I'm reliving those events..I had just told my therapist a small portion of one incident 2 months ago that took place 17 yrs ago, and I've never regreted anything else more than I do speaking of this to anyone. I felt I had better control when I kept it to myself, now that I have told someone it's been pure hell... Flashbacks, nightmares, scents.. and dreams so real like it's happening again. My therapist has been out of town for a couple weeks and I had major surgery as a result of the past, that was becoming life or death. I need serious help and advice, I'm so scared that I don't want to sleep any more and I have such a huge stock of previous prescribed pills that they are looking better by the minute than havin to deal with all this.. Would I have been better just to keep the door closed in the first place and never have mentioned the rapes cause I thought I was doing ok with them stuck in my head, and now I don't have any control and my violent crying and anger is really..
2007-12-29 11:43:13 · 5 answers · asked by Shawny 3 in Social Science ➔ Psychology
is really getting out of control, and I need help/advice soon..it's 7:45pm now where I am, and I have choices to make, and soon.. please be serious and help me out on this one...Thanx
2007-12-29 11:44:37 · update #1
Problem is that no one else knows EXCEPT my therapist and he's not due back for another week. And I really don't feel comfortable with going to the ER.
2007-12-29 11:55:59 · update #2
thanx for the numbers, but I live in Northern Ontario Canada and I can't get through..thanx anyways..Shawny
2007-12-29 12:02:32 · update #3
It's called PTSD, or "Post Traumatic Stress Disorder." The only way to make it any better is through medication, continued therapy, and-- something that helped me-- was going to Celebrate Recovery. It's a Christian 12-step program that's open to everyone-- not "just" alcoholics and addicts. It's really helped me a lot. I was molested as a child, and my husband raped me repeatedly for years, so i have some idea of what you're going through. It's hard to get through at the time, but it WILL get better. Your reactions are natural following what you've been through, and I know how much pain you must be going through now, but trying to close it all back up isn't the answer. It's like trying to cover up a wound that needs stitches. It's not going to heal properly unless you uncover it, let someone stitch it up, and then take care of it while it heals. You'll still have the scar, but it won't be as noticible. If you can, try to leave messages on your therapist's machine, because even if he/she isn't in the office, they should still check messages. Also, try talking to your pastor or other spiritual leader. A lot of times, they can help. Having someone tell you to "get over it" isn't going to help you any, because you have to work through it all before you can heal. It will be incredibly painful for a while, but once you get to the other side, you'll be SO glad you did. I still have knee-jerk-type reactions sometimes, but its a response that I'll probably always have, even though it's not as bad as it used to be. If you need to, please feel free to email me. ladybugabell@sbcglobal.net. I hope things begin to get better for you, and I'll make sure to keep you in my prayers. Just don't give up, okay? Email me if you need to. I'd be glad to help you out in any way I can. :0)
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2007-12-29 13:54:08 · answer #1 · answered by ladybugabell@sbcglobal.net 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Call your therapist's office to see if they have someone on call to deal with your therapists' cases or in case of an emergency.
If you're feeling really unsafe, go to a hospital emergency room. I'm not a professional, but it sounds like PTSD. You should see someone soon, if you don't feel better soon.
Hang in there. you are not alone
2007-12-29 11:53:44 · answer #2 · answered by Anonymous · 2⤊ 0⤋
Chantale, I'm so sorry for what you had to go through 17 yrs ago; but it's over hon.....let it go....please don't hang onto it another minute.
We've all experienced bad things in our lifetimes, and believe me I have so much compassion for you. Your life is so important, not only to those who love you within your family, but to God as well.
Talk to someone.........you don't have to reveal what's bothering you, but just call a family member or a friend and tell them you need somebody to listen while you talk.......please call someone or take a walk....being out in the fresh air helps to clear the mind.
My best to you.....please let us know how you're doing....ok?
2007-12-29 11:56:26 · answer #3 · answered by sugarbee 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I doubt there are many on here who are qualified to help you. Is there a Doctor, or another counsellor/therapist you can ring. You should hand the previous stock of pills to a pharmacist - they may be past their usage date, or not actually helpful to you anymore. Try to get help as soon as possible. Here is not the place for counselling. Please ring your doctor. Take care.
2007-12-29 11:57:17 · answer #4 · answered by blackgrumpycat 7 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Speak to somebody that is trained to help you:
24 hour rape crisis line:888-366-1640
24 hour suicide prevention hotline: 1-800-SUICIDE (784-2433)
Canadian Crisis Line: (519) 759-1572
2007-12-29 11:56:28 · answer #5 · answered by Anonymous · 2⤊ 0⤋