After being raped...maybe a year or two i began to realize that I felt like two people inside. I felt like my soul had been chopped in half and I was literally now two people. I was trying to be the sane one who controlled and cared for me the sick and shattered one. I guess some pple call it alter ego. It felt like I just was twin-ed into 2 of me. One dark and one worried that she would kill herself before i could get her healed. At other times I would be riding down the road and it seemed my body would disappear and I would see a little insane demon inside me...tormenting the sickly me. Once as I was sitting with my mother I seemed to warp into another realm and i saw this man run at me and slam himself into me I never EVER showed or show any emotion when this stuff happens. I feel outwardly like a stone statue when it does. Will someone please find out whats been wrong with me ? Or just tell me what ur opinion is ? It helps to hear anything you say. Plz pray for me also.
2006-06-06 11:08:15 · 10 answers · asked by trinity_loves_neo1 1 in Society & Culture ➔ Religion & Spirituality
look...
You're not going to believe this...
But your response is NORMAL.
You're segmenting yourself... "logically" so you can place blame, and create a GOOD and BAD side.
See a professional... they can help.
2006-06-06 11:13:17 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 3⤊ 0⤋
I'm so sorry. You need to talk to a pastor as soon as possible. I am not sure what's going on with you but I know that this is anything but normal. Unfortunately, I too have experienced the horror of rape and there are many ways that your mind and spirit can deal with the terrible events. This dark spirit may be the way you are dealing with it. It could also be an intense anger and hatred that you feel now because of what happened. I want you to know tht you are so valuable to God and that you did not deserve what happened to you. You are more than what you experienced and God is going to heal and restore you and you will have a testimony! But please, talk with your pastor and maybe a counselor. God Bless.
2006-06-06 18:18:36 · answer #2 · answered by danielle_la_flor 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Honey, people here can be concerned for you and pray for you. And from what I've read, they are doing both. But no one here can really help you.
A real, live person hurt you. A real, live person needs to help you heal.
Please let them.
Call your local hospital and join a support group, get a referral for a counselor. Whatever your needs and financial constraints are, they will find someone who can work with you.
Healing will be a process, but it is possible. This man, and his abuse, have taken enough of your life from you.
Find a psychologist and let them help you reclaim it.
2006-06-06 18:43:56 · answer #3 · answered by Contemplative Chanteuse IDK TIRH 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I will pray. It could be post traumatic stress disorder but I don't recall hearing of visions like that connected with it. I've heard of flashbacks... You could see someone about that for clinical help but I honestly think the best thing to do is just turn it over to God and ask Him to help, present the problem to Him and trust Him to take care of you. I'll be praying for you.
2006-06-06 18:21:58 · answer #4 · answered by jzyehoshua1 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
The feeling that you are having are normal for what has happened to you. It is called "D.I.D." Or Dissociative Identity Disorder. and used to be called Split personality disorder. Children, you were a child when this happened to you, even children real young do this. We are taught to be a nice girl. So you need someone to be angry and mean for you. But " be nice" and "don't hold on to your anger" doesn't really apply in this instance. Please email me if you want to talk or just vent.
http://www.ibiblio.org/rcip//effectsofrape.html (this one talks of DID, PTSD, Cutting, sleeping, etc... everything you have been talking about in your questions.
http://www.rainn.org/counseling.html http://www.ibiblio.org/rcip//stepone.html (this one has steps for healing http://www.ibiblio.org/rcip//crisiscenters.html#hotlines
2006-06-08 01:22:08 · answer #5 · answered by suthrndaysi 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I've heard of trauma (esp. rape) survivors undergoing a dissociative split like that, to try to help deal with overwhelming feelings. Get yourself to a psychologist. If your religious beliefs are a comfort to you in times of stress that's OK, but what will heal you is therapy and counselling, not prayer or faith alone.
2006-06-06 23:35:29 · answer #6 · answered by anonymousyahoodude 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Perhaps you should see a counselor to work through some of the feelings that you are having. Many people are very opposed to counseling because of the stigma they feel comes along with it. It is very healthy to be able to talk to someone about your feelings.
2006-06-06 18:12:37 · answer #7 · answered by jshepard17 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Sounds like you are suffering from post-traumatic stress, you should see a psychiatric counsellor and talk it over with them... but don't rush into the arms of religious types who prey on vulnerable people like yourself as fodder for conversion.
2006-06-06 18:24:32 · answer #8 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
your question and those before it are all concerned with what you should do. Being raped is not an easy issue to deal with but please help yourself, get off YA and go seek the help that you need. Im not being rude here but you must help yourself and speak to someone who can help you.
2006-06-06 18:14:07 · answer #9 · answered by A_Geologist 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
You have some sort of psychiatric dissociative disorder. It sounds to me like you are schizophrenic. Get thee to a shrinkery, immediately.
2006-06-06 18:12:06 · answer #10 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋