what is really going on?

Question

Ok when i was in high school i lived with my aunt. There was a teacher renting a room, so he became a member of our family. I helped him a lot cause he was nice 2 me and he called my aunt mom, my dad uncle and my mom aunt. He ate all the meals with us( my aunt and my sis) We did his laundry cleaned his room, polished his shoes. He would give me money for school...like a sports trip, school choir and he would buy me clothes if i ever wanted anything. He had a gal friend but not living with him...when he was not home the girl friend would ask if i needed anything for school..like money. He always told me that he loves me( not the other kind of love like) But i would just smile. After high school i moved again to live with my other aunt. One day i went to the publick phones....and when i came back he asked me who did i call ..i told her that i called this guy..she got mad at me and asked told me that was wrong. I did not say anything cause in my culture u dont argue with the elders.

But i called him and never told him what my auntie said. He came the other day 2 see us...i guess to see me with my aunt and family..with his wife( he was now married) I left my country and kept in contact with him. He died last year, and that really broke my heart. He was like my father, brother to me. But i cant seem to forget why would my aunt try to stop me frm calling him? I cant forgive her. I dream about this guy......cause i never got a chance to tell him that i love him back. sometimes i have these haunting dreams...it like i'm going to wake up in the morning to call him and say i love him too. And when i wake up i cry and cry......sometimes i have these taughts like i'm going to see him...and i'm kinda planning this meeting..but he is dead.

Answer 1

Your aunt might have been having very soft feelings for him.On learning that you have been talking with him on the phone,she might have apprehended that you may be usurping him from her.
Now that he is no more in this world, you should try to forget all that has happened in the past. You should realize that you cannot change the past any way.