What's the blank spot of your life??

Answer 1

I don't belong anywhere. It seems like I don't have a place in the world, so the world wants me on the *very* bottom, in the gutter.

And yeah, I know, this has gone on for a long time now. It's been going on at least since I was ten years old. I was the different kid (back then) whose mom & dad got divorced...

Then I was the new kid (back then) because my mother and whoever else was around kept moving the family around, on average once a *year* between 2nd grade and high school graduation. And I've always had people my own age get in my face and tell me I'm too ugly, too smart, too poor, too this & that....

So yeah...I'd say the blank spot in my life lies somewhere between being an outcast and being just plain alienated. Meaning, sometimes it feels like I don't fit into society, don't belong in it....and some other times it just feels like *this isn't MY human race* around me. I know some of it is me, Ok? Some of it is depression and other mood issues I have.

But objectively, after some point, you do have to stop blaming yourself, and look outward. If the world is rejecting you constantly....maybe it's because *the world is rejecting you, constantly*. I know. Not that deep is it? It all boils down to the inertia of human nature. We try to change, we want to change....but two weeks into the New Year, *nobody* is sticking to their resolutions, and on the broader level, history insists on rhyming with itself, in a manner that would make Mark Twain half-smile in his sadness.

But hey, it could be worse...I get it. ^_^ I'm not a minority of one. There are other humanoids out there like me, somewhere. We're just rare is all.

Thanks for your time.....Good Question!

Answer 2

Lack of an older brother. :[

Answer 3

Um, I'm missing you?