will it get better?

Question

well while alot of 19 year olds were out having fun and spending time with friends..i was in my bed and it was crazy because at 12 am i just started crying. Im so stressed and depress about alot of things. I failed so much and made alot of mistakes in 2007 and I just wanted to know will it get betterr? Im scared to talk face to face with somebody because i dont want them to think im crazy but I think i need help?? So stressed I use to wish my life would end.

Answer 1

Meditate. Learn to be by yourself, quiet and still your mind.

There are no pills, no friends, no counselors, no things, no activities that will help you. The only help you will find is always with you - in the quiet place deep within your heart.

You are in a good place because you are awakening to the meaninglessness and suffering of this existence and the importance of finding what is real and significant.

Answer 2

Hi, sweetie I was in your position a feel times in my life seems like every time everything is good, on track, having fun, in love, in grad school with 4.0 then back to my old thinking and feeling. I tried killing my self 2major times, the first time a beautiful 105 pound girl took 200 mg of zanax and about 50 klonopin and any other psych drug hanging around!! NO I mean NO person, not even a 300 pound man could survive that I was in a coma, they told my parents I was not going to make it, breathing tube, no dilation to pupils and one day I opened my eyes took me a few secs to realize what I done when my mother was just staring at me and I cried told her I was sorry for her pain and then just thought I can't even do this right, I would f up my own funeral. Then got treatment, went back to the old life style I led exactly 1 month later tried it again this time there's I was going to make sure that I was not going to mess this one up.............yep still awoke days later.
Now, there is a reason why I did not die, and that I can only believe is my higher power is not finished for me in this world. Come to find out now what's my gift I'm here to fulfill.
When I was in one of the many institutions for my panic and MDD one counselor has always stuck out in my mind and a couple years later I seen him when my dad was having emergency heart surgery and thank him, he said to me when I was laying in the hospital bed your life is so miserable now and want to end it how do you know it's better after death who knows what really is out there, if you feel hell is life on Earth then just imagine what could be next??? Email if you need to talk more, I have a lot of experience in these feelings more then a person with a small psychology degree, personal experience is more educational then text experience, and I have both. I also sat in the dark by myself crying on New Years too, made some bad choices in the last 3 years and my dad died in a tragic way out of the blue last month. If you sit in your own shi- (crap) so long you will be buried in it and suffocate in your own shi** so get up and keep moving, I guarantee I have it a lot worse off then you but it's not a competing it's showing you, you are young and going thru life changes, you are in between a turning point in your life and we all go though it but we all take everything differently. Email me if you need help from someone that's is not judgmental. Love TeaMarie

Answer 3

my brother is the same way, he says that all the time i wish i was dead! but i cant stand it when people say that, their life and really end right then and there. maybe you been anger management.

Answer 4

First of all to take ones own life never ends misery, it only increases it. Because you are and eternal soul. When one takes their own life they become a miserable ghost who suffers incessantly the misery they experienced at the time of death. They are extremely lonely because practically no one hears or sees them. They are constantly haunted by other ghosts. Because you have no senses to enjoy you try to inhabit other bodies. It is a most miserable situation. If you want things to get better then you should take up the process of self realization. It doesn't matter how old you are. In fact the younger the better. First one has to understand that-
We are not this material body, IE; Race, color, nationality, Religion, mind, intellect, senses, job, etc. We are all eternal spirit souls, part and parcel of the Supreme Soul, also known as Krishna, Allah, Jehovah, Vishnu, etc. We never die, only this mortal body dies. This material world is not our real home, it is called Maya (illusion) and is temporary and full of misery, only one fourth of the souls come here, and the rest are enjoying blissful eternal loving relationships with our Maker named above. We fell here due to envying Gods position. He made the material world for those who want to try to live separately from Him (Which is impossible because He is actually everywhere). After many lifetimes of trying to be happy in this temporary world, one becomes frustrated and board and begins to question their existence. We then seek out real happiness, and when one becomes sincere God reveals how to come back Home. Those who are intelligent, take up the process of self realization (Bhakti Yoga), which begins with the chanting of the Maha Mantra, (the great mantra for deliverance from all suffering and illusion), which gives one real peace, happiness and reality. Then at the end of life, they can give up all material attachments and fully surrender to God and return to the eternal Kingdom, where there is no more birth, death, old age, or disease and be eternally happy. For info. Go to harekrishnatemple.com Read Bhagavad Gita- As it is by Bhaktivedanta Prabhupada asitis.com can be read on line. Hope this helps. Have a blessed and Conscious New Year !

Answer 5

CHANGE:
Happy New Year
Sappy New Year
Now is the time
That Kills the lonely

In visions of better times

I hold onto the
hope that
time will grant me the gift of change
-a song someone wrote, found it on,
http://www.myspace.com/1110987654321

seriously, if you havent just felt this way around the holidays and feel this way alot, talk to a counselor (if you're in school you can talk for free, confidentially) even if not, a good talk might help you sort things out.

do you actually want to end your life? i've sometimes entertained the idea, but know, that i never would. normally because i figure, that given time, I can improve my circumstances.

Answer 6

You have made mistakes, we all have but honey what makes you great is the ability to rise above those mistakes and learn from them. Sometimes life may seem like its just a big mess of cruelty, pain, injustices, it seems like theres nothing worth living for, i know because at times i feel the same way, and i have done so many mistakes, my god its a wonder i dont fall apart at times. But i rise above them, because i will not be defeated by myself. And life is bad, and cruel and harsh, it is all that but theres so many beautiful things that just overshadoweded. It might sound cliche but theres love, and theres hope, that one day ull find something worthy, that ur life will lead to some joy, taht after everything you've seen you cna still be surprised.
I know it is most difficult in times like this, but you must find hope and you must grab it and find the strengh and the courage to rise above your mistakes., we all make them, its our flaw, it makes us human, it gives us each a story. Accept them because until u do its not going to get better.
Good luck, be strong ;)

Answer 7

ok first dont do any thing rash find out if some one you know has the same interest as you. i have the same problem every one thinks im an idiot no girls like me and i had no friends but one day i went up to this guy and asked if he wanted to hang out some time it turns out he lives up the street from me and now we hang out all the time. so try to find some one with the same interest as you and try to become friends

Answer 8

If you think 19 is stressful, wait til you get into your 30's. As you get older, you tend to feel the pressure of responsibility and it can get scary sometimes. Life can be overwhelming in general but its not the stress you should be worried about, but the way you handle stress. Make sense? Some people have called me a b**** and I am! so what do I do??? I try to control it....I take a deep breath and say to myself "control the demons" You see, you are who you are and its the way you
view life that puts a strain on your thinking process. Keep this in mind..the power of your mind is very powerful and can lead you to believe that you're stress is above and beyond. Tell yourself that you can get through this and keep going. I also cried at midnight...but I think its because my family no longer lives here so we just get on the phone and wish each other a happy new year. If you have a friend..call them and tell them "happy new year." remember, sometimes you need to make the first move...this will lead you to continue making the first move in your life. You only live once and before you know it....its over. LIVE LIFE!

Answer 9

1-800- SUICIDE

talk to them and ask them about a Teen Crisis Center number. You can talk to them over phone and everything is confidential- other teens will help you out- it helped me out.

And yes, everything is going to be okay- there's this saying "when the sun goes down, it will rise again." Just take this time to realize that throught these crisises (sp?), you'll become a much stronger person. It will get better- and suicide is just selfish and you have just given up- it's pointless. And know there's probably many many many many other people that have a WAY worse than you. Some don't even have access to computers to go to Yahoo! Answers. :]

-nagi

Answer 10

feeling a little lost sucks but just remember that your not the only one out there that feels the same way sometimes.When times are at the hardest its because your life is at a turning point ,don't make it a point of no return.
don't think of the sorrow's of the sorrows of yesterday think of what your best day that you can imagine or dreamed of you wouldn't want to miss that if it was tomorrow would you