Each day when I wake up, I need to tell myself to just stay alive for that one day. And as each day passes, it gets harder and harder. I get tired of having to tell myself that.. I get tired of pretending I'm fine in front of everyone. They know I'm having troubles but they don't know why... I'm unsure myself. My life is fine.. there's nothing tragic going on with my life.. but I just feel.. tired.. apathetic.. pointless. I'm in therapy... but I'm afraid if I tell them these things they'll just send me to the hospital.. which I don't want to go through again because its so pointless. I was able to manipulate my way out of the hospital the lasttime, and I don't want to go through that again.. Sometimes I question what's really the point oflife.. what are we supposed to do?
2006-06-16 05:26:08 · 10 answers · asked by Mzz KoBe BrYant 2 in Health ➔ Mental Health
yep know how u feel, u need to be around more people/children to see the Light of Life..... I know it sounds corny but reading the Bible especially Psalms, helps me relate to tthe "point of life" by reading how David had so many troubles but how he felt through them.
just remember usually people who feel the way you do are actually better than this world and are untapped talents!!!
ur actually bored because ur probably highly intelligent! read some ancient Greek philosophy, they were ahead of their times too and not understood.
u probably need to do charity work and help people and see that u are needed and can make a difference.
do anything u can to stay away from being admitted to a hospital! read/write/draw pictures if you have to, take walks..................... also on physical note make sure everyday u take extra high doses of b vitamins and fish oil and get regular intense physical activity..........
decorate! buy flowers or crafts from Michaels craft store ............
buy candles and light them whenever u feel depressed, stare at flame and just think.... buy different colors for different moods and meanings..........also burn incense
drink coffee!!!!!!!!!! that helps when I feel down.
2006-06-16 05:38:13 · answer #1 · answered by safarlsun33 4 · 1⤊ 0⤋
I know what your going through. I have dealt with depression all my life. My childhood was horrible. My dad was very abusive to all of us. We would have to hide in the woods until 3 in the morning, and then I would have to get up and go to school the next day and act as if nothing ever happened. I never got any help. I tried suicide when I was 14 and still nobody got me help. In my adulthood, I had family problems still, and such and just had a mental breakdown. I couldn't get off the couch to do anything. Like brush my hair or teeth or take a bath. I talked to my husband about it, started Wellbutrin, and started working out, I feel much better now. If it is not situational then it's definetly a chemical imbalance. Do things that make you happy. Do things that boost your self esteem. Life is a precious gift from God. Pray to him for help.
2006-06-16 06:30:45 · answer #2 · answered by Xena 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I used to feel just like that every day. Then I realized that there was more to life than feeling like that. I told my feelings to the therapist, and they put me on antidepressants. I was on them for a year and a half. Then I was slowly weaned off of them. Today I feel happy and healthy. I have a husband, a job, friends, and lots of activities that I enjoy doing. My advice to you is to let people help you because there is a better way to live. It may suck in the moment when you tell people whats going on, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. When you get there you'll know it was all worthwhile.
2006-06-16 05:31:43 · answer #3 · answered by jediljc 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
i appreciate your effort
it isn't easy to tell oneself to stay alive each day
and you have done it
this means that you do want to stay alive
i have gone through what you are experiencing
i'm also afraid of being sent to hospital
i find that you are very good at expressing yourself
not everyone can do that, i being an example
you can use this gift of yours in expressing your feelings to your therapist/ health professional/ anyone you trust
for instance, you can tell them that you wouldn't like to be sent to hospital
it's good that you are reaching out
and this is what can help us the most during these moments
as you live, you will discover your meaning of life,
just as i have recently - my life is very meaningful to my family
sometimes i find it amazing that i was unhappy when i woke up, and then during breakfast, i could say something that made my family laugh
this may be pretending i'm fine in front of everyone
however, this also indicates that i can get out of my blues
and that consciously, i want to get out of my blues
'there is hope when there is life'
take care
2006-06-16 05:56:24 · answer #4 · answered by bgrt 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
you know i have been inyour position before, i was in the hospital. i was gonna kill myself. i needed to be there. now that i am not depressed i know it was a good thing i was in there cause i would have been dead then. i am very happy now well not all the time but better. you need medicine. stop pretending cause who gives a **** what others think. what matters is you and the way you are feeling is not permanent but with the things your saying to yourself you will never get help. do me a favor get help.
2006-06-16 07:56:33 · answer #5 · answered by guerisky 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Go to AA
Believe me just go. You will find a purpose in life and a clear direction on how to get there. You don't have to be an alcoholic to go. Sit and listen and you will hear more than you realize.
Look on internet for meeting near you
2006-06-16 06:03:28 · answer #6 · answered by Kris 1 · 0⤊ 0⤋
u might consider lookin into spirituality....i feel no matter
what a person coud accomplish materially its pointless when
at the end there's just nothin
we all need a greater purpose to go on
2006-06-16 07:01:21 · answer #7 · answered by enigma q 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
life is beautiful, learn how to enjoy and take brighter side only. if you think positive it will give you positive results. yesterday is gone so never worry for your past . what you have is present moment so always live happily. noone can change you , you have to change yourself. there are so many others persons suffering in this world you are much better, leave everything to god ,do your best and have faith in god.
2006-06-16 05:44:48 · answer #8 · answered by Jimmy 1 · 0⤊ 0⤋
You are not alone. You really need to be completely honest with your therapy, that's' the only way that it is going to help.
Check out Post Secret, you will see that you are not alone:
http://postsecret.blogspot.com/#111862922318522205
And here too:
http://www.hopeline.com/
2006-06-16 05:59:12 · answer #9 · answered by Evilest_Wendy 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Just my opinion, but it sounds like you have clinical depression. You should go to see a doctor about it and they can prescribe medication.
2006-06-16 05:31:00 · answer #10 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋