How do I go about finding treatment for my depression.?

Question

For over a year I've been up and down with emotion. I was put on anti-depressants only for treatment of my headaches earlier this year, but I had to go off of them because I began to self harm and was having suicidal thoughts. I only told my doctor about the self harm part though. I have since stopped self harming on my own without any help and now I think about staring it again all the time. A few months ago I had a suicide note written out and I thought taking the rest of my anti-depressants all at once, it might cause fatal effects. With the pills in hand, I just stopped and thats all I remember until I woke up a few hours later. I think I may have fainted or something, but whatever it was, it saved my life. Lately I've been thinking about how I wish I would've dies. Nobody in my family knows about any of this. The only person who knows is my best guy friend. I really just want these thoughts to just get out of my head. They're not simply going to go away on their own and obviously

the antidepressants make it worse. I really don't want to tell my mom any of the details or the suicide thing. How do I get some kind of professional help? Should I simply tell my mom that I want to see a counceler or something?

the medication was called nortryptalyne and I was told that the strange effects had something to do with my hormones since I'm only 13.

Answer 1

Talk to your mom she cares, show her what you have written here. She will understand, or do the same with your school counseler. BUT get help now, I went through the same thing.

Answer 2

You should definitely see a psychiatrist. Everything is completely confidential and you should feel safe talking to them. Anti-depressants may make your condition worse because it may be treating the wrong condition. You might have bipolar disorder, in which case anti-depressants can make it MUCH worse because it only effects one side of the illness...making the other side of it much more intense. You should be on some type of mood stabilizer if this is the case. Definitely see a psychiatrist to have this checked out....suicide is nothing to take lightly. I know you know that, but I work with suicidal patients every day and have seen so much in my work. Life is precious and if there is anything you can do to save it, you should do it. Good luck and you will be in my prayers!

Answer 3

See a psychotherapist on a weekly basis for a year or two. Also see a psychiatrist and try some other medications. Try to sleep regularly, exercise, and eat healthy foods. Keep a journal in which you write about your feelings, thoughts, and moods. Try to go to a movie and spend time with family or friends. A psychotherapist I was once seeing told me to be good to myself. It was a pithy suggestion and one I thought about often. Also, try to develop an interest in your school work with the intention of someday going to college and pursuing a profession such as software engineering or medicine. At your age you have a life of possibility and opportunity ahead of you. Do all your homework assignments and sign up for challenging courses in whatever field you feel an interest in and show a talent for.

Answer 4

I had similar problems (it was because of pms). The sadness was so bad it would probably be considered depression. I never took any medicine or anything, so I'm not sure what medicines to recommend for you. But for those days when you don't take medicine, start by doing anything that makes you happy. Sit outside in the sun in your pj's for awhile, let sunlight into your house/bedroom. Watch happy things on tv or listen to songs that make you happy. Play a game with a little brother/sister or neighbor. Watch funny shows on tv to get you laughing. Just do things that help keep your mind off of bad things.

Answer 5

I am encouraged by the fact that you have stopped. There are other medications that you can take for depression. Let me guess they had you on Zoloft? See council and this is a hard one.....build up a center of support. Use family, friends and if you find a good Church to support you let me know. Take care and good luck.

PS I agree with the answer above. I am on a mood stabilizer too.

Answer 6

you should tell your mom. Did you see a regular M.D. or did you see a psychiatrist? It might not be regular depression that you are suffering from, you might be bi-polar. I thought my husband was suffering from depression, he has the same symptons as you. I took him to a psychiatrist and found out he was bi-polar. At least you might be put on the right medications. Good luck

Answer 7

Depression is all about friends and family but recovery comes from God. You have had an interception of death and know many things now Use them and follow your invisible grandfathers. Nobody else cares right.

Answer 8

i say u tell ur friends they can help u and don't do anything to harm ur self and me and lauren r here 4 u