiting six hours for nothing.

3. If there is someone who depends on you (maybe your income is important for the household, whatever) spin that story. It won't hurt!

All of that might come out slightly as playacting but there will be enough truth in it to justify your actions.

Finally, do take care of yourself - we want you here on answers! People who have been to their very lowest point and come back have an awful lot to give.

Answer 4

I can only tell you some of what I did, which helped with depression:
It did help. I am not depressed now, but see below!
1) I wrote 25,000 pages of maths notes for myself.
2) I saved a young girl from drowning in a swimming pool.
3) I rescued a young boy wandering near a busy road at night.
4) I try to live in accordance with my conscience.
5) I was told to talk to people, and I think that was a big help.
6) Many films affected me strongly and positively and some kind of burned into my brain for life e.g. Ghost (with Patrick Swayze, and Demi Moore), The Client (with Sara (?) Sanderson (?) .... Innumerable runners up as well.
7) I like weepy films and sometimes the music is something else. One film had the actress singing "One day my prince will come" - in Italian. I am crying now as I think of it, of anything so beautiful.

Answer 5

Hi

Get another GP, your one sounds crap, if the tablets do not seem to help, persevere it can take week for them to work. Believe me you do not want to be in a psych hospital unless you are desperately ill, I was a mental health student and have seen some horrible things. Once you get in the 'system' you will have a lot of trouble getting out.

Also talk to your mum or dad if you can. The old self may not be there any more, but there is a new self waiting to come out!

Believe me people recover from depression, but it takes time and effort from your self as well as other.

Hope you are well soon

Luv Paula

Answer 6

Ask if there is a support group who can help you. Do you like your job would it help to find a different job that you enjoy. Enrol at a night school for something that you enjoy you may make some more friends to occupy your time.Have you told your mum and dad how you feel .Is there a church or youth group who might help you.In the UK we have the samaritans who you can ring 24/7 is there anything like that in the US. Have you had a word with these places that will make you better to see if you can pay part now and part later. Or if they could give you a job their to help pay your way.Whatever you decide GOOD LUCK. You can always come on yahoo answers to get help.

Answer 7

It's hard, but you're still here, so tell your doctor the pills aren't working, and your condition has in fact worsened. Let your parents know, too. Talk to councilors in person or on the phone. As confounding as it sounds, antidepressants have side effects that actually aggravate depression and anxiety. I don't want to sound like Tom Cruise, but I work with a combo St. John's Wort, Valerian, Gotu Kola, and Ginkgo. And vitamins. It takes a while to kick in, though, and if it's something you'd like to try, do some research and make sure you're not allergic. I also have a friend who listens to me when I get really bad. Do not let your horrible moods fool you into thinking life is not worth it. Sometimes accepting the bad mood is the way to start to change it. Then try to do something productive. When I'm feeling suicidal, I clean kitty's litter box because, hey, I'm already in a s***ty mood! You're in my prayers, sweetie.

Answer 8

The health service will only do so much, some of the treatment has got to come from yourself i.e. accepting you have a problem and be willing to tackle it.
You sound very defeatist which isn't gonna help you, life is never as bad as it seems, try talking to people you know you can trust, your mom and dad would be a good start, if not them, friends.
Start taking a more positive outlook on life, don't get down about the things you don't have, concentrate on the things you do have and are important to you.
Good luck!

Answer 9

Your Doctor should know about your past history. i certainly would feel concerned about your your previous attemps and current feelings.

It seems to me that you feel isolated at the moment. You say your parents are always at work. Is there someone else you could talk to?

If the team hasn't been out to see you by now then you should find out why they let you down. Contact the hospital, ask them to check out who is due to visit and why they haven't come to you. Be honest with them, tell them how you feel and they should accept that you really need their visit.

You believe you would be better off in hospital, why? Because you would have someone there permanently with you (Nursing team) ? I am not in favour of hospitalisation when it can be avoided as it is too easy for patients to become institutionalised, feel more relax (Away from the source of their depression/anxiety). However you need support and the hospital should see you get it.

Best wishes

Ros

Answer 10

You need to see your GP and tell him that you feel that your antidepressants are not working and in what way. You have to be honest and tell him/her that you are crying alot and being sick too. Is the sickness due to your emotional health or something else? You say there are good places in the US. There are good places in the UK too. Maybe if you were honest with your GP they could try and support you and help to get into 'one of those places'/ What do they do different to what you are doing now? You say that sometimes you 'wanna die'. Do you really want to die or do you want your problems to go away? The Samaritans are a good network of ppl who would be able to explore your feeling and emotions in confidence. I wish you good luck.