Very Suicidal, I want to die?

Question

I don't know, but things have not been going well lately. I feel like no body takes me seriously. I really have no one , no friends and all my family members are far away. I have been attempting to kill myself lately. The other day I took about 3 packs of benedryl and just got sick and almost slept the whole weekend. I wanted to die soooo bad. I don't know what to do can someone please help me.

I have no idea why I want to die soo badly. It is so heavy on my heart. I want to cry but I am a 23 year old woman how can I be crying.

Answer 1

Please, please, please don't kill yourself! You may feel so hopeless and sad, but killing yourself is not the answer. You are suffering from depression. Depression is a disease, it is a chemical imbalance in your brain that can be fixed, sometimes with medication, sometimes just with counseling! If you have health insurance, please go to your doctor right away and tell him or her how your feel. He or she will send you to a psychiatrists who can help you.

You put this question in religion and spirituality, so I assume you are religious. If you can't get to a doctor please go to your place of worship and ask your rabbi/priest/etc to help you. They may be a counselor, or they may know one who can help you for free or for very little cost. Even if you do have health insurance, if you are religious you should go to your place of worship because your rabbi/priest/etc might be able to help you by getting you more involved in church activities or other activities where you can make friends.

If you ever feel that you want to kill yourself, please call a suicide hot line instead. The people on suicide hot lines can help you find hope, get help, and stay alive!

Good luck, I hope you will keep posting so we know you are OK!

Answer 2

I, too, had this problem last year around the holidays. It is a miserable feeling to have. I was in a new marriage, everything was going well for me, but I just wanted to die so badly because I felt like I was a burden to everyone. I didn't feel good enough, pretty enough, smart enough, the list goes on and on. However, I realized that if I were to leave this earth (suicide is also considered murder in the Bible) that I would probably hurt someone else and they would get depressed, etc. You are probably depressed. There are many great medications that can take care of this. It is not something that counseling will fix, but you can PRAY about it. And by all means, please seek the Lord for the salvation of your soul if you haven't already accepted Christ. This is the most important step anyone can take. Life on earth is short, but eternity is a LONG time. Also, don't worry how old you are. No age is too old to cry.....

Answer 3

Please understand that life is very difficult and many people feel the way you do, even if they don't acknowledge it. You don't want to die. You don't know what death is, so how can you want it? You want to feel good and happy and to have a full life. You want to end your suffering. There is no one answer for your problem, it's the problem of human existence. However, you can do what other people do when they feel this way. You can change your life. If you are lonely and isolated socially, perhaps moving to another town is the answer. Or taking a foreign language class or learning canoeing. Modern society can be very isolating, and finding activities where you have a chance to meet people is important. Also, make sure not to get into romantic relationships that have a negative undertone. In a love affair, you give someone the key to your soul, make sure they are not going to damage it recklessly - it's up to you to defend yourself by taking the lesson and walking away when it's time. There is a reason why "the pursuit of happiness" is a phrase in our country's declaration of independence. Happiness does not come to you, often you have to take risks and make changes to pursue it. Try to isolate the reason for your pain, and write down some possible ways to attack it. Also, read literature and you will find that most great minds have visited the dark side of existence, are well acquainted with it. This means there is nothing wrong with you for feeling this way, it's a natural part of human life. Finally, go to the gym. If you improve your body and health, you are likely to feel an improvement in your mood as well - plus you might meet cool people there.

Answer 4

Don't kill yourself, suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems. You're probably very depressed. You NEED to talk to a medical professional - a therapist or psychologist. Your doctor can probably recommend one to you. You need to talk to someone that you like and that understands you. If you see one therapist and it's not helping, try a different one. Find one that has experience and that you like. (Don't give up on one after one appointment but, don't stay with one for a year if they're not helping) Many people suffer from depression or other mental sickness. It's very common yet, many people don't get treatment, or they wait way too long. Please don't give up, life can only get better, right?

"Depression is a psychological condition that changes how you think and feel, and also affects your social behavior and sense of physical well-being. We have all felt sad at one time or another, but that is not depression. Sometimes we feel tired from working hard, or discouraged when faced with serious problems. This too, is not depression. These feelings usually pass within a few days or weeks, once we adjust to the stress. But, if these feelings linger, intensify, and begin to interfere with work, school or family responsibilities, it may be depression."

To read more, please go to:
http://www.psychologyinfo.com/depression

I suggest you read that and I really hope you get treatment. A lot of people don't want to admit they need help and that is why they don't get treatment. Admitting you have a problem is important, millions of people have all kinds of problems, it's not a big deal. I cannot say for sure if you are depressed, only a well trained medical professional can know that. I am just making an educated guess based on what you have written.

Also, there's nothing wrong with adults crying. If you have to cry, then you have to cry. Crying is a much better alternative than killing yourself.

Keep your head up and e-mail me if you want to talk about anything.

(Please ignore rude answers)

Answer 5

I'm 22 and I started becoming suicidal at 13 made plans at 17 and made 1st attempt at 20 and second at 21. Every day I struggle with whether I want to go on, you see I stopped living life. I dropped out school just quit going. I have no work experience and I still live with my dad. My family had no idea until they found out about my schooling. I'm trying to find work that I can do that helps me have money to survive and function in life and find hobbies that give me strength to continue. I still cry a lot and I probably always will because I'm so sensitive. I'm not sure how I'm going to do in the work force and I am so afraid that I'm going to crash and burn or jump off a bridge but I'm trying. The biggest thing that helps me is though my dad constantly pushes to move forward he stands by me and loves me and wants to just help me learn to be self supporting. I won't lie and say counseling has helped though I do know people who say it does and it is possible that you have chemicals in your body that are making you feel this way. You definitely need to reach out to the family member you trust the most no matter how far away. You'd be surprised how often the truth can build bridges to the future. Don't think less of yourself. You can find a way to function. I know I will and I know you can. Good luck and best wishes.

Answer 6

Sorry that you are going through this. But don't do it. Imagine all the sperm that could have made it. But you were the strongest and fastest swimmer. There is something special about you. Life is a gift. You may feel like your alone but GOD loves you. Your still in the land of the living. I don't know if you pray but you should try it. Try to think and day dream about a good time in your life. If you need someone to talk to I would love to chat with you. I just turned 23 and I have days were I feel that life suxs. But there is ALWAYS sun shine at the end of a storm.

Answer 7

You are not alone. There are those who suffer more than you do. Always remember that. With all the intricacies of life that you meet everyday, it's really possible to consider that option. But that is only an option not the answer.

We who give answers here cannot exactly point to you the right solution since in the first place we really do not know and understand your problem and you have not stated it. I personally would like to help you since I know that taking your life is not exactly the solution but is just a way of avoiding the pain.

If you believe in God, prayer can really help and try to Seek some professional advice. I promise you it is worth it.

Answer 8

Sounds like u have some bad depression and feel very lonely. I think u should go see ur Doctor and tell him how ur feeling see if u can get some kind of canceling or therapy arranged. Plz hold on to life? What ur going through is only tempory and things can get better. But u need to get help and talk to someone so they cam help u. Have u told ur familuy how ur feeling. What about taking a break and going to stay with ur family? I been trying this thing called Emotional Freedom Technique its quite good and has helped me maybe it's something u could try these links explain it better. Most importantly please get help, see ur Doctor and a therapist as soon as possible. Talk to ur family.

Answer 9

Sounds like your in the pits of a deep depression. i have had moments like this too, but it REALLY is not worth it!!! Do not kill yourself!!! I have had moments when I dont neccessarry want o kill myself, but I actually just don't want to exist anymore.

Go to your GP, and tell them honestly how you are feelinmg, don't hold back anything he needs to know so that he may help you fully.

Don't be ashamed about the way you are feeling or what your thoughts are saying...
Take deep breaths and concentrate on why you were given the gift of life ( I am not speaking in religious terms here, as I'm not particularly religious), but you are here for a reason and it is your purpose to realise this.

Depression is a challenge to overcome. I am currently training as a counsellor, and have found that my own experiences of depression have given me such an insight into how others feel that I feel that it has in a funny kind of way done me good. I know myself better and aknow how to heal myself...

Good luck wi the GP and if he doesn't help look elsewhere theres plenty of help out there, don't give up! and you will come out of this stronger!

Answer 10

Honey, I know exactly how you feel, I was there for a long time myself, and the only thing I can tell you is that you have to hang on, have faith this lonelyness, and darkness in your life will end soon. Try find groups were you can socialize with others, but not poeple who will bring you down, people who can lift up your spirits. And don't avoid crying because you think you're too old, or whatever, crying is good for you, it released indorphines (I can't spell worth ****), also know as happy hormones, so crying would probably help you.

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Answer 11

well as we all know, life brings unsatisfactoryness to everyones life. even if you are billionnaire. But if you think about any life (even animal life) you will understand that all animals (including humans) main goal had been survival. we need to survive and show that we are made up of a strong will (atleast) even if you and I was animals (even very innocent animals) we would never give up on life. We would dare every moment to hang onto survival mode. You and I have a strong will , more than other animals. We were born alone and we will die alone, but untill our natural death come to us we should give our best to survive.

My dear friend, I have never seen you in my life, but I love you for admitting that you want to die so quickly, even myself had the same feeling when I was in the streets without any one or any body to look after me and I was only 18 years old then.

Now I am 29 and a qualified chartered accountant, if you survive just another day, anither week, another month another year you will be a winner, i am with you always, i will help you in every way I can. Please my dear friend now its time to get up, wake up and live and survive, laugh, run sing, rejoice you are not alone. I am with you.

my email address is below. If you need me I am on my mobile too. my no. is+9745704204.
I am lakshman your ever loving friend