Im an alcoholic and the problem is im happy to be one, why?

Question

I culdn't talk to a person without feeling under pressure if it wasen't for alcohol, i feel happy and cheerfull when i drink alcohol.
If i didn't drink i would lock my self because im afraid of the world but when im drinking i love the world.
I know im insane and i know how bad i am, but one can't choose what he feel's inside and when i stop drinking i cry a lot and i hate my self. What can i do? Should i just keep drinking until it makes me happy?

Answer 1

my dad got his siezure and one of them is caused by alcohol and it's very hurtful cause it takes him about two to three hours before he remembers that i'm his daughter...

you better think of your future... whether your present life is ruined it still can't make you be assured that your future is ruined too... your future might not be as good as what you want it to be but it's going to be better if you really wanna make it happen...



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Answer 2

Have you ever been treated for anxiety? Anxiety is a legitimate medical condition that should NOT be medicated with alcohol. Unfortunately, a lot of people experience what you've experienced and don't have a way to cope with all the things that are hitting them.

Everyone is a little scared of social interactions (people would rather die than give a speech), but when it reaches a level that you are talking about, it is truly something chemical happening in your brain.

You are not a bad person, and you definitely should not hate yourself - but you have an opportunity to discover yourself and to maybe make a difference for other people as well. When you come through difficult experiences, it gives you a confidence and you can inspire other people to get help.

There are some REALLY good websites on anxiety and I would encourage you to see your doctor and see how you can best manage your situation. I'm sure you have a lot to offer, and it wouldn't hurt to maybe visit with a counselor and talk about how alcohol has affected you.

Good luck!!!

Answer 3

Drinking covers up the REAL you, which I assume is a wonderful person truly wanting to be known. I don't drink but I've heard from so many people that going to Alcoholics Anonymous has been very beneficial. You do better when you are drinking? Then take a drink to get some courage and walk, take a bus, take a taxi to a meeting. You won't be sorry if you give AA a try and then stick with it. God bless you!

Answer 4

No. Alcohol is extremely dangerous to your body. You are using it as a crutch and to avoid facing life and the problems that come with life. The world never looks better from the bottom of a bottle, it is just that your feelings are dulled by the alcohol and you can not feel anything. Your body can't take the abuse from the alcohol, it will kill you and end your life short of all the years you could enjoy. Get help, there are others out there who have been where you are and walked away from it and gone on to live a happy and productive life.A.A. could help you or check out for other programs that have help available. Just get help you can't do it alone.

Answer 5

There are down sides to alcoholism. In the long run you could end up getting a liver disease that would require you to stop drinking if you want to live. It sounds like to me that you have depression and maybe an anxiety disorder or two. What you may need to do is talk to a psychologist and find out what the root of the issues are and they might refer you to a psychiatrist that can prescribe anti-depressants. You are essentially already doing that with the alcohol, why not get the proper medicine that won't destroy your liver?

Answer 6

Actually, you're not happy to be an alcoholic, or you wouldn't be posting this message.

Hey, not going to lie to you- alcohol can be fun- but if you really DO think you're happy being an alcoholic, chances are pretty good that you don't have heart disease, kidney problems,or liver failure yet. If you have that big a problem talking to people, sounds like you have social anxiety disorder, and self-medicating with lots of alcohol is only masking that problem. In the long run, excess amounts of alcohol will make this problem worse.

See a doctor.You can't be happy that you're making yourself sick.

Answer 7

Obviously, you're not happy to be an alcoholic, otherwise you wouldn't be asking for help. You're also not insane but you clearly need to talk to someone...you're probably drinking to hide some other problems....maybe depression? A trained professional therapist or social worker can help you figure these things out. You can probably find one that works on a sliding fee scale if you don't have a lot of money. If you have insurance, start looking from there. If you don't, call your primary care physician to recommend someone to you.

Answer 8

You obviously have some issues with yourself. You need to get help cause alcohol doesn't help as much as you think it does. My dad used to use the same excuse that alcohol made him better around people so he came home from work drunk every night. He finally stopped drinking but he just moved on to something else. He has issues with himself to workout, which if your actually telling the truth you do too. I think you need some extensive time in some form of rehab to work out whatever happened in your like to make you think that one thing makes you a better person.

Answer 9

Lassy i don't know how old you are but you have a seriouse problem ! my husband is an alcoholic and we have been married 26 yrs. - i have tried to talk to him about it but he thinks he doesn't have a problem.your description of yourself/life is what my 9 yr.old daughter and i live with everyday! you have to face life sober or you won't remember any of it !! i am going for a seperation cuz i just can't make him see what we have to live with! YOU may feel happy but your not !! YOU may think your cheerful but others don't. my husband was in the hospital in april of 2005 with a flesh eating type of strep in his groin area-he was so bad by the time i talked him into going to the hospital they needed to do emergency surgery.he actualy died on the table and after many attempts they brought him back !he had a heart attack,kidney failure, was in a coma on life support for 2 weeks.they couldn't take him out of the coma because of seizures from alcohol withdrawal ! my daughter was not able to see him because of the infection risk and her age for hospital visits.he was in intensive care for his birthday,father/daughter dance,her birthday and our anniversary!!! it took a toll on my daughter and i .when he came home 6 weeks later ,bedridden and IV ,had a nurse for wound care,5 days a week for 3 weeks for hyperbarek treatments and physical therapy ,all the drs. couldnt beleive he lived !!there was no drinking and he promised he wouldn't go back cuz he got a second chance.WELL GUESS WHAT ? he is back were he started and i am leaving !!!! PLEASE GO TO AA- my daughter and i are going to ALANON it helps!!! you will never be truly happy because you are not you when you drink.people talk about you behind your back and you dont want to be a fool. PLEASE GO TO A A !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Answer 10

The only one you are fooling is yourself. Sounds like you are trying to convince yourself. The rest of us see this rationalization for what it is. Call AA listed in the white pages. Get a sponsor, work the steps and get well... or don't. It is your choice, but stop the silliness here!!